1650 HRS JULY 27TH 2007

In the afterglow,

just like

when the sun

have sunk below

the distant horizon

but the last of its rays

still glows up the evening sky

in hues of orange

and purple,

I lay in bed

spent and looking

lovingly

at her body

so warm and sensual.

The heart slows down

to a gentle throb,

the lingering feminine taste

on my lips,

the scent of man and woman

hovers in the air,

the mind still

holding off reality

that the passion

has subsided,

but the senses

they remained heightened

and alive,

though the passion

is not but

only a sweet memory.

Does it get better than this?

Is this a lasting treasure?

or just a moment's pleasure.

As love gently slips

into her quiet rest,

in the afterglow.

1535 HRS JULY 26TH 2007

Headlines in TODAY paper,

NOT IN ISLAM'S NAME.

It detailed how the vast majority

of Muslims in the world

are actually against suicide bombers.

90% of Muslims in Indonesia

74% of Muslims in Malaysia

71% of Muslims in Palestine

66% of Muslims in Lebanon.

These are what I call

the Silent Majority.

In this society of ours,

our lives are almost

always ruled,

our thoughts are almost

always dictated,

by the Tyranical Minority.

Just look at Swingabore.

How many of us actually approve

of how this government controls us?

But it is always the tragedy

of the Silent Majority

to let things happen.

Reminds of my darling's

favourite song,

"Fools said I, you do not know,

Silence like a cancer grows.

Hear my words that I might teach you

take my arms that I might reach you

But my words, like silent raindrops fell,

and echoed,

in the wells of silence...."

So I don't know what

the journalist was trying

to achieve by writing

the headlines.

It really does not matter,

if the majority of Muslims

in this world

disapprove of suicide bombing.

The fact remains,

that as long as they remain

the Silent Majority,

we can hope

for no change

in the incidences

of suicide bombing.

1545 HRS JULY 23RD 2007

I felt

like I've finally come home

after travelling

for the longest time,

lost in the wilderness

all alone.

I've searched

the long road

over and over again

always looking,

but not finding,

always hunting,

but not catching,

sometimes catching,

but not keeping.

It takes so much time,

to move on.

At times, I lay down

totally fatigued,

having lost hope.

Wondering if this passion

that I held

in my heart

all these years,

travelling alone

is worth having.

Just who would have

travelled with me???

But now,

I felt like

I've finally

come back

to the warmth comfort

and security

of home.

1440 HRS JULY 18TH 2007

Darling,

you lifted up my spirits,

filled up my heart,

my mind,

my soul,

with loving kindness

giving me the strength

I need

to survive the daily grind

in the workplace.

You took away

my sadness,

and filled me

with gladness.

My eyes get filled

with joy

and thrilled with excitment

My heart and soul

gets filled

with warmth

and love,

Happiness welcomes me

when I wake up

and

the sight of love

greets me

in the morning.

1455 HRS JULY 16TH 2007

To the mother

of my future daughter,

I wonder

how is it like,

to rush home

after work,

to be with you

and her.

I wonder

how is it like

to want to carry

all the burden

take away all the pain

so I can come home

to see you and her

happy again.

I wonder

how is it like

to drop everything

I was doing

to catch our kid

when she falls.

To wipe away her tears

and protect

both of you

from all your fears.

I wonder

what is it like

to spend all my free time

with you and her,

I don't want a babysitter,

I'm here to look after,

because

all that matters

is the sound

of our family laughter.

1130 HRS JULY 12TH 2007

Every sailor knows

that the darkest time

of the night,

is the moment

just before twilight.

And before the sun rises

from the distant horizon,

the rays of light diffuses

into the night air

and gradually emerges

at full strength,

the night is dark no more.

My life been in darkness,

I've been living in

the shadows of my life.

Just at my darkest hour,

you slipped into my life

with your love

gentle and bright

it won't be shaken

perfect and true

I won't be mistaken

warm and strong

it will never be taken

away from me

ever again.

1530 HRS JULY 10TH 2007

Fear cripples

Memories persist.

Ghosts from the past

haunt the present,

the heart dreads

to commit.

Am I wiser

from wretched hardships?

The future

promises its fair share

of the past's sorrows.

But I am determined

not to let yesterday's

broken dreams

rule over

today's happiness.

I will not allow

my loved one

to be a victim

of my past.

As she gently kisses

my fears and insecurities

away,

in a way only she

knows how.

Fear not dear heart,

Fear not

to love.

1600 HRS JULY 9TH 2007

What is Love?

I always wonder.

If this is real,

I'll volunteer

an answer.

Its a strange sense

like you've been wandering

lost in the wilderness

for all your life,

and then

coming home.

Its like

you've been sailing

through stormy weather,

treacherous waves,

raging seas,

and then pulling your ship

back to the safety

of the harbour.

Its like

all you yearn for

is to see

her smile,

to hear

her laughter.

Her happiness

is your happiness

her joy

is your joy.

And you will do everything

humanly possible

and even beg God

for divine strength,

so you can

make her happy

make her smile.

It is when

you see her cry,

it hurts like

an invisible hand

grabbing your heart

and squeezing the life out

with razor sharp nails.

It is when

you see her in pain,

and you want

to strike a deal with God

or the Devil,

to swap places

with her.

So what is Love?

It is when

you just want

to give and give

and expect nothing

or want nothing

in return.

1200 HRS JULY 9TH 2007

Picking up

pieces of a broken heart,

pieces of a broken life.

The days seemed to merge

into the nights

of loneliness

and solitude.

Emptiness

and meaninglessness

hung over me

like stale cigarette smoke

in a small room.

I lay in bed,

silently crying

tears

full of pride.

Consumed with

bitterness

and grief,

I sought happiness

and peace

in endless stacks of

philosophy

and spirituality books.

Just when I started

to accept that mine

is a life of

alienated reclusiveness,

God sent me

a Precious Angel,

and gave me reason

to smile again.

1150 HRS JULY6TH 2007

Sorry Guys,

I know its Friday night,

But

I have no time for a beer

down at Il Fiore,

all the mindless noise,

and breathless smokes.

Because tonight,

I just wanna be

with her.

Just like

last night

and the night before

and the night before

and the night before.

I rather go shopping

with my baby,

hand in hand.

Or simply sitting

under the moonlit night

by the reservoir,

stealing gentle kisses

exchanging loving glances.

Spending hard earned money

buying my baby gifts

and watching her face light up

in delight,

it makes the horrible day

at the office

all worth the while.

So please don't bother me guys,

I've got no time.

I can't wait to leave the office

to see this girl of mine.

Because nothing else matters

in this whole wide world,

really nothing

nothing at all,

when my baby

holds me tight

in her arms,

and makes me feel

really really treasured.

As I look into her eyes,

I'm thinking,

some day I'll be so proud

if she wears my ring.

1000 HRS JULY 4TH 2007

There's something

about her,

I don't quite know

what it is.

She has this smile,

that fills up my day

with gladness.

There's this radiance

about her,

that lights up

all around her

everywhere she goes

no matter who she's with.

She has this way

of pleasing me,

I don't quite know

what it is,

I just have to laugh

and be happy.

She has this way

of holding me,

I don't quite know

what it is,

but I know

its so nice

to feel so treasured

and appreciated,

never taken for granted

never

ever again.

She has this way

of touching me,

deep down into my heart,

we can look

into each other's eyes

without a sound

without a word,

somehow her life

touches mine,

and I know

I can no longer live

without her.

1300 HRS JUNE 3RD 2007

Wise men say,

only fools rush in.

But I can't help

falling in love

with you.

Shall I stay,

will it be a sin,

If I can't help

falling in love

with you.

Like a river flows,

surely to the sea,

Darling, so it goes,

some things,

were meant to be.

Take my hand,

take my whole life too,

For I can't help

falling in love

with you.

- Bob Dylan -

0940 HRS JULY3RD 2007

I love you

not only for

the woman you are

but also for

the woman

you've been trying

to become.

I love you

not only for

the woman you are

but also

for the man

that I become

when I am with you.

I feel inspired

to be a better man.

Not necessarily better man

than others,

but better man

than what I ordinarily

would have been.

God knows,

the number of times

I failed

with a woman.

God knows,

I cannot afford

another failure.

Its gotta happen,

happen sometime,

I've lost the last

3 times.

maybe this time,

just maybe this time,

you and I

we're gonna win.

0110 HRS JULY 3RD 2007

Too many angels,

have watched me cry.

Too many angels,

have watched my heart die.

God has seen me

through my sufferings,

He sent me

a beautiful angel Hue,

to heal a broken heart

and believe in

the miracle of love

again.

I thank God

for Life,

I thank God

for my beautiful Hue.

I'd love you

and treasure you

like a priceless gem,

because

you're God's gift

to me.

Love you always.

1120 HRS JULY 2ND 2007

God,

she is so beautiful,

those eye lashes

they seem to go on forever.

That captivating smile

ends with cute symetrical dimples

that seemed just a tiny bit

out of line.

High cheekbones

that blushes like

a red lantern

when she laughs

that little laughter

covering her mouth

so demurely.

Those misty brown eyes,

they seem to look

beyond my eyes,

right through me,

like she's visually focusing

on something inside my head.

That slight sing song quality

of that gentle

Vietnamese accent,

smiles and laughs

in ever contentment.

Such joy and happiness

she brings,

to those around her.

Even Genghis loves her.

So warm hearted and caring,

totally feminine

in its charming simplicity.

And God, she adores children!!!

Its like

She's everything

I ever hoped for

in a woman,

everything

I ever needed,

and God had to make her

young enough

to be my daughter.

God loves playing

practical jokes

on me.