20081101

0035HRS NOVEMBER 1ST 2008

Nobody falls in love by choice

its by chance.

Nobody stays in love by chance

its by work.

Nobody falls out of love by work

its by choice

20081031

2245 HRS OCTOBER 31ST 2008

I read with utter disgust

PM Lee Hsien Loong's

letter of condolence

to the sons of

JB Jeyaretnam.

Here,

we have two sons

grieving

over the loss

of their father,

and all our prime minister

have to say,

was

"he sought by all means

to demolish the PAP

and our system of government.

Unfortunately,

this helped neither

to build up a

constructive opposition

nor our Parliamentary tradition"

Some letter of condolence.

This was condolence

like Singapore

is a democracy.

Singapore is as

democratic as

Zimbabwe.

Only our public toilets

are cleaner.

Mr Prime Minister sir,

you're about as sensitive

as silicon breast implants.

You just made Kim Jong Il

look like a polished diplomat.

You went on,

to talk about,

how your PAP government

ensured that

the sons of JB Jeyaretnam

were not prejudiced

in finding employment

in Singapore.

Right,

self glorification

about your compassion

in a letter of condolence.

You just proved

you're as compassionate

as Adolf Hitler.

The next time we complain

about Singaporeans being

an uncompassionate lot,

we know

it started from

the very top.

Our kids sing

on National Day,

there is no place else,

I'd want to be.

Maybe Zimbabwe

sounds nicer.

At least Robert Mugabe

does not pretend

to be democratic.

You fucking cold blooded reptile

20081015

1320 HRS OCTOBER 15TH

Today's papers reported.

Singapore's Olympic silver medal

winning table tennis team,

is quitting Singapore

to ply their trade

elsewhere.

Barely two months,

after winning the silver medal

and pocketing

Singaporean taxpayer's

$750,000

they decided to quit Singapore,

to ply their trade elsewhere.

Singapore Sports Minister said,

they may be China born,

but they played their hearts out

for Singapore.

Right.

Now, they're quitting.

Did they play their hearts out

for Singapore,

or for the prize money?

If indeed they played their

hearts out for Singapore,

how about giving us

the money back?

Nobody seems to remember,

they bitched and moaned

about paying income tax

on their prize money.

Yeah, they played their hearts out

for Singapore,

and after taking the money,

they won't pay tax,

won't give anything back.

These Singapore government guys

simply don't get it.

Perhaps they never will.

Singaporeans are Singaporeans.

No amount of money you throw

at a foreigner,

will turn him or her

into a Singaporean.

You just given them

a NRIC

and lots of money,

but you did not make them

a Singaporean.

Now our preparations

of London Olympics 2012

are all shattered,

because of a bunch of people

that this government said

played their hearts out

for Singapore.

20081009

1700 HRS OCTOBER 9TH 2008

Spent the last 10 days

in Vietnam.

What a great time.

Had a lovely chat,

with my grandpa in law.

He is a REAL DUDE.

DA MAN....

He was suspected

of collabarating with

French and American imperialists.

The Viet Cong captured him

and tortured him.

Put him in a

squatting space only

bamboo cage.

He stayed there for months.

Ate in there, slept in there,

shit in there.

Beaten, stabbed,

branded with hot irons.

Refused to confess

to the bitter end.

All those who confessed

were subsequently

buried alive.

Grandpa in law

was a simple fisherman.

What the fuck he cares

about Marxism, socialism, capitalism, democracy???

The Vietcongs

terrorized the fishermen

in his village.

They came at night

demanding food and medicine

and sometimes shelter

for their wounded.

Would you dare to argue

against someone

with a loaded machine gun???

And for that,

the Americans

pounded his village

daily with bombs.

Cannon shells shot

over from the warships

destroying the village,

flattening all the houses.

Grandpa in law

dug a tunnel

under his house,

reinforced it with concrete.

To protect the family.

They will survive

near misses,

but not direct hits.

Neighbouring families

dugged into concrete reinforced

tunnels,

who got direct hits

from incoming cannon shells

were wiped out.

Fuck you Americans la.

If its the Viet Cong

you were looking for,

they've all ran

to the neighbouring mountains.

The small handful still hiding

in the village,

were mortally wounded

and not battle worthy.

But you Americans still

proceed your murderous

bombing campaign,

obliterating villages,

annihilating thousands

of innocent fishermen.

And today,

you fucking dare to

whine,

bitch,

moan

about 9-11 ?

For all the deaths

and sufferings

you caused

in Vietnam alone,

you deserve to have

at least a thousand more

9-11s !!!

You do not have

the moral authority

to even question,

why people hate Americans

so much!!!!

There is no other nation

more violent

and war mongering

than you guys!!!

I used to think

American citizens

are alright,

just unfortunate

to have a government

with a violent

and war mongering

foreign policy.

But you guys

voted a murderer

like George Bush,

not once,

but twice.

Don't ever whine

when the world hates you.

You deserve

every bit of misery

you get.

You're so lucky

people like grandpa in law

are too peaceful.

He still suffers nightmares

of of the war.

But he is just happy

to have survived

3 wars.

Trust me,

some people

are not so benign,

they will want

to get even.

20080924

1235 HRS SEPTEMBER 24TH 2008

There is just simply no end

to this Swingabore government bullshit.

Two Singaporean paraplegics

won a gold, a silver and 2 bronzes

in Paralympics.

And they get paid 1/10th

the amount

that was promised

to the Chinese table tennis players.

These Singaporeans,

overcame physical disability

and against insurmountable odds

went beyond their handicaps

and won for the country

of their birth.

And they get paid 1/10th

when they deserve to be paid

10 times more

and not 1/10th.

Fuck you la Swingabore.

Just because these

Singaporean paraplegics

are not your expensive

foreign talent programme

and they achieved

a whole lot more,

so you pay them

a whole lot less.

I try so hard

to think like the way

you do,

but I can't push

my head up

my ass

quite far enough.

20080905

1645 HRS SEPTEMBER 5TH 2008

I was talking to my friend,

when suddenly we talked about

Dr Vivian Balakrishnan.

I wanted to talk about this guy

for a long time,

but he is such a forgetable

and laughable character,

I never got down to it.

I remembered early this year,

Dr Vivian talked about

wooing overseas Singaporeans

to come back.

Yeah right,

after years of

dictatorial oppression

by your PAP government,

driving out hundreds of thousands

of the smartest

and most talented Singaporeans

of my generation,

and now you want them back?

Just what do you have here?

Other than your

multi million dollar

minister salaries.

Can you afford to pay them

your kind of salaries?

Otherwise, what?

Do you think

they are hard up

for a smaller house here

than what they have there?

A smaller car here

than what they have there?

Why did they leave,

in the very first place?

Because its better

to have a say,

to have a voice

than forever live in fear

whenever you have

a dissenting voice.

Back home in Singapore,

we are all nothing but statistics

to our dictatorial government.

We have no say,

no voice.

We do everything we were told,

and the Lees do anything,

they feel like.

My friend Martyn See

made a movie "Singapore Rebel"

and kena hauled off

to the police station

being questioned

for hours.

And his film

got banned

and further warned

never to make another

similiar movie.

Does the talented overseas Singaporeans

want to live in your kind

of police state?

Maybe if you offer everyone

your kind of salary.

Having said that,

Dr Vivian,

please lah...

your youth days in NJC,

you were so anti-government.

Until you joined the government.

Yes, you sold your soul

for government money.

So throwing money

at talented overseas Singaporeans,

might just work.

Again, at the tax payer expense,

of Singaporeans

working their lives out

like a dog.

I remember

when you first joined the government.

You said,

you wanted to make a difference.

Please la,

you knew,

if you really wanted

to make a difference,

you would NOT

have joined the government

and just being another

barking dog

for your Lee family bosses.

In the meantime,

Dr Vivian,

stop talking cock lah.

20080825

2300 HRS AUGUST 25TH 2008

This fucking Swingabore government

every fucking year

they raise tobacco taxes

in the name of

"discouraging smoking".

All well and good.

You win,

you're the good guy.

I'm trying to quit smoking.

But,

one question Sir,

if the government is trying

to discourage smoking

by imposing high tobacco taxes,

why the hell fuck

is the cost of nicotine gum

TWICE that of cigarettes?

If you really want to

"discourage smoking",

why didn't you subsidse

part of the cost

of giving up smoking,

using the hefty income

you made from

tobacco taxes?

Its so fucking easy

to expose

the fucking money grabbing

greed

of this fucking Swingabore government.

Fucking hippocrites.

20080820

1755 HRS AUGUST 20TH 2008

So Singapore

won its first

Olympic medal

since 1960.

Big cause for celebration.

Chinese players

wearing a Singaporean shirt.

Sports Minister said

the players maybe

Chinese born and bred

but they are

Singaporean citizens

and they played their hearts out

for Singapore.

Yeah right.

They just happen

to be paid

alot of money

$750,000

to get that medal.

The highest in the world

for an Olympic medal.

They were paid alot of money

to migrate to Singapore

and be Singapore citizens.

They were paid alot of money,

and its all our money.

Tax payers money.

They did not come here

because they love laksa.

They did not come here

because they love doing

national service.

They did not come here

because they want to learn

Singlish.

In fact they do

everything they can,

not to learn Singlish.

The only thing Singaporean

about them,

is their NRIC cards

and they earn tax payers money.

Lots of money.

Why celebrate?

Well, Singapore has for

about 12 years now

been trying to buy

us an Olympic medal.

We finally got

what we paid for

after about 12 years.

Yeah,

big cause for celebration

20080804

1635 HRS AUGUST 4TH 2008

Old friends

we were once young

naive and innocent.

now we're past middle aged,

past 40,

pushing 50 soon

like a tired old

bulldozer.

when was the last time,

we met?

did you say 15 years ago?

we've put on some weight

our hair is greying

our knees ache

i didn't know.

we shared our life stories

thrills and spills.

how we fell

and how we rose again.

but we always knew

we're still there

to have a laugh.

years apart

but yet

we were so

at ease

with each other.

its like as though

there were no years

in between.

you used to complete

my sentences

when I ran out

of words.

all these years later,

somehow we just knew

what each of us

would say,

even before we began

a sentence.

where are those years guys?

where have they gone to?

we were wild.

we were rebellious

we were angry

we didn't know why.

we thought

we were different.

but now we know

we were just stupid,

at least I was.

those are memories now

distant memories.

but because we remember,

we remain friends

dear to our hearts.

i forgot how

friendship used to be

so innocent.

we had nothing

we could use.

friendship was pure

with no monetary benefit.

networking was not invented

when you were in college.

So lets raise a glass

or two

as we talked

about our dreams

aspirations

failures

successes.

how our lives

diverged

and how we can still

pick up so easily

where we left off.

it made us laugh

it made us cry.

we lost all those years

drifting apart

lets not make

that same mistake

again.

Friends like Us

don't always come by

you realised that.

20080729

1225 HRS JULY 29TH 2008

Amnesty International

making an issue

that human rights have not improved

in Beijing

inspite of the Olympics Games 2008

being awared to Beijing.

Just what the hell fuck

is all that about?

If human rights is the basis

of awarding Olympic Games

to a city,

why the hell fuck then,

did they award Olympic Games 1936

to Hitler's Berlin?

20080728

1530 HRS JULY 28TH 2008

Have not written

for many months.

Since I moved office

and no longer have the luxury

of having the privacy

to write.

But I just have to,

say something

about what I just read.

Scientists estimate,

that the USA have

about 86 billion barrels

of crude oil,

that is still untapped.

Considering that the USA

consumes about 7.5 billion barrels

of crude oil annually,

that translates to about 12 years

of crude oil,

that is independent of Middle East supplies.

Yet, presidential candidate Barack Obama said,

"Offshore drilling would not lower gas prices today,

it would not lower gas prices next year,

and it would not lower gas prices 5 eyars from now"

Yes, it is true

that newly discovered reserves of oil,

takes a long time to deliver.

But that does not mean you don't drill now!!!

Drill for those 86 billion barrels now

for fuck's sakes!!!!

Just because drilling for oil now

does not give you its benefits

does not mean you don't drill!!!

And Senator Obama Sir,

I disagree with you.

If you drill for oil now,

gas prices will drop IMMEDIATELY!!!

Lets say it takes 10 years,

for your crude oil

to come online,

and supply USA

for another 12 years,

what do you think,

the oil producers of the world

will do now?

They will immediately

sell their crude oil

like motherfucks!!!!

Coz they know,

in 10 years,

you don't need their oil!!!

So they sell their oil now,

flood the market with supply,

drive prices down for 10 years.

After 10 years,

you don't need them for

another 12 years.

In total of 22 years,

I can bet,

the world will have

alternative fuel sources

anyway.

Drill now you

stupid American motherfucker.

You can save the entire world,

a lot of grief

from expensive oil prices,

which incidentally,

your Hummers and SUVs

helped created

in the first place.

20080409

1100 HRS APRIL 9TH 2008

Last night,

she woke up at 2.45 am

to accompany me

watch Liverpool win

in one of the greatest nights

of my life.

No women have ever done that

for me.

I married her

169 days

after I met her.

I now regret

that I waited

that long.

20080328

1030 HRS MARCH 28TH 2008

Oh fuck,

just when I thought

I have nothing to do

on a Friday morning,

and looking forward

to the weekend,

I had to

just had to

read this fucking article

written by some fucking American

about how South East Asia

were once untouched

and forgotten paradises.

Critical

of how modern

and commercial

South East Asia

has become.

Blaming how

mass tourism

has ruined

or spoilt

these once untouched

paradises

of South East Asia.

Oh, get a fucking life

you motherfucker.

This is the reality of life now

you better get used to it.

Don't blame mass tourism,

modern civilisation

has accorded our people

with schools and education,

roads, ports, airports,

telecommunications, power supply,

clean water, advance medicine,

the infrastructure for modern life

to thrive on.

What is so mother fucking wrong with that?

Why put the blame on mass tourists?

As opposed to what?

Budget backpack tourists

of your fucking era?

Bringing a few dollars

to spend in a shoe string hostel,

and bringing along venereal diseases

and drugs?

South East Asia maybe living in

villages then,

but we sure as hell

can do without you

and your flower power hippee thrash.

For that matter,

why stop at old hippee

budget tourists?

Why not blame your

fucking colonial forefathers?

Why the fuck did they

come,

steal our land,

kill our men,

fuck our women?

South East Asia

was a greater paradise then.

Why don't you look

at your own fucked up country?

America was once

a beautiful paradise

of sweeping plains,

roaming buffaloes

great evergreen forests

and native Americans.

Why the fuck,

are you and your white thrash people

doing in America?

Why don't you guys all

go back to Europe

where you belong,

return America to

its rightful people,

the native Americans,

and turn America

back into a paradise

of sweeping plains

roaming buffaloes

great evergreen forests?

South East Asia is not ruined,

it has merely changed,

probably for the better.

If you're not gonna complain

about how America

is no longer a paradise,

just shut the fuck up

about our country.

Just Fuck Off

20080325

1545 HRS MARCH 25TH 2008

Just got back

from Shanghai.

That country is so amazing.

The scale of that economy

defied that little brain

of mine.

4 years ago,

driving along Pudong,

I saw thousands and thousands

of new condominums

with occupancy rate

of at most 10-15%.

My immediate analysis

was

OVERSUPPLY.

This property market

will crash.

But this time,

those same condominums

are like 99% occupied.

Even more amazing,

I can see its mostly

local Chinese

that are living

in those condos.

I could tell

by the underwear,

bras and panties

hanging by the windows.

It was 10 deg so

the windows were all closed

and they hung their laundry

by the windows

to get some sunlight.

Its stunning

how the size of this economy

could just absorb such supply

and still demand more.

Such a housing situation

would have sent Singapore

into a housing slump

needing decades

to recover.

Our last housing slump,

lasted 9 years.

When I walked around

Old Shanghai,

I did not like it

at first.

Just outside YuYuan,

I felt it was no more

than a fakey Disneyland type

of tourist trap.

Fake old buildings

and salesgirls peddling

fake cultural souvenirs

wearing fake chongsams.

And then I looked around

and realised,

about 95% of Shanghai's tourists

are Mainland Chinese

from other parts of China!!!

Such is this newly created wealth

and the scale of it

is just mind boggling.

Foreigners need not participate

they find it easier and faster

to sell to cash rich Chinese.

The last time I was

at Park 97 disco,

the place was teeming

with angmor men

and local chinese girls

throwing themselves

at them.

Now,

the angmor men

won't even get a look.

The locals were busy

partying

and boozing off

expensive whisky bottles.

Singapore is such

a backward place

by comparison.

Wife found

the grandmother

of factory outlets.

Right on the outskirt

of Shanghai,

with about 240

branded boutiques

and cash rich Mainlanders

walking around with bags

and bags of loot,

typically speaking

so loudly.

I felt like a poor loser

from Singapore,

making mental calculations

on the discount.

And of course,

the 431 kmph Maglev,

the fastest train

in the world.

It was a train ride

worthy of an orgasm.

The Germans built it

for China,

but they don't have

the money to build it

in Germany

although they have

the technology.

They must have thought,

the chinese were stupid

to pay for their technology

and build a train

that runs just 8 minutes

to the airport.

But just watch,

in a few years,

you will see

Chinese made Maglevs

running all over

China.

Not only that,

they will export

these trains too.

Just watch.

20080319

1525 HRS MARCH 19TH 2008

You asked,

just why do I hate Singapore so much?

You're so wrong.

I love Singapore.

I love this country,

thats why I raise issues

because I hope to see

a change.

If I don't give a shit,

I would not have bothered.

If Singapore is so good

in your eyes,

what is wrong

with someone like me

wanting to make it

even better?

If I speak

in the broadest sense,

my biggest dissatisfaction,

arises from my feeling

of being disenfranchised

by my own country.

I do not have a say,

my people do not have a say

in anything that goes on

in our own country.

From my previous rant,

about the overcrowded MRTs.

Its a common complaint,

but the ruling elite

will just throw in some statistics

and everybody shuts up.

I feel like building a cage

1 metre square,

and invite 6 MPs

in Parliament

including the Transport Minister

to cram into it

and stay there for 30 minutes.

Since I do not

the highest paid politicians

in the world,

to ever step inside

an MRT

in peak hours.

They tell us,

we need a population

of 6.5 million people,

without explaining

how the existing infrastructure

is going to cope.

We do not have a say

about immigration policies,

what sort of foreign talent

will they invite.

When I look around,

I only see the foreign,

not the talented.

Its the entire unquestioning system

that started from Minister Mentor Lee

and perpeptuated by Prime Minister Lee.

They decide

we all follow.

I suspect,

the Lee family considers

Parliamentary sessions

as a waste of time too,

just putting up a charade

so we can tell the world

we are a democracy.

We are not a democracy.

We are a dictatorship

acting as a democracy.

All policies

are determined

by the ruling elite.

And clearly,

in the formulation

of these policies,

the citizens

like you and me

are not considered

at all.

I see old men

staring quietly

into their beers

at the kopi tiams.

I see struggle written

on their faces.

I see their miserable

and demeaning existence.

Does anybody care?

And when I protest,

you ask me to migrate.

Just who the hell fuck

you think you are,

to deserve the right

to ask me to migrate

away from the country

of my birth?

This is precisely

the government attitude

towards its people.

The hotel checkin and checkout

attitude.

It can apply

to foreigners

with no vested interests here.

But nobody,

I repeat nobody.

Have a right

to ask me or you

to get lost.

Not even Lee Kuan Yew

and especially not you.

20080317

1650 HRS MARCH 17TH 2008

This motherfucking country.

When we complain of

overcrowded trains,

some fucking transport minister

throws us some fucking statistic

like SMRT average of

4 passengers per square metre

as compared to 6 passengers

per square metre in other cities.

And

our trains average passenger load

is 1200 passengers

although the engineering limit

is 1800 passengers.

Thank You Mr Transport Minister.

One question Sir.

Just when is the last time,

you took a fucking MRT train?

Have you ever

had your foreign talent's armpit

thrust into your face

on your fucking MRT train?

Have you ever

stood on your fucking MRT train

with no handrails to hold?

And many others around you,

have nothing to hold on to?

Do you know how fucking dangerous

that is?

If your fucking MRT train

have to make an emergency stop?

Do you need a fatal accident,

to listen?

How do you feel,

when your wife or daughter,

have to fold their arms

in order not to have their tits molested

because of your

fucking overcrowded MRT trains?

Let's take a look,

at your fucking SMRT financial reports.

Let's look at your profits first.

2004 nett $89.5 million profit

2005 nett $126.7 million profit

2006 nett $103.4 million profit

2007 nett $135.4 million profit

Now, let's look at your percentage passenger growth.

2003 1.2%

2004 (0.7%)

2005 2.8%

2006 2.8%

2007 5.1%

Overall, the passenger growth

on your fucking MRT train

is growing at a compounded rate.

Now lets look at your

car kilometres spanned.

2003 89.6 million km

2004 77.4 million km

2005 75.1 million km

2006 75.5 million km

2007 77.1 million km

Clearly, the frequency of

fucking MRT trains

have DECREASED

while your passenger growth

have INCREASED

and your nett profits

have INCREASED!!!!

When you show us some

fucking statistic,

show us some other

fucking statistic,

you motherfucker

20080219

1535 HRS FEBRUARY 19TH 2008

Can the blind cry

Can the mute scream

Can the deaf man hear

those tears

that flow

in the rivers

and form

the sea.

Can Daddy hold you

for just one precious minute?

What could Daddy have done?

I begged for an answer.

Can Daddy

take your place

instead?

Prayers of anguish

and cries of agony

disappear into nothingness.

Mother Mary mocks me

as her lips curl

into that twisted smile

holding Christ our Lord.

We could have

had so much fun together.

Going boating,

and dive into the sea

taking turns to be

Godzilla?

Building sandcastles

and destroying them.

Drift car racing,

like we're Jackie Chan?

playing frisbee,

and catch it

with one hand

between the legs?

play rugby,

and slide in the mud

and giggle

knowing Mum will kill us?

play tennis,

and pretend

Federer is a loser?

Watching Loserpool lose again,

another reason to drink beers

and smoke ciggys?

Do you know that Daddy

was great

at inventing kid's stories?

Your cousins loved them.

Will you ever know?

Will you ever call me Dad

one day when we meet

in Heaven?

Your cot

Dad made sure

its made in Denmark,

no leaded paint

or toxic coatings,

lies empty.

The whole house

is hollow,

devoid of the soul

you could have brought.

Will we ever laugh

with Nemo

or sing

with Sebastian

and Ariel?

Could we have conspired

to stay out of trouble

from Mum?

Dad is fun

Mum is business.

Could we have tortured

Genghis together?

Bath him

in the washing machine?

All that is gone,

in the trauma

of the worst weekend

in Daddy's life,

and Mummy's too.

Did you see Mum and Dad

feverishly praying

that you will survive?

Did you hear Mum

telling you

that all is OK

and that you will be fine?

How can we say goodbye

when we never said hello.

We dreamt

that you are tough

and will survive anything

and joked that if we did not

give you education,

you'd be a gangster chief.

All we could do

is say we love you,

beneath the grainy black and white

of the ultrasound

as you did 3 vertical jumps.

All we could do

is to cry in vain

as you lie lifeless

amongst the bloodied mess

on the petri dish.

Can Daddy just hold you

for one precious minute?

When the blind cries

and the mute screams

and the deaf hears

them both.

20080130

1720 HRS January 30th 2008

As I approach,

the end of another

working day.

Another rough day

in the stock markets.

I can hardly,

muster the strength

to even smile.

But as I make my way home

Through the maddening crowd

on the MRT,

I have 25 minutes,

to put a smile

on my face,

when I meet

my darling wife.

When I sit down

For dinner

with our family,

Its feels like,

I’ve just been through hell,

And emerged

In heaven.

Our family,

Is my heaven

Right here

On earth.

I can hardly wait

for our baby

to arrive.

I cannot think

Of a more noble calling

In life

than to bring up

our child

with you

by my side.

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