1220 hrs December 22nd 2005

And so this is

yet another

Christmas.

Another year over

another year older.

As I rue

about how

I am going

to spend Christmas Eve

all by myself

over a bottle

of wine

alone.

Maybe the problem

is me.

Maybe

I expect

too much

and invariably

get dissappointed.

Maybe

its because

I wanted you

to be

like me.

Maybe

its because

I would never

do the things

you do

to someone

I love.

Maybe

its because

I would never

say the things

you say

to someone

I love.

Maybe I am

just like Pygmalion

in the Greek legend.

Pygmalion found

women

way too

imperfect,

he decided

to create

his perfect woman.

He took a marble slab

and laboured on it

for months.

Carving here,

smoothing there,

rounding here,

chipping there.

Working till

he created

his perfect

feminine form

embodying grace

and virtue.

The statue he created

was exquisite.

So perfect indeed,

that Pygmalion

fell in passionate love

with his creation.

He would be seen

kissing the statue,

talking to the statue,

fingering its

marble hands.

But in spite

of his work's perfection,

Pygmalion was

desparately unhappy.

For the lifeless statue

could not respond

to his desires,

the cold stone

could not return

the warmth

of his love.

He has set out

to create

his perfect woman

but only succeeded

in creating

his own frustration

and despair.

Maybe I'm like

Pygmalion.

Maybe I tried

too hard

to mould you

into my idea

of a perfect woman,

and only succeeded

to be frustrated

and bitter.

Maybe if you actually

became more

like what

I wanted

of you,

it would rob you

of your life's spirit,

your distinctiveness.

Maybe I should just

accept you

for what you are.

Maybe I should just

accept that

you're just a

very abusive person.

Physically abusive

Emotionally abusive

Spiritually abusive

Intellectually abusive.

Maybe I should just

accept all that

like a man.

Maybe I should

accept that

you will never

be wholly mine,

and I have to share

you with other guys.

Maybe my fucking problem

is I think too much

2350 hrs December 16th 2005

No,

its not true

that I have

an attitude problem.

Its you.

You have a fucking

perception problem

1950 hrs December 16th 2005

For the record,

now

You are to me,

what

Avian flu virus

is to chickens

1235 hrs December 16th 2005

I've given up

arguing with you.

Arguing with you,

is like running

in the Special Olympics.

Even if I win

the race,

I will still feel

fucking retarded.

1940 hrs December 12th 2005

How do you catch Chelsea?

Easy,

you dig a huge hole

on the football field.

Cover the hole up

with long twigs

and place carpet grass

over the twigs,

no one can see,

the hole.

Next you get a referee

to stand at the edge

of the covered hole,

and he blows

a foul,

against Chelsea.

Soon, you will have

10 Chelsea players

running in protest

towards the referee,

and fall

into the big hole.

I call this

out of the hole

thinking.

1745 hrs December 12th 2005

You're an even more pathetic thing.

Even Planet Lemon

can't find something

so bitter.

If you were a man,

you would be a tramp,

hanging out

at children's playgrounds,

going to young girls,

and flashing

your flaccid penis

at them.

1130 hrs December 11th 2005

You poor pathetic thing.

You're a bitter lemon

floating on the Lemon Sea

with other bitter lemons

from Planet Lemon.

Lighten up will you?

Learn to laugh a little

and life gets fun.

You take yourself

too seriously.

Give yourself

a new meaning

in life,

and work towards it.

I'm working on

bending my back

so much,

I'll be able

to give myself

a blowjob.

Am still working

on it.

Some Christian author

calls it

A Purpose Driven Life

1400 hrs December 7th 2005

It is simply not true

that guns

kill people.

Nope, its not true

that people

kill people either.

Its bullets

that kill people.

1120 hrs December 5th 2005

What would you do for Jesus Christ?

Hmmmmmm.....

OK, I'll put him at centre forward,

and play Peter Crouch behind him.

I watched Saturday's game closely,

and concluded Rafa Benitez

is a Messiah.

He maximised Hyypia's

positional play

and heading abilities,

minimized his lack of pace

at the centre of defense,

by have Carragher

on his left,

and Finnan

on his right.

Rock solid defense,

guys playing their hearts out

for each other.

Warnock to provide

additional cover,

or Riise and Finnan

attacking wingbacks.

In midfield,

we have Sissoko and Hamann,

playing defensive midfield,

cutting out attacks early,

so the back 4,

can defend much higher

up the field,

employing offside traps

to perfection.

Alonso and Gerrard,

versatile attacking midfielders

and yet comes back to help

in defense.

Kewell, Garcia, Zenden

providing width at the

attacking flanks,

Crouch, Morientes, Cisse

up front.

Yes, Jesus would be good

at centre forward.

0850 hrs December 2nd 2005

Dear Mr Prime Minister,

you just killed

that young Australian

for drug trafficking.

You know, prime minister sir,

you so happened

to be born

into a powerful

billionaire ruling family.

If you were 22,

grew up

in a Thai refugee camp,

beaten up by an

unloving step father,

and your family

is desparately deep

in debt,

I am really not sure

you will do better

than young Nguyen.

It was his first ever trip

outside Australia,

what are the chances,

of him knowing

of Singapore'e death penalty?

All he could see,

was quick money,

to solve his family problems.

Mr Prime Minister Sir,

you were born fortunate,

but you displayed

completely no compassion

for the unfortunate.

Mr Prime Minister,

you bastard.

God have mercy

on your stinking soul.

1320 hrs December 1st 2005

NKF income statement for 2004

is on TODAY paper.

Shocking crime.

Let's examine it

a little closer.

Staff costs $32.7 million

Donations $73.6 million

These guys take 45%

of other people's generosity

and stuff it

in their pockets.

Other costs $9.6 million

Hey, you gotta do better

than that?

$9.6 million blown away

is 13%

of other people's generosity.

You simply can't

write it off

as "other costs".

Even churches,

take only 10%

of other people's money.

Oh I guess

that is where

the golden tap

and first class tickets

come from.

Dialysis costs $13.4 million

Dialysis income $24.2 million

You fuckers!!!

You made money

from sick people,

and still ask

for donations???

Total fund raising cost $21.6 million

Donations $73.6 million

You spend 30% of donations,

to get donations?

Must your fund raising

be so fucking lavish

involving TV stars?

Admin costs @11.3 million

Shit!!!

Are their computer keyboards

gold plated too?

The bottom line is,

this is a fucking crime.

And if they're no

punitive measures taken,

it only means

the government

is a partner

in crime too.