2015 hrs May 27th 2006

These spam mails

can actually be funny

if they were not

so annoying.

Its people like you,

that I denied

the comments function

on this blog.

Yes, I am an old man

with a young beautiful girlfriend.

Eat your fucking heart out.

It's not my fault

that I'm rich

and you

and your boyfriend/husband

are fucking losers.

1210 hrs May 26th 2006

According to

Google Trends,

Singaporeans ranked

the most frequent searchers

for the word "Happiness"

and the 2nd most frequent searchers

for the word "Lonely".

It implies

Singaporeans

are lonely people

searching the internet

for happiness.

How sad.

I guess we don't need

Google Trends

to tell us

we're really

one miserable people.

Seems like all young couples

spend their entire salaries

paying for their house

and car.

When they cannot afford that

they try so hard

to impress

with trendy branded bags.

They seem to think

once they have kids,

its like a curse

and life as they know it

is over.

Always chasing

the next dollar,

another day

another dollar.

Well, materialism

is a fact of life

in a capitalist society,

but when you have

a society,

where you feel

the odds were stacked

deliberately

against you,

you feel

disenfranchised

and a certain lack

of belonging,

that the government

is out to screw you

at every roll

of the dice,

yes

Life is bleak,

very bleak

1345 hrs May 23rd 2006

So the New NKF

is sueing

TT Durai

for $12 million.

Guess the poor guy

have to downgrade

his golden taps now.

I hate to think

of number of kidney failure

patients

who have to die

because of this guy.

But

when the fuck

are you gonna stop

making a scapegoat

out of him?

Why kick a man

who is already down?

What I am more interested to know

is what is being done

to prevent a recurrence?

How do you prevent

another old NKF

when this government

promotes a culture

of non-transparency,

opaqueness

closets full

of dirty little secrets?

I want HDB

to open up their books

and show

what is the real cost

of building flats.

When by law,

this government

can acquire freehold land

and compensate the owner

with 1972 prices,

YES 1972 prices

and its law,

Singapore law.

And still have the audacity

to tell people

that their HDB flats

is "government subsidised".

Subsidised my ass.

Are we really that stupid?

Explain to me how

does HDB acquire land

at 1972 prices

and still report

losses every year

on their website.

The numbers

simply do not

add up.

Where did the money

disappear to?

1510 hrs May 20th 2006

Its okay

to be kissed

by a fool.

It is even okay

to kiss

a fool.

But never never never

be fooled

by a kiss

0235 hrs May 20th 2006

Damned, I can't stop it,

like a deluge

of memories

"This is the end,

my beautiful friend,

the end.

My only friend,

the end.

The end

of our elaborate plans.

The end

of everything that stands.

The end.

No safety or surprises

the end

I'll never look into your eyes

again"

Jim Morrison and the Doors

that guy was a genius

who simply could not fit

into this world.

Years later,

I went to Paris,

while wife shopped

at LV,

I was at the cemetry

paying tribute

to Jim

0220 hrs May 20th 2006

Damned, I'm drunk.

But to be fair,

not all the best

of rock poetry

was written 30 years ago.

"When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears,

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.

I held your hand through all of these years.

But you still have...

All of me"

Evanesence

how I wished

I married that chick

instead

0200 hrs May 20th 2006

Wah, at the age of 42,

I've joined the Ipod generation.

Thats has got to be a fucking achievement

by itself.

Although it took me all night

to figure out Itunes software.

But suddenly,

disembodied voices

and haunted lyrics

which I thought

I forgotten

came flooding back

from the first half

of my life.

"Fathers and Mothers

throughout the land

don't critisize

what you don't understand

coz your sons and your daughters

are beyond your command

your old road

is rapidly ageing

so get out of the new one

if you can't lend a hand,

coz the times

they are a changing."

Bob Dylan

I heard that verse

when I was a poxy kid

of 15 years

through a beat up Rediffusion box

and now

I have Ipod,

and those rebellious

teenage years

suddenly burned

within me.

"then take me disappearing

through the smoke rings of my mind

Down the foggy ruins of time

far past the frozen leaves

the haunted frightened trees

out to the windy beach

far from the twisted reach

of crazy sorrow

Yes to dance beneath the diamond sky

with one hand waving free

silhouetted by the sea

cricled by the circus sands

with all memory and fate

driven deep beneath the waves

let me forget about today

until tomorrow"

Bob Dylan

I was 16,

and moved out

of the house,

I just wanted to run away,

told Mum I had to get away

from this crazy family,

so I can do

my "O" levels.

St Pat's 1980

what a way to screw up

a teenage mind.

"The screen door slams

Mary dress waves

like a vision she dances across the porch

as the radio plays

Roy Orbison sings for the lonely,

Hey baby, thats me

and I want you only.

Don't turn me away

coz I can't face myself

along again"

Bruce Springsteen

17 years old and my first love

in CJC.

"Freedom is another word

when you have nothing left

to lose.

Nothing is worth nothing

but its free"

Janis Joplin

18 and going to the army

feeling the world

was not meant for me

and society

simply didn't intend

to have me in it.

"Scarecrows dressed in latest styles

with frozen smiles

to chase love away"

Randy Newman

I thought I lived

amonst zombies

I still do, 20 years later.

"coz I'd rather stay here

with all the madmen

then perish with the sadmen

roaming free.

And I rather play here

with all the madmen

for I'm quite content

they're all as sane

as me"

David Bowie

Perhaps I was schizo already

20 years ago.

1100 hrs May 18th 2006

I don't know

what is the big deal

about Da Vinci Code.

In the first place,

I hate Tom Hanks.

Just because he looks like such

a typical bland American

man on the street loser,

he is so celebrated.

They should rename his movies

Tom Hanks on an island

Tom Hanks in 50s America

Tom Hanks in Space

Tom Hanks in an airport.

The movie have not even debut

in Swingabore,

but I already know,

its gonna be a bore.

Why the hell fuck

should anybody give a damn

about Da Vinci Code anyway?

If I was famous,

and wrote a series of binary numbers

00101011100101010010101010101111000

after I died, someone will probably

say that it was a secret code

and I fucked his grandmother

and had a kid.

Why bother about things

that for all intents

and purposes

will be impossible

to prove?

And why should there

be any proof

anyway?

Religion

is all about faith.

If you need proof

to believe

or disbelieve,

you're barking up

the wrong tree,

forget Christianity.

You can even prove

that Jesus raped

his mother,

and millions of Christians

will still gladly

make their pastors rich.

Although if I can prove

that Jesus Christ

was a black Indian guy,

80% of charismatic christians

in Swingabore,

will turn buddhist,

such is this white worshipping

country.

A completely pointless exercise

and a waste

of fucking time.

And the author Dan Brown

was smart,

he wrote about Jesus Christ.

If he wrote about

Prophet Muhammad,

there will be blood

on the streets

again.

1610 hrs May 17th 2006

They always said,

breaking up

is hard to do.

I dunno,

I've been through it

so many times,

its easier

than easy.

For a start,

have a clean break.

A happy closure,

celebrate

a new life.

No phonecalls

No emails

No SMS

You can care

or even have platonic love

for your ex

but from a distance

please.

Give him/her,

give yourself

a chance

to recover.

I used to think

that being friends

with your ex

is a great idea.

Afterall, who knows you better

than someone who shared

the same bed with you

for years?

I still think so,

but there needs

to be,

a long period

of absolutely

no contact.

Personally,

I reckon

about 2-3 years.

I do emphatise

that letting go

of those shared history

those joys and tears

and assigning it to

no more than

useless memories

can be quite

difficult

to let go totally.

But trust me,

being friends

with someone

whom you just broken off

is difficult,

maybe impossible even.

When relationships go

from romantic

to platonic,

expectations

of each other

takes time

to change.

Feelings get hurt

egos get bruised

People move on,

but rarely

at the same pace.

There is a tendency

to compare

to compete even.

The guy I'm seeing

is richer than you,

the girl I'm seeing

has bigger tits etc etc etc

Don't get me wrong,

I don't believe in

being bitter

towards your ex.

On the contrary,

I believe

one should love

the ex,

but in a different way.

Years from now,

we can be best friends,

but certainly

not now.

All of the above applies

but with one exception,

when kids

are involved.

Because when kids

are involved,

everything you guys do

have to take their interests

first before yours.

They are above

all your priorities,

they are above

all your feelings,

all your ego.

0955 hrs May 16th 2006

Hey guys,

no I'm not going through

a bad patch

with Ms X

when I wrote

yesterday's blog entry.

I was merely amusing myself

reading other blogs,

about this poor guy

who got savagely beatened up

by a bunch of ex girlfriends

calling him a compulsive liar

and insulting his body

and hairy back.

I was merely distilling

the experiences

of a young lady

in her 20s

coming out

of a bad relationship.

Inconsequential I know,

but I was merely

amusing myself

1645 hrs May 15th 2006

Never say I love you

If you don't really care.

Never talk of feelings

If they aren't really there.

Never say forever

If you are eyeing the door

Never say I'm THE ONE

If you dream of more.

Never look into my eyes

If you are telling me a lie

Never say hello

If you plan to say goodbye

Never lock up my heart

If you won't keep the key

Never hold my heart

If you want to be free

1320 hrs May 12th 2006

Ms X came home early

this morning,

before I went to work.

Told me how

for the first time

in her flying job,

she experienced

an air pocket,

the plane plunged

so sudden,

with such a force,

that passengers (not wearing seat belts)

and cabin crew,

flew up

and hit the ceiling

of the plane,

resulting

in dislocated arms,

bleeding cuts.

A quarter of the crew

needed medical attention.

Thank God

she escaped injury,

because she was

in the toilet.

But she saw

the mayhem thereafter,

the galley was strewed

with broken cups and plates

all over.

One stewardess

was so traumatised,

she could not move

and sat there crying

uncontrollably,

they suspected

she may have even

injured her spine.

Ive always hated flying

I've flown all over the world

but I still hate flying.

Everytime the plane takes off,

or lands,

or flies through turbulence,

I would grit my teeth,

and expect the worse.

I can't think

of a more violent death

than dying

in an air crash.

Because when the plane

is in trouble,

it is evident

to everyone

on board,

and you will go through

a few seconds

or minutes even

of pure abject panic

and fear.

I know

air travel

is inevitable

and practical.

We can no longer

go back

to the days

of transversing

the globe

on a slow boat.

But why bother,

with in flight entertainment

and on board meals?

I would prefer

to be served

a strong sleeping pill

that would knock me out

for the duration

of the flight,

like general anaesthesia

during surgery,

just administer

enough for the duration

of the operation.

If my plane

were to crash,

I don't want to know

about it,

let alone go through

agonising seconds

of sheer terror

awaiting certain death.

I'd rather sleep through

an air crash

not knowing any better.

If the plane did not crash,

and I arrived safely

at my destination airport,

what would be better

than to be awoken

by a gentle stewardess

all dolled up

in sarong kebaya?

I would pay double,

no, make it triple,

for that kind of flight.

1240 hrs May 12th 2006

I don't know

what the hell fuck

am I doing

with my life.

Mum just asked,

when are you gonna

see Dad?

I'm too busy this week Mum.

That was what I said

last week too.

I work 7 days a week,

to what purpose?

A penthouse, a sportscar, a boat, a beautiful girlfriend.

Why do I need all that?

If beautiful girlfriend

can find a homeless begging monk

more attractive,

you can bet,

I'll be the first

to be a homeless begging monk.

But you know

it doesn't quite work

that way.

Since the time

of the neanderthals,

if a caveman

would be critically injured

in a hunting expedition,

Mrs Cavewoman ain't gonna hang around

with Mr Invalid Caveman.

I actually envy the neanderthals.

Be a caveman,

go hunting for meat

all day.

Come home,

sit by the fire,

just toss a piece of meat

in the general direction

of the woman

is all it takes.

PAP loved to parrot

from Third World into First World.

I'm not so sure

if that is a good thing.

I would imagine,

if Dad is living

in a kampung,

his life would

be a whole lot more

bearable.

Old age might

even be fun.

His farmer son

would have time for him,

his daugher

would dote on him,

his grand children

would be giggling

at his feet,

like the way

I used to sit

by the feet

of my Grandpa,

not understanding

a single word

he said,

his teochew accent

was way out of my league,

but just happy

to be near

grandpa.

Now Dad lives,

in his HDB.

No one at home,

other than Mum

and endless supply

of TCS soap operas.

Is that progress?

Frankly,

if I reach 80,

I would retire

to the Himalayan Mountains,

where opium

is readily available,

and die

of opiate overdose

and a happy drug induced

death

1140 hrs May 11 th 2006

Indonesia is not so much fun

these days,

since they crackdown

on drug taking

in discos.

I used to love

the rave parties there.

You start partying on

Friday night,

and don't leave

till Monday morning.

Now,

under pressure from

the US government

to crackdown

on drugs,

the police

are having a field day

raiding discos

and subjecting everyone

to spot tests.

The rich,

will pay their way out.

The poor,

will go to jail.

Going to jail,

in Indonesia

is like a

death sentence.

You either die

of malaria

or HIV

from prison rape.

Why should drug takers

be criminalised???

Criminals victimise others

Drug takers victimise themselves.

And drug taking is abusive

only if taken

in excess.

So is over eating

or over drinking

or over smoking.

The occasional joint

with beers

or estacsy pill

in a rave party,

is not going to

hurt anyone

or yourself.

The world

should liberalise

drug laws.

Allow marijuana

at home,

or in selected

public places.

Allow rave parties,

but advise against

over dose.

Give people the choice

and help them,

if they need help.

Just like alcoholics

or nicotine addicts

or overweight

need help.

0200 hrs May 7th 2006

So,

another election over,

another resounding victory,

for the PAP.

66.6% majority.

Hey, isn't that the symbol

of the Devil?

I dunno,

maybe I'm really stupid.

But from the number of people

I actually talk to,

especially taxi drivers,

from the number

of anti-government websites,

I've come across.

I can't help but wonder

where the hell fuck,

did that 66.6% majority

come from?

2340 hrs May 5th 2006

So they sentenced

Zacarias Moussaoui

to life imprisonment

instead of

death penalty.

In a way,

I'm glad.

No point killing

this guy.

You're just playing

into his hands.

He wants to die!!!

Nothing pleases him more

than to die

a martyr's death

in the name

of Jihad,

where heaven awaits him

with the promised

endless supply

of young nubile virgins.

But I would have

gone a step further.

I would mock

a trial for him,

and pretend to

sentence him

to death,

watch that smirk

on his face,

when the mock death penalty

is announced.

Then I would inject him

with a strong

sleeping medication,

but tell him,

its a fatal poison,

watch the grin

on his face,

as he eagerly

awaits death

and heaven.

Then ship his sleeping body,

over to a deserted island,

uninhabited

but with thousands

and thousands

of pigs.

He will wake up,

in the midst of pigs

on his island paradise.

Where he will eat

with pigs,

shit

with pigs,

fuck

with pigs,

all this while

thinking

he is in heaven

and endless supply

of virgins.

A hidden camera

would show me

the anguish

on his face,

where his lifelong

beliefs

of killing people

in the name of Jihad

gave him

eternity and paradise

with virgin pigs.

1250 hrs May 4th 2006

Lee Kuan Yew said

Low Thia Kiang

is more street smart

than Chiam See Tong.

If steet smartness

is a measure

of a politician,

then judging by

PM Lee Hsien Loong's remark,

he is the equivalent

of a

domestic kitten

1240 hrs May 4th 2006

And yes,

regarding the quote by

PM Lee Hsien Loong

on my previous entry,

it is also an

open admission,

that his priority

is to "fix the opposition"

therefore

top priority is

remaining in power.

The right policy for

Singapore

comes second

if at all.

Confirms something

we already know.

The Lee family

is only concerned

about remaining in power,

to hell with Swingabore.

1205 hrs May 4th 2006

This election is actually

getting interesting.

Another quote,

"Suppose you have 10, 15, 20

opposition members in Parliament,

Instead of spending my time

thinking what is the right policy

for Singapore,

I'm going to spend my time thinking

what's the right way to fix them,

to buy my supporters votes"

PM Lee Hsien Loong 3rd May 2006

Finally an open admission

on PAP's vote buying.

Progress package,

New Singapore shares,

Economic Restructuring shares,

HDB upgrading etc etc.

Its like vote buying

in Thailand,

where Thai politicians

give bottles of fish sauce

, alarm clocks and wrist watches

to get votes.

Only difference is

the Thai politicians

bought votes

with party funds.

PAP politicians buys votes

with tax payers money

1155 hrs May 4th 2006

I just came across an interesting quotation.

"If you don't include your women graduates

in your breeding pool,

and leave them on the shelf,

you would end up

a more stupid society"

PM Lee Kuan Yew 1983

Seems to me,

that in the 20th century

there are two political leaders

that tried to engineer

the genetics

of their country.

One is Lee Kuan Yew

the other is

Adolf Hitler

1545 hrs May 3rd 2006

Oh yes,

PM Lee said

Singapore is on the bounce.

The whole world been on the bounce

since 2003!!!

Er, any talk about

reinstating

those CPF cuts then?

1135 hrs May 3rd 2006

Another election

another defamation suit.

I read the SDP newsletter.

Nothing new.

It merely stated that this country's

culture of secrecy, non-transparency

and lack of media freedom

allows fraud like NKF to happen.

Just where the fuck

is the defamation?

Chee Soon Juan is not the first

to critisize this government

and certainly not the last.

George Soros said it before,

Amnesty International said it before,

Reporters Without Borders said it before,

Lawyers Right Watch said it before,

and so has

many others.

What is so defaming about that?

Last election Chee Soon Juan

was made bankrupt

when he asked Goh Chok Tong

what happened to the USD10 billion lent

out to Indonesia.

What is so wrong

with a Singaporean asking

what happened

to our money?

It is tax payers money

afterall.

It took Goh Chok Tong

one whole day

to reply in the press

that parliament decided against

lending Indonesia.

Such a simple answer,

why was it so difficult

to reply to Chee Soon Juan?

When you take so long,

to give such a simple answer

you lose credibility too.

And again,

where the hell,

was the defamation?

It is rightfully

a matter of concern

for Singaporeans

and their own money

Speaking of defamation,

what the hell is so wrong

with defamation?

Defamation should be

an integral part

of political debate!!!

Ok, politicians

get out of line.

Give them a warning

and a small fine

and let the people decide

on their integrity!!!

Do you have to cripple

a politican

when he says something

out of line?

By doing so,

you cripple

political debate!!!

And hence,

you cripple

any form

of political dissent!!!

Now you have the PAP

calling James Gomez

dishonest and a liar.

Lee Kuan Yew said

sue us.

What can James Gomez do?

Sue the government

and in doing so,

show that the PAP

was lying?

Right, I see another

defamation suit,

and another

bankrupt.

Guess what,

I have no fucking interest.

A country deserves

the government they get.

You guys can defame yourselves

to hell,

I'm getting the hell fuck

out of this city

of losers.