0200 hrs May 20th 2006

Wah, at the age of 42,

I've joined the Ipod generation.

Thats has got to be a fucking achievement

by itself.

Although it took me all night

to figure out Itunes software.

But suddenly,

disembodied voices

and haunted lyrics

which I thought

I forgotten

came flooding back

from the first half

of my life.

"Fathers and Mothers

throughout the land

don't critisize

what you don't understand

coz your sons and your daughters

are beyond your command

your old road

is rapidly ageing

so get out of the new one

if you can't lend a hand,

coz the times

they are a changing."

Bob Dylan

I heard that verse

when I was a poxy kid

of 15 years

through a beat up Rediffusion box

and now

I have Ipod,

and those rebellious

teenage years

suddenly burned

within me.

"then take me disappearing

through the smoke rings of my mind

Down the foggy ruins of time

far past the frozen leaves

the haunted frightened trees

out to the windy beach

far from the twisted reach

of crazy sorrow

Yes to dance beneath the diamond sky

with one hand waving free

silhouetted by the sea

cricled by the circus sands

with all memory and fate

driven deep beneath the waves

let me forget about today

until tomorrow"

Bob Dylan

I was 16,

and moved out

of the house,

I just wanted to run away,

told Mum I had to get away

from this crazy family,

so I can do

my "O" levels.

St Pat's 1980

what a way to screw up

a teenage mind.

"The screen door slams

Mary dress waves

like a vision she dances across the porch

as the radio plays

Roy Orbison sings for the lonely,

Hey baby, thats me

and I want you only.

Don't turn me away

coz I can't face myself

along again"

Bruce Springsteen

17 years old and my first love

in CJC.

"Freedom is another word

when you have nothing left

to lose.

Nothing is worth nothing

but its free"

Janis Joplin

18 and going to the army

feeling the world

was not meant for me

and society

simply didn't intend

to have me in it.

"Scarecrows dressed in latest styles

with frozen smiles

to chase love away"

Randy Newman

I thought I lived

amonst zombies

I still do, 20 years later.

"coz I'd rather stay here

with all the madmen

then perish with the sadmen

roaming free.

And I rather play here

with all the madmen

for I'm quite content

they're all as sane

as me"

David Bowie

Perhaps I was schizo already

20 years ago.