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1320 hrs October 10th 2006

Wow,

its been almost a month

since I last blogged.

I've been so damned busy.

Bangkok, Kuala Lumpur,

Dalian and Jakarta.

Not so bad

for someone

who really hates flying.

I left my handphone

in Jakarta.

Maybe I did it on purpose

subconsciously.

I don't know

if the problem is with me

or people around me.

Somehow,

people call me

only when there is

a problem.

I've reached a stage

when I get a shock

and coil in dreaded anxiety

everytime the phone rings.

And on my birthday,

the person whom I wished

above and beyond all others

to call

did not call.

Fuck it,

no more handphones

for me.

My life was much simplier

before they invented handphones.

People use handphones

to call me because

they won't handle

the problems themselves.

Thence

from now on,

if you can't get me

too fucking bad

deal with it yourself.

I'm tired

too fucking tired.

And oh,

no house phones either.