20050111

1100 hrs January 11th 2004

Why do I

have to work so hard

to win your approval?

Why do I

have to look nervously

behind my shoulder

to see who else is pursuing you?

Why do I

have to tolerate

you encouraging other guys

to pursue you?

I know

I am well ahead

of the rest

of the pack,

but

I don't want

to be

another one of

your running dogs.

I'm tired,

dead fucking tired.

I just want

to rest in the arms

of a woman

who really treasures me.