Another year over,
a new one just begun.
I dunno why,
but I am such a sucker
for such milestones,
unlike Ms X and Mr D.
As I take stock of the old year,
I put new aspirations into the new year.
Chiefly,
to unclutter and prioritise
the biggest issues
in my Life.
Number 1 priority,
is still Ms X.
I want to continue my crusade,
making her feel
like the luckiest girl
in the world.
Continue to look
at the bigger picture.
Continue to work
towards relationship success.
God knows I cannot
afford another relationship failure.
True, the reality is I was happiest
when I never needed to try.
But the reality is
I have to try
damned hard
to make it work.
Even if it doesn't work,
it must not be
for the lack
of trying.
Number 2 priority,
is Mr D and PT Roda Makmur.
That is where my financial future is.
I have to continue to work
towards making this a success,
even if it takes a hell lot
of self-sacrifice.
Again concentrate on
the bigger picture.
Number 3 priority,
is being a good employee
of ICAP Financial Products.
As much as I hate this job,
it is paying for PT Roda Makmur.
I cannot bite
the hand that feeds me.
I have to ensure
equity derivatives work well
and blaze new markets
for them.
It is my job
afterall.
And a job worth doing,
is always worth doing
bloody well.
Number 4 priority,
is my family.
I have to recognise
that I cannot change
deeply ingrained resentments
in family fights.
Solve what I can,
ignore what I cannot.
Understand each family member,
and how they feel,
but stick to my principles,
on what is right.
Number 5 priority,
is myself.
I must continue to develop,
as a person.
Be good
be nice.
Be smart
and analyse.
The importance
of being earnest
and focussed.
The beauty
of being goal
orientated.
God grant me peace
and strength
this 2005
