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1105 hrs July 20th 2005

I've never liked playing

mind games

with the one

I love.

I play enough

mind games

in the office.

At home,

I just want

to go into

cruise control

and relax,

speak what I mean

and don't speak

what I don't mean.

But it appears

that I have

no choice.

Women

are competitive

by nature.

They stake

their egos

and self esteem

on attaining

the unattainable.

They want you

only when

you're a tough

challenge

for them.

They want you

when you belong

to someone else.

They want you

when you're

show no interest

to commit.

They want you

only when

you're wanted

by other women.

They want you

to show they

can change you

and make you

crazy

over them.

But if you're too

easy

to get.

They don't

treasure you.

Between a solid rock

of stability,

and a slithery

snake,

they prefer

to grab hold

of the snake.

To show that,

they possess

the ability

the grab

the slippery.

I did precisely that,

went out with this

Mainland Chinese accountant.

She is really pretty,

her eyelashes

seem to go on

forever.

She laughs

at everything,

with a certain

girlish charm.

Puts on little

make up,

no branded goods

whatsoever.

Does not smoke

Does not drink

Does not club.

Strikes me as someone

who will be more than happy

to stay home

and bear my children.

I quite like her

actually.

Reckon,

she is the kind of girl,

I need

at this stage

in my life.

Ms X

found her SMS

to me.

Suddenly,

an open declaration

of undying love.

Swears

that I am THE ONE

that

SHE WANTS.

Wow....

Must I open myself

to the market

to show that

I have

market value,

in order for you,

to value me?