0915 hrs August 15th 2005

Today is Korean holiday,

which means

I do jackoff

in the office.

Last Friday,

I went out

with TWO ex-girlfriends.

Not one,

but two!!!

Old uncle here

still got ex-girlfriends

who wanted to see me.

I was with them,

well before I was married.

So one was

21 years ago,

and the other

18 years ago.

After sending one home,

buggered off

to meet the other.

It felt unreal,

that strange sense

of familiarity.

How that closeness

was once shared,

and now

separated by

Time.

In each one,

I could still see,

what attracted me

to them

years ago.

I didn't ask them,

but I felt

such a changed man.

When I was a younger man,

I was so damned positive

so damned energetic

and dynamic.

Now,

it appears

that Life

have taken a swipe

at me

and left me

reeling,

the bitter taste

of defeat

ever present

in the corner

of my mouth.

But enough

of feeling sorry

for myself,

enough

of being deflated.

I want to be that guy,

who was so forward thinking,

he absolutely

had no time

for regrets.

No time for problems,

only time for solutions.

Afterall

happiness

is a decision

too