"I love you Darling,
I've always loved you
and always will....."
Suddenly his heart
skipped a beat.
In his mind,
visions of going to ROM together,
getting married,
applying for a HDB together,
starting a family together,
working hard, saving harder,
maybe buy a condo....
that brought a contented
satisfied smile,
to his face.
"But you and I
are not meant to be
together"
In that instance,
his little world collapsed.
He loved her
for so long,
she made him cry
bitter tears in silence.
Through her outbursts
of temper,
her raging boredom
to her infidelity.
Through it all,
he stood steadfast,
thinking and praying quietly,
that one day he can tame
that wild spirit,
that wanderlust.
She can stray,
but he always thought,
his patience and love,
will one day
make her wholly his
and his alone.
She can wander,
but his love
will surely lead
her back.
He never once
even openly defied her,
agreeing with all her abuses,
swallowing his pride,
which man doesn't have pride?
Hoping and stubbornly believing
his unwavering resolution
will win her over
one day.
Even at this moment,
when all seems lost....
"I am not right for you,
one day when you meet the right woman,
you will thank me
for this"
He just sat there,
frozen in time.
This seems to last
an eternity.
He could understand
those words.
Yet they seemed
so senseless
so hollow.
"You and I
are not meant
to be....."
He is fighting back
his emotions.
"But darling,
you know I always loved you"
He uttered.
How could that little girl,
the love of his life,
say such cold and murderous words?
Is this a nightmare?
No, its something worse.
But it cannot be true,
as he sunk into depths
of his despairing denial.
He could say no more.
Nothing in the human language,
is befitting
of expression
that his heart
is crying out
to express.
Yet he valiantly tried,
to remain strong,
as he always done so,
holding back
the tears,
not for the first time,
certainly he hoped,
not the last time
either
