20061117

1245 hrs November 17th 2006

Mommy and Daddy,

I thought

you'd love me

with all your heart

like your lives

depended on loving me.

I thought

you'd guide me

through thick and thin

through rain or shine.

I thought

you'd hold my hand

as I take my next step

through the footprints

of your lives.

I thought

you'd hold me

and kiss me

when nights are cold

and lonely.

Keeping me safe

and far away

from harm.

I thought

being wholly responsible

for a life your brought

into this world,

would make you

see the beauty

of complete responsibility.

I thought

you'd hold me,

care about me,

uphold me,

love me,

cherish me.

I never thought

you'd think

I was a mistake.

I thought I would

be your prize

not unpleasant

surprise.

I never thought

you'd actually

pay money

to have my life

sucked out

of Mum's cosy womb

even before

I ever seen

the world

you live

or the life

you could have

offered me.

I am now

in heaven

disembodied

my spirit freed

from parts of what

was left

of my tiny body,

when you could have

made me whole,

waiting for the day

I'll ask Mum and Dad,

WHY?