Lord,
as we prepare
to welcome Van-Dylan
into this world,
I prayfor his safe passage.
As I prepare
for fatherhood,
grant me wisdom
that I may guide him,
grant me stength
that I may provide for him,
grant me peace
that I may shelter him.
Grant him enthusiasm
that he may seek
to live
the wonderment of life
to the fullest.
Grant him dreams
that the quest
to experience your miracles
you manifest
in this world
be his lifelong crusade.
Grant him love
that is your greatest gift
that he may love you
and your all
of your amazing creations,
and that his love
will be always
be a pleasure
for you to behold.
Fill his soul,
with the Holy Spirit,
that his words and actions,
will always be
a glowing testimonyfor you.
Fill his heart,
with blissful joy,
that his life
will touch you
and all of us
privileged to be
around him.
For afterall,
he is your gift
to us.
Amen
20090721
20081101
0035HRS NOVEMBER 1ST 2008
Nobody falls in love by choice
its by chance.
Nobody stays in love by chance
its by work.
Nobody falls out of love by work
its by choice
its by chance.
Nobody stays in love by chance
its by work.
Nobody falls out of love by work
its by choice
20081031
2245 HRS OCTOBER 31ST 2008
I read with utter disgust
PM Lee Hsien Loong's
letter of condolence
to the sons of
JB Jeyaretnam.
Here,
we have two sons
grieving
over the loss
of their father,
and all our prime minister
have to say,
was
"he sought by all means
to demolish the PAP
and our system of government.
Unfortunately,
this helped neither
to build up a
constructive opposition
nor our Parliamentary tradition"
Some letter of condolence.
This was condolence
like Singapore
is a democracy.
Singapore is as
democratic as
Zimbabwe.
Only our public toilets
are cleaner.
Mr Prime Minister sir,
you're about as sensitive
as silicon breast implants.
You just made Kim Jong Il
look like a polished diplomat.
You went on,
to talk about,
how your PAP government
ensured that
the sons of JB Jeyaretnam
were not prejudiced
in finding employment
in Singapore.
Right,
self glorification
about your compassion
in a letter of condolence.
You just proved
you're as compassionate
as Adolf Hitler.
The next time we complain
about Singaporeans being
an uncompassionate lot,
we know
it started from
the very top.
Our kids sing
on National Day,
there is no place else,
I'd want to be.
Maybe Zimbabwe
sounds nicer.
At least Robert Mugabe
does not pretend
to be democratic.
You fucking cold blooded reptile
PM Lee Hsien Loong's
letter of condolence
to the sons of
JB Jeyaretnam.
Here,
we have two sons
grieving
over the loss
of their father,
and all our prime minister
have to say,
was
"he sought by all means
to demolish the PAP
and our system of government.
Unfortunately,
this helped neither
to build up a
constructive opposition
nor our Parliamentary tradition"
Some letter of condolence.
This was condolence
like Singapore
is a democracy.
Singapore is as
democratic as
Zimbabwe.
Only our public toilets
are cleaner.
Mr Prime Minister sir,
you're about as sensitive
as silicon breast implants.
You just made Kim Jong Il
look like a polished diplomat.
You went on,
to talk about,
how your PAP government
ensured that
the sons of JB Jeyaretnam
were not prejudiced
in finding employment
in Singapore.
Right,
self glorification
about your compassion
in a letter of condolence.
You just proved
you're as compassionate
as Adolf Hitler.
The next time we complain
about Singaporeans being
an uncompassionate lot,
we know
it started from
the very top.
Our kids sing
on National Day,
there is no place else,
I'd want to be.
Maybe Zimbabwe
sounds nicer.
At least Robert Mugabe
does not pretend
to be democratic.
You fucking cold blooded reptile
20081015
1320 HRS OCTOBER 15TH
Today's papers reported.
Singapore's Olympic silver medal
winning table tennis team,
is quitting Singapore
to ply their trade
elsewhere.
Barely two months,
after winning the silver medal
and pocketing
Singaporean taxpayer's
$750,000
they decided to quit Singapore,
to ply their trade elsewhere.
Singapore Sports Minister said,
they may be China born,
but they played their hearts out
for Singapore.
Right.
Now, they're quitting.
Did they play their hearts out
for Singapore,
or for the prize money?
If indeed they played their
hearts out for Singapore,
how about giving us
the money back?
Nobody seems to remember,
they bitched and moaned
about paying income tax
on their prize money.
Yeah, they played their hearts out
for Singapore,
and after taking the money,
they won't pay tax,
won't give anything back.
These Singapore government guys
simply don't get it.
Perhaps they never will.
Singaporeans are Singaporeans.
No amount of money you throw
at a foreigner,
will turn him or her
into a Singaporean.
You just given them
a NRIC
and lots of money,
but you did not make them
a Singaporean.
Now our preparations
of London Olympics 2012
are all shattered,
because of a bunch of people
that this government said
played their hearts out
for Singapore.
Singapore's Olympic silver medal
winning table tennis team,
is quitting Singapore
to ply their trade
elsewhere.
Barely two months,
after winning the silver medal
and pocketing
Singaporean taxpayer's
$750,000
they decided to quit Singapore,
to ply their trade elsewhere.
Singapore Sports Minister said,
they may be China born,
but they played their hearts out
for Singapore.
Right.
Now, they're quitting.
Did they play their hearts out
for Singapore,
or for the prize money?
If indeed they played their
hearts out for Singapore,
how about giving us
the money back?
Nobody seems to remember,
they bitched and moaned
about paying income tax
on their prize money.
Yeah, they played their hearts out
for Singapore,
and after taking the money,
they won't pay tax,
won't give anything back.
These Singapore government guys
simply don't get it.
Perhaps they never will.
Singaporeans are Singaporeans.
No amount of money you throw
at a foreigner,
will turn him or her
into a Singaporean.
You just given them
a NRIC
and lots of money,
but you did not make them
a Singaporean.
Now our preparations
of London Olympics 2012
are all shattered,
because of a bunch of people
that this government said
played their hearts out
for Singapore.
20081009
1700 HRS OCTOBER 9TH 2008
Spent the last 10 days
in Vietnam.
What a great time.
Had a lovely chat,
with my grandpa in law.
He is a REAL DUDE.
DA MAN....
He was suspected
of collabarating with
French and American imperialists.
The Viet Cong captured him
and tortured him.
Put him in a
squatting space only
bamboo cage.
He stayed there for months.
Ate in there, slept in there,
shit in there.
Beaten, stabbed,
branded with hot irons.
Refused to confess
to the bitter end.
All those who confessed
were subsequently
buried alive.
Grandpa in law
was a simple fisherman.
What the fuck he cares
about Marxism, socialism, capitalism, democracy???
The Vietcongs
terrorized the fishermen
in his village.
They came at night
demanding food and medicine
and sometimes shelter
for their wounded.
Would you dare to argue
against someone
with a loaded machine gun???
And for that,
the Americans
pounded his village
daily with bombs.
Cannon shells shot
over from the warships
destroying the village,
flattening all the houses.
Grandpa in law
dug a tunnel
under his house,
reinforced it with concrete.
To protect the family.
They will survive
near misses,
but not direct hits.
Neighbouring families
dugged into concrete reinforced
tunnels,
who got direct hits
from incoming cannon shells
were wiped out.
Fuck you Americans la.
If its the Viet Cong
you were looking for,
they've all ran
to the neighbouring mountains.
The small handful still hiding
in the village,
were mortally wounded
and not battle worthy.
But you Americans still
proceed your murderous
bombing campaign,
obliterating villages,
annihilating thousands
of innocent fishermen.
And today,
you fucking dare to
whine,
bitch,
moan
about 9-11 ?
For all the deaths
and sufferings
you caused
in Vietnam alone,
you deserve to have
at least a thousand more
9-11s !!!
You do not have
the moral authority
to even question,
why people hate Americans
so much!!!!
There is no other nation
more violent
and war mongering
than you guys!!!
I used to think
American citizens
are alright,
just unfortunate
to have a government
with a violent
and war mongering
foreign policy.
But you guys
voted a murderer
like George Bush,
not once,
but twice.
Don't ever whine
when the world hates you.
You deserve
every bit of misery
you get.
You're so lucky
people like grandpa in law
are too peaceful.
He still suffers nightmares
of of the war.
But he is just happy
to have survived
3 wars.
Trust me,
some people
are not so benign,
they will want
to get even.
in Vietnam.
What a great time.
Had a lovely chat,
with my grandpa in law.
He is a REAL DUDE.
DA MAN....
He was suspected
of collabarating with
French and American imperialists.
The Viet Cong captured him
and tortured him.
Put him in a
squatting space only
bamboo cage.
He stayed there for months.
Ate in there, slept in there,
shit in there.
Beaten, stabbed,
branded with hot irons.
Refused to confess
to the bitter end.
All those who confessed
were subsequently
buried alive.
Grandpa in law
was a simple fisherman.
What the fuck he cares
about Marxism, socialism, capitalism, democracy???
The Vietcongs
terrorized the fishermen
in his village.
They came at night
demanding food and medicine
and sometimes shelter
for their wounded.
Would you dare to argue
against someone
with a loaded machine gun???
And for that,
the Americans
pounded his village
daily with bombs.
Cannon shells shot
over from the warships
destroying the village,
flattening all the houses.
Grandpa in law
dug a tunnel
under his house,
reinforced it with concrete.
To protect the family.
They will survive
near misses,
but not direct hits.
Neighbouring families
dugged into concrete reinforced
tunnels,
who got direct hits
from incoming cannon shells
were wiped out.
Fuck you Americans la.
If its the Viet Cong
you were looking for,
they've all ran
to the neighbouring mountains.
The small handful still hiding
in the village,
were mortally wounded
and not battle worthy.
But you Americans still
proceed your murderous
bombing campaign,
obliterating villages,
annihilating thousands
of innocent fishermen.
And today,
you fucking dare to
whine,
bitch,
moan
about 9-11 ?
For all the deaths
and sufferings
you caused
in Vietnam alone,
you deserve to have
at least a thousand more
9-11s !!!
You do not have
the moral authority
to even question,
why people hate Americans
so much!!!!
There is no other nation
more violent
and war mongering
than you guys!!!
I used to think
American citizens
are alright,
just unfortunate
to have a government
with a violent
and war mongering
foreign policy.
But you guys
voted a murderer
like George Bush,
not once,
but twice.
Don't ever whine
when the world hates you.
You deserve
every bit of misery
you get.
You're so lucky
people like grandpa in law
are too peaceful.
He still suffers nightmares
of of the war.
But he is just happy
to have survived
3 wars.
Trust me,
some people
are not so benign,
they will want
to get even.
20080924
1235 HRS SEPTEMBER 24TH 2008
There is just simply no end
to this Swingabore government bullshit.
Two Singaporean paraplegics
won a gold, a silver and 2 bronzes
in Paralympics.
And they get paid 1/10th
the amount
that was promised
to the Chinese table tennis players.
These Singaporeans,
overcame physical disability
and against insurmountable odds
went beyond their handicaps
and won for the country
of their birth.
And they get paid 1/10th
when they deserve to be paid
10 times more
and not 1/10th.
Fuck you la Swingabore.
Just because these
Singaporean paraplegics
are not your expensive
foreign talent programme
and they achieved
a whole lot more,
so you pay them
a whole lot less.
I try so hard
to think like the way
you do,
but I can't push
my head up
my ass
quite far enough.
to this Swingabore government bullshit.
Two Singaporean paraplegics
won a gold, a silver and 2 bronzes
in Paralympics.
And they get paid 1/10th
the amount
that was promised
to the Chinese table tennis players.
These Singaporeans,
overcame physical disability
and against insurmountable odds
went beyond their handicaps
and won for the country
of their birth.
And they get paid 1/10th
when they deserve to be paid
10 times more
and not 1/10th.
Fuck you la Swingabore.
Just because these
Singaporean paraplegics
are not your expensive
foreign talent programme
and they achieved
a whole lot more,
so you pay them
a whole lot less.
I try so hard
to think like the way
you do,
but I can't push
my head up
my ass
quite far enough.
20080905
1645 HRS SEPTEMBER 5TH 2008
I was talking to my friend,
when suddenly we talked about
Dr Vivian Balakrishnan.
I wanted to talk about this guy
for a long time,
but he is such a forgetable
and laughable character,
I never got down to it.
I remembered early this year,
Dr Vivian talked about
wooing overseas Singaporeans
to come back.
Yeah right,
after years of
dictatorial oppression
by your PAP government,
driving out hundreds of thousands
of the smartest
and most talented Singaporeans
of my generation,
and now you want them back?
Just what do you have here?
Other than your
multi million dollar
minister salaries.
Can you afford to pay them
your kind of salaries?
Otherwise, what?
Do you think
they are hard up
for a smaller house here
than what they have there?
A smaller car here
than what they have there?
Why did they leave,
in the very first place?
Because its better
to have a say,
to have a voice
than forever live in fear
whenever you have
a dissenting voice.
Back home in Singapore,
we are all nothing but statistics
to our dictatorial government.
We have no say,
no voice.
We do everything we were told,
and the Lees do anything,
they feel like.
My friend Martyn See
made a movie "Singapore Rebel"
and kena hauled off
to the police station
being questioned
for hours.
And his film
got banned
and further warned
never to make another
similiar movie.
Does the talented overseas Singaporeans
want to live in your kind
of police state?
Maybe if you offer everyone
your kind of salary.
Having said that,
Dr Vivian,
please lah...
your youth days in NJC,
you were so anti-government.
Until you joined the government.
Yes, you sold your soul
for government money.
So throwing money
at talented overseas Singaporeans,
might just work.
Again, at the tax payer expense,
of Singaporeans
working their lives out
like a dog.
I remember
when you first joined the government.
You said,
you wanted to make a difference.
Please la,
you knew,
if you really wanted
to make a difference,
you would NOT
have joined the government
and just being another
barking dog
for your Lee family bosses.
In the meantime,
Dr Vivian,
stop talking cock lah.
when suddenly we talked about
Dr Vivian Balakrishnan.
I wanted to talk about this guy
for a long time,
but he is such a forgetable
and laughable character,
I never got down to it.
I remembered early this year,
Dr Vivian talked about
wooing overseas Singaporeans
to come back.
Yeah right,
after years of
dictatorial oppression
by your PAP government,
driving out hundreds of thousands
of the smartest
and most talented Singaporeans
of my generation,
and now you want them back?
Just what do you have here?
Other than your
multi million dollar
minister salaries.
Can you afford to pay them
your kind of salaries?
Otherwise, what?
Do you think
they are hard up
for a smaller house here
than what they have there?
A smaller car here
than what they have there?
Why did they leave,
in the very first place?
Because its better
to have a say,
to have a voice
than forever live in fear
whenever you have
a dissenting voice.
Back home in Singapore,
we are all nothing but statistics
to our dictatorial government.
We have no say,
no voice.
We do everything we were told,
and the Lees do anything,
they feel like.
My friend Martyn See
made a movie "Singapore Rebel"
and kena hauled off
to the police station
being questioned
for hours.
And his film
got banned
and further warned
never to make another
similiar movie.
Does the talented overseas Singaporeans
want to live in your kind
of police state?
Maybe if you offer everyone
your kind of salary.
Having said that,
Dr Vivian,
please lah...
your youth days in NJC,
you were so anti-government.
Until you joined the government.
Yes, you sold your soul
for government money.
So throwing money
at talented overseas Singaporeans,
might just work.
Again, at the tax payer expense,
of Singaporeans
working their lives out
like a dog.
I remember
when you first joined the government.
You said,
you wanted to make a difference.
Please la,
you knew,
if you really wanted
to make a difference,
you would NOT
have joined the government
and just being another
barking dog
for your Lee family bosses.
In the meantime,
Dr Vivian,
stop talking cock lah.
20080825
2300 HRS AUGUST 25TH 2008
This fucking Swingabore government
every fucking year
they raise tobacco taxes
in the name of
"discouraging smoking".
All well and good.
You win,
you're the good guy.
I'm trying to quit smoking.
But,
one question Sir,
if the government is trying
to discourage smoking
by imposing high tobacco taxes,
why the hell fuck
is the cost of nicotine gum
TWICE that of cigarettes?
If you really want to
"discourage smoking",
why didn't you subsidse
part of the cost
of giving up smoking,
using the hefty income
you made from
tobacco taxes?
Its so fucking easy
to expose
the fucking money grabbing
greed
of this fucking Swingabore government.
Fucking hippocrites.
every fucking year
they raise tobacco taxes
in the name of
"discouraging smoking".
All well and good.
You win,
you're the good guy.
I'm trying to quit smoking.
But,
one question Sir,
if the government is trying
to discourage smoking
by imposing high tobacco taxes,
why the hell fuck
is the cost of nicotine gum
TWICE that of cigarettes?
If you really want to
"discourage smoking",
why didn't you subsidse
part of the cost
of giving up smoking,
using the hefty income
you made from
tobacco taxes?
Its so fucking easy
to expose
the fucking money grabbing
greed
of this fucking Swingabore government.
Fucking hippocrites.
20080820
1755 HRS AUGUST 20TH 2008
So Singapore
won its first
Olympic medal
since 1960.
Big cause for celebration.
Chinese players
wearing a Singaporean shirt.
Sports Minister said
the players maybe
Chinese born and bred
but they are
Singaporean citizens
and they played their hearts out
for Singapore.
Yeah right.
They just happen
to be paid
alot of money
$750,000
to get that medal.
The highest in the world
for an Olympic medal.
They were paid alot of money
to migrate to Singapore
and be Singapore citizens.
They were paid alot of money,
and its all our money.
Tax payers money.
They did not come here
because they love laksa.
They did not come here
because they love doing
national service.
They did not come here
because they want to learn
Singlish.
In fact they do
everything they can,
not to learn Singlish.
The only thing Singaporean
about them,
is their NRIC cards
and they earn tax payers money.
Lots of money.
Why celebrate?
Well, Singapore has for
about 12 years now
been trying to buy
us an Olympic medal.
We finally got
what we paid for
after about 12 years.
Yeah,
big cause for celebration
won its first
Olympic medal
since 1960.
Big cause for celebration.
Chinese players
wearing a Singaporean shirt.
Sports Minister said
the players maybe
Chinese born and bred
but they are
Singaporean citizens
and they played their hearts out
for Singapore.
Yeah right.
They just happen
to be paid
alot of money
$750,000
to get that medal.
The highest in the world
for an Olympic medal.
They were paid alot of money
to migrate to Singapore
and be Singapore citizens.
They were paid alot of money,
and its all our money.
Tax payers money.
They did not come here
because they love laksa.
They did not come here
because they love doing
national service.
They did not come here
because they want to learn
Singlish.
In fact they do
everything they can,
not to learn Singlish.
The only thing Singaporean
about them,
is their NRIC cards
and they earn tax payers money.
Lots of money.
Why celebrate?
Well, Singapore has for
about 12 years now
been trying to buy
us an Olympic medal.
We finally got
what we paid for
after about 12 years.
Yeah,
big cause for celebration
20080804
1635 HRS AUGUST 4TH 2008
Old friends
we were once young
naive and innocent.
now we're past middle aged,
past 40,
pushing 50 soon
like a tired old
bulldozer.
when was the last time,
we met?
did you say 15 years ago?
we've put on some weight
our hair is greying
our knees ache
i didn't know.
we shared our life stories
thrills and spills.
how we fell
and how we rose again.
but we always knew
we're still there
to have a laugh.
years apart
but yet
we were so
at ease
with each other.
its like as though
there were no years
in between.
you used to complete
my sentences
when I ran out
of words.
all these years later,
somehow we just knew
what each of us
would say,
even before we began
a sentence.
where are those years guys?
where have they gone to?
we were wild.
we were rebellious
we were angry
we didn't know why.
we thought
we were different.
but now we know
we were just stupid,
at least I was.
those are memories now
distant memories.
but because we remember,
we remain friends
dear to our hearts.
i forgot how
friendship used to be
so innocent.
we had nothing
we could use.
friendship was pure
with no monetary benefit.
networking was not invented
when you were in college.
So lets raise a glass
or two
as we talked
about our dreams
aspirations
failures
successes.
how our lives
diverged
and how we can still
pick up so easily
where we left off.
it made us laugh
it made us cry.
we lost all those years
drifting apart
lets not make
that same mistake
again.
Friends like Us
don't always come by
you realised that.
we were once young
naive and innocent.
now we're past middle aged,
past 40,
pushing 50 soon
like a tired old
bulldozer.
when was the last time,
we met?
did you say 15 years ago?
we've put on some weight
our hair is greying
our knees ache
i didn't know.
we shared our life stories
thrills and spills.
how we fell
and how we rose again.
but we always knew
we're still there
to have a laugh.
years apart
but yet
we were so
at ease
with each other.
its like as though
there were no years
in between.
you used to complete
my sentences
when I ran out
of words.
all these years later,
somehow we just knew
what each of us
would say,
even before we began
a sentence.
where are those years guys?
where have they gone to?
we were wild.
we were rebellious
we were angry
we didn't know why.
we thought
we were different.
but now we know
we were just stupid,
at least I was.
those are memories now
distant memories.
but because we remember,
we remain friends
dear to our hearts.
i forgot how
friendship used to be
so innocent.
we had nothing
we could use.
friendship was pure
with no monetary benefit.
networking was not invented
when you were in college.
So lets raise a glass
or two
as we talked
about our dreams
aspirations
failures
successes.
how our lives
diverged
and how we can still
pick up so easily
where we left off.
it made us laugh
it made us cry.
we lost all those years
drifting apart
lets not make
that same mistake
again.
Friends like Us
don't always come by
you realised that.
20080729
1225 HRS JULY 29TH 2008
Amnesty International
making an issue
that human rights have not improved
in Beijing
inspite of the Olympics Games 2008
being awared to Beijing.
Just what the hell fuck
is all that about?
If human rights is the basis
of awarding Olympic Games
to a city,
why the hell fuck then,
did they award Olympic Games 1936
to Hitler's Berlin?
making an issue
that human rights have not improved
in Beijing
inspite of the Olympics Games 2008
being awared to Beijing.
Just what the hell fuck
is all that about?
If human rights is the basis
of awarding Olympic Games
to a city,
why the hell fuck then,
did they award Olympic Games 1936
to Hitler's Berlin?
20080728
1530 HRS JULY 28TH 2008
Have not written
for many months.
Since I moved office
and no longer have the luxury
of having the privacy
to write.
But I just have to,
say something
about what I just read.
Scientists estimate,
that the USA have
about 86 billion barrels
of crude oil,
that is still untapped.
Considering that the USA
consumes about 7.5 billion barrels
of crude oil annually,
that translates to about 12 years
of crude oil,
that is independent of Middle East supplies.
Yet, presidential candidate Barack Obama said,
"Offshore drilling would not lower gas prices today,
it would not lower gas prices next year,
and it would not lower gas prices 5 eyars from now"
Yes, it is true
that newly discovered reserves of oil,
takes a long time to deliver.
But that does not mean you don't drill now!!!
Drill for those 86 billion barrels now
for fuck's sakes!!!!
Just because drilling for oil now
does not give you its benefits
does not mean you don't drill!!!
And Senator Obama Sir,
I disagree with you.
If you drill for oil now,
gas prices will drop IMMEDIATELY!!!
Lets say it takes 10 years,
for your crude oil
to come online,
and supply USA
for another 12 years,
what do you think,
the oil producers of the world
will do now?
They will immediately
sell their crude oil
like motherfucks!!!!
Coz they know,
in 10 years,
you don't need their oil!!!
So they sell their oil now,
flood the market with supply,
drive prices down for 10 years.
After 10 years,
you don't need them for
another 12 years.
In total of 22 years,
I can bet,
the world will have
alternative fuel sources
anyway.
Drill now you
stupid American motherfucker.
You can save the entire world,
a lot of grief
from expensive oil prices,
which incidentally,
your Hummers and SUVs
helped created
in the first place.
for many months.
Since I moved office
and no longer have the luxury
of having the privacy
to write.
But I just have to,
say something
about what I just read.
Scientists estimate,
that the USA have
about 86 billion barrels
of crude oil,
that is still untapped.
Considering that the USA
consumes about 7.5 billion barrels
of crude oil annually,
that translates to about 12 years
of crude oil,
that is independent of Middle East supplies.
Yet, presidential candidate Barack Obama said,
"Offshore drilling would not lower gas prices today,
it would not lower gas prices next year,
and it would not lower gas prices 5 eyars from now"
Yes, it is true
that newly discovered reserves of oil,
takes a long time to deliver.
But that does not mean you don't drill now!!!
Drill for those 86 billion barrels now
for fuck's sakes!!!!
Just because drilling for oil now
does not give you its benefits
does not mean you don't drill!!!
And Senator Obama Sir,
I disagree with you.
If you drill for oil now,
gas prices will drop IMMEDIATELY!!!
Lets say it takes 10 years,
for your crude oil
to come online,
and supply USA
for another 12 years,
what do you think,
the oil producers of the world
will do now?
They will immediately
sell their crude oil
like motherfucks!!!!
Coz they know,
in 10 years,
you don't need their oil!!!
So they sell their oil now,
flood the market with supply,
drive prices down for 10 years.
After 10 years,
you don't need them for
another 12 years.
In total of 22 years,
I can bet,
the world will have
alternative fuel sources
anyway.
Drill now you
stupid American motherfucker.
You can save the entire world,
a lot of grief
from expensive oil prices,
which incidentally,
your Hummers and SUVs
helped created
in the first place.
20080409
1100 HRS APRIL 9TH 2008
Last night,
she woke up at 2.45 am
to accompany me
watch Liverpool win
in one of the greatest nights
of my life.
No women have ever done that
for me.
I married her
169 days
after I met her.
I now regret
that I waited
that long.
she woke up at 2.45 am
to accompany me
watch Liverpool win
in one of the greatest nights
of my life.
No women have ever done that
for me.
I married her
169 days
after I met her.
I now regret
that I waited
that long.
20080328
1030 HRS MARCH 28TH 2008
Oh fuck,
just when I thought
I have nothing to do
on a Friday morning,
and looking forward
to the weekend,
I had to
just had to
read this fucking article
written by some fucking American
about how South East Asia
were once untouched
and forgotten paradises.
Critical
of how modern
and commercial
South East Asia
has become.
Blaming how
mass tourism
has ruined
or spoilt
these once untouched
paradises
of South East Asia.
Oh, get a fucking life
you motherfucker.
This is the reality of life now
you better get used to it.
Don't blame mass tourism,
modern civilisation
has accorded our people
with schools and education,
roads, ports, airports,
telecommunications, power supply,
clean water, advance medicine,
the infrastructure for modern life
to thrive on.
What is so mother fucking wrong with that?
Why put the blame on mass tourists?
As opposed to what?
Budget backpack tourists
of your fucking era?
Bringing a few dollars
to spend in a shoe string hostel,
and bringing along venereal diseases
and drugs?
South East Asia maybe living in
villages then,
but we sure as hell
can do without you
and your flower power hippee thrash.
For that matter,
why stop at old hippee
budget tourists?
Why not blame your
fucking colonial forefathers?
Why the fuck did they
come,
steal our land,
kill our men,
fuck our women?
South East Asia
was a greater paradise then.
Why don't you look
at your own fucked up country?
America was once
a beautiful paradise
of sweeping plains,
roaming buffaloes
great evergreen forests
and native Americans.
Why the fuck,
are you and your white thrash people
doing in America?
Why don't you guys all
go back to Europe
where you belong,
return America to
its rightful people,
the native Americans,
and turn America
back into a paradise
of sweeping plains
roaming buffaloes
great evergreen forests?
South East Asia is not ruined,
it has merely changed,
probably for the better.
If you're not gonna complain
about how America
is no longer a paradise,
just shut the fuck up
about our country.
Just Fuck Off
just when I thought
I have nothing to do
on a Friday morning,
and looking forward
to the weekend,
I had to
just had to
read this fucking article
written by some fucking American
about how South East Asia
were once untouched
and forgotten paradises.
Critical
of how modern
and commercial
South East Asia
has become.
Blaming how
mass tourism
has ruined
or spoilt
these once untouched
paradises
of South East Asia.
Oh, get a fucking life
you motherfucker.
This is the reality of life now
you better get used to it.
Don't blame mass tourism,
modern civilisation
has accorded our people
with schools and education,
roads, ports, airports,
telecommunications, power supply,
clean water, advance medicine,
the infrastructure for modern life
to thrive on.
What is so mother fucking wrong with that?
Why put the blame on mass tourists?
As opposed to what?
Budget backpack tourists
of your fucking era?
Bringing a few dollars
to spend in a shoe string hostel,
and bringing along venereal diseases
and drugs?
South East Asia maybe living in
villages then,
but we sure as hell
can do without you
and your flower power hippee thrash.
For that matter,
why stop at old hippee
budget tourists?
Why not blame your
fucking colonial forefathers?
Why the fuck did they
come,
steal our land,
kill our men,
fuck our women?
South East Asia
was a greater paradise then.
Why don't you look
at your own fucked up country?
America was once
a beautiful paradise
of sweeping plains,
roaming buffaloes
great evergreen forests
and native Americans.
Why the fuck,
are you and your white thrash people
doing in America?
Why don't you guys all
go back to Europe
where you belong,
return America to
its rightful people,
the native Americans,
and turn America
back into a paradise
of sweeping plains
roaming buffaloes
great evergreen forests?
South East Asia is not ruined,
it has merely changed,
probably for the better.
If you're not gonna complain
about how America
is no longer a paradise,
just shut the fuck up
about our country.
Just Fuck Off
20080325
1545 HRS MARCH 25TH 2008
Just got back
from Shanghai.
That country is so amazing.
The scale of that economy
defied that little brain
of mine.
4 years ago,
driving along Pudong,
I saw thousands and thousands
of new condominums
with occupancy rate
of at most 10-15%.
My immediate analysis
was
OVERSUPPLY.
This property market
will crash.
But this time,
those same condominums
are like 99% occupied.
Even more amazing,
I can see its mostly
local Chinese
that are living
in those condos.
I could tell
by the underwear,
bras and panties
hanging by the windows.
It was 10 deg so
the windows were all closed
and they hung their laundry
by the windows
to get some sunlight.
Its stunning
how the size of this economy
could just absorb such supply
and still demand more.
Such a housing situation
would have sent Singapore
into a housing slump
needing decades
to recover.
Our last housing slump,
lasted 9 years.
When I walked around
Old Shanghai,
I did not like it
at first.
Just outside YuYuan,
I felt it was no more
than a fakey Disneyland type
of tourist trap.
Fake old buildings
and salesgirls peddling
fake cultural souvenirs
wearing fake chongsams.
And then I looked around
and realised,
about 95% of Shanghai's tourists
are Mainland Chinese
from other parts of China!!!
Such is this newly created wealth
and the scale of it
is just mind boggling.
Foreigners need not participate
they find it easier and faster
to sell to cash rich Chinese.
The last time I was
at Park 97 disco,
the place was teeming
with angmor men
and local chinese girls
throwing themselves
at them.
Now,
the angmor men
won't even get a look.
The locals were busy
partying
and boozing off
expensive whisky bottles.
Singapore is such
a backward place
by comparison.
Wife found
the grandmother
of factory outlets.
Right on the outskirt
of Shanghai,
with about 240
branded boutiques
and cash rich Mainlanders
walking around with bags
and bags of loot,
typically speaking
so loudly.
I felt like a poor loser
from Singapore,
making mental calculations
on the discount.
And of course,
the 431 kmph Maglev,
the fastest train
in the world.
It was a train ride
worthy of an orgasm.
The Germans built it
for China,
but they don't have
the money to build it
in Germany
although they have
the technology.
They must have thought,
the chinese were stupid
to pay for their technology
and build a train
that runs just 8 minutes
to the airport.
But just watch,
in a few years,
you will see
Chinese made Maglevs
running all over
China.
Not only that,
they will export
these trains too.
Just watch.
from Shanghai.
That country is so amazing.
The scale of that economy
defied that little brain
of mine.
4 years ago,
driving along Pudong,
I saw thousands and thousands
of new condominums
with occupancy rate
of at most 10-15%.
My immediate analysis
was
OVERSUPPLY.
This property market
will crash.
But this time,
those same condominums
are like 99% occupied.
Even more amazing,
I can see its mostly
local Chinese
that are living
in those condos.
I could tell
by the underwear,
bras and panties
hanging by the windows.
It was 10 deg so
the windows were all closed
and they hung their laundry
by the windows
to get some sunlight.
Its stunning
how the size of this economy
could just absorb such supply
and still demand more.
Such a housing situation
would have sent Singapore
into a housing slump
needing decades
to recover.
Our last housing slump,
lasted 9 years.
When I walked around
Old Shanghai,
I did not like it
at first.
Just outside YuYuan,
I felt it was no more
than a fakey Disneyland type
of tourist trap.
Fake old buildings
and salesgirls peddling
fake cultural souvenirs
wearing fake chongsams.
And then I looked around
and realised,
about 95% of Shanghai's tourists
are Mainland Chinese
from other parts of China!!!
Such is this newly created wealth
and the scale of it
is just mind boggling.
Foreigners need not participate
they find it easier and faster
to sell to cash rich Chinese.
The last time I was
at Park 97 disco,
the place was teeming
with angmor men
and local chinese girls
throwing themselves
at them.
Now,
the angmor men
won't even get a look.
The locals were busy
partying
and boozing off
expensive whisky bottles.
Singapore is such
a backward place
by comparison.
Wife found
the grandmother
of factory outlets.
Right on the outskirt
of Shanghai,
with about 240
branded boutiques
and cash rich Mainlanders
walking around with bags
and bags of loot,
typically speaking
so loudly.
I felt like a poor loser
from Singapore,
making mental calculations
on the discount.
And of course,
the 431 kmph Maglev,
the fastest train
in the world.
It was a train ride
worthy of an orgasm.
The Germans built it
for China,
but they don't have
the money to build it
in Germany
although they have
the technology.
They must have thought,
the chinese were stupid
to pay for their technology
and build a train
that runs just 8 minutes
to the airport.
But just watch,
in a few years,
you will see
Chinese made Maglevs
running all over
China.
Not only that,
they will export
these trains too.
Just watch.
20080319
1525 HRS MARCH 19TH 2008
You asked,
just why do I hate Singapore so much?
You're so wrong.
I love Singapore.
I love this country,
thats why I raise issues
because I hope to see
a change.
If I don't give a shit,
I would not have bothered.
If Singapore is so good
in your eyes,
what is wrong
with someone like me
wanting to make it
even better?
If I speak
in the broadest sense,
my biggest dissatisfaction,
arises from my feeling
of being disenfranchised
by my own country.
I do not have a say,
my people do not have a say
in anything that goes on
in our own country.
From my previous rant,
about the overcrowded MRTs.
Its a common complaint,
but the ruling elite
will just throw in some statistics
and everybody shuts up.
I feel like building a cage
1 metre square,
and invite 6 MPs
in Parliament
including the Transport Minister
to cram into it
and stay there for 30 minutes.
Since I do not
the highest paid politicians
in the world,
to ever step inside
an MRT
in peak hours.
They tell us,
we need a population
of 6.5 million people,
without explaining
how the existing infrastructure
is going to cope.
We do not have a say
about immigration policies,
what sort of foreign talent
will they invite.
When I look around,
I only see the foreign,
not the talented.
Its the entire unquestioning system
that started from Minister Mentor Lee
and perpeptuated by Prime Minister Lee.
They decide
we all follow.
I suspect,
the Lee family considers
Parliamentary sessions
as a waste of time too,
just putting up a charade
so we can tell the world
we are a democracy.
We are not a democracy.
We are a dictatorship
acting as a democracy.
All policies
are determined
by the ruling elite.
And clearly,
in the formulation
of these policies,
the citizens
like you and me
are not considered
at all.
I see old men
staring quietly
into their beers
at the kopi tiams.
I see struggle written
on their faces.
I see their miserable
and demeaning existence.
Does anybody care?
And when I protest,
you ask me to migrate.
Just who the hell fuck
you think you are,
to deserve the right
to ask me to migrate
away from the country
of my birth?
This is precisely
the government attitude
towards its people.
The hotel checkin and checkout
attitude.
It can apply
to foreigners
with no vested interests here.
But nobody,
I repeat nobody.
Have a right
to ask me or you
to get lost.
Not even Lee Kuan Yew
and especially not you.
just why do I hate Singapore so much?
You're so wrong.
I love Singapore.
I love this country,
thats why I raise issues
because I hope to see
a change.
If I don't give a shit,
I would not have bothered.
If Singapore is so good
in your eyes,
what is wrong
with someone like me
wanting to make it
even better?
If I speak
in the broadest sense,
my biggest dissatisfaction,
arises from my feeling
of being disenfranchised
by my own country.
I do not have a say,
my people do not have a say
in anything that goes on
in our own country.
From my previous rant,
about the overcrowded MRTs.
Its a common complaint,
but the ruling elite
will just throw in some statistics
and everybody shuts up.
I feel like building a cage
1 metre square,
and invite 6 MPs
in Parliament
including the Transport Minister
to cram into it
and stay there for 30 minutes.
Since I do not
the highest paid politicians
in the world,
to ever step inside
an MRT
in peak hours.
They tell us,
we need a population
of 6.5 million people,
without explaining
how the existing infrastructure
is going to cope.
We do not have a say
about immigration policies,
what sort of foreign talent
will they invite.
When I look around,
I only see the foreign,
not the talented.
Its the entire unquestioning system
that started from Minister Mentor Lee
and perpeptuated by Prime Minister Lee.
They decide
we all follow.
I suspect,
the Lee family considers
Parliamentary sessions
as a waste of time too,
just putting up a charade
so we can tell the world
we are a democracy.
We are not a democracy.
We are a dictatorship
acting as a democracy.
All policies
are determined
by the ruling elite.
And clearly,
in the formulation
of these policies,
the citizens
like you and me
are not considered
at all.
I see old men
staring quietly
into their beers
at the kopi tiams.
I see struggle written
on their faces.
I see their miserable
and demeaning existence.
Does anybody care?
And when I protest,
you ask me to migrate.
Just who the hell fuck
you think you are,
to deserve the right
to ask me to migrate
away from the country
of my birth?
This is precisely
the government attitude
towards its people.
The hotel checkin and checkout
attitude.
It can apply
to foreigners
with no vested interests here.
But nobody,
I repeat nobody.
Have a right
to ask me or you
to get lost.
Not even Lee Kuan Yew
and especially not you.
20080317
1650 HRS MARCH 17TH 2008
This motherfucking country.
When we complain of
overcrowded trains,
some fucking transport minister
throws us some fucking statistic
like SMRT average of
4 passengers per square metre
as compared to 6 passengers
per square metre in other cities.
And
our trains average passenger load
is 1200 passengers
although the engineering limit
is 1800 passengers.
Thank You Mr Transport Minister.
One question Sir.
Just when is the last time,
you took a fucking MRT train?
Have you ever
had your foreign talent's armpit
thrust into your face
on your fucking MRT train?
Have you ever
stood on your fucking MRT train
with no handrails to hold?
And many others around you,
have nothing to hold on to?
Do you know how fucking dangerous
that is?
If your fucking MRT train
have to make an emergency stop?
Do you need a fatal accident,
to listen?
How do you feel,
when your wife or daughter,
have to fold their arms
in order not to have their tits molested
because of your
fucking overcrowded MRT trains?
Let's take a look,
at your fucking SMRT financial reports.
Let's look at your profits first.
2004 nett $89.5 million profit
2005 nett $126.7 million profit
2006 nett $103.4 million profit
2007 nett $135.4 million profit
Now, let's look at your percentage passenger growth.
2003 1.2%
2004 (0.7%)
2005 2.8%
2006 2.8%
2007 5.1%
Overall, the passenger growth
on your fucking MRT train
is growing at a compounded rate.
Now lets look at your
car kilometres spanned.
2003 89.6 million km
2004 77.4 million km
2005 75.1 million km
2006 75.5 million km
2007 77.1 million km
Clearly, the frequency of
fucking MRT trains
have DECREASED
while your passenger growth
have INCREASED
and your nett profits
have INCREASED!!!!
When you show us some
fucking statistic,
show us some other
fucking statistic,
you motherfucker
When we complain of
overcrowded trains,
some fucking transport minister
throws us some fucking statistic
like SMRT average of
4 passengers per square metre
as compared to 6 passengers
per square metre in other cities.
And
our trains average passenger load
is 1200 passengers
although the engineering limit
is 1800 passengers.
Thank You Mr Transport Minister.
One question Sir.
Just when is the last time,
you took a fucking MRT train?
Have you ever
had your foreign talent's armpit
thrust into your face
on your fucking MRT train?
Have you ever
stood on your fucking MRT train
with no handrails to hold?
And many others around you,
have nothing to hold on to?
Do you know how fucking dangerous
that is?
If your fucking MRT train
have to make an emergency stop?
Do you need a fatal accident,
to listen?
How do you feel,
when your wife or daughter,
have to fold their arms
in order not to have their tits molested
because of your
fucking overcrowded MRT trains?
Let's take a look,
at your fucking SMRT financial reports.
Let's look at your profits first.
2004 nett $89.5 million profit
2005 nett $126.7 million profit
2006 nett $103.4 million profit
2007 nett $135.4 million profit
Now, let's look at your percentage passenger growth.
2003 1.2%
2004 (0.7%)
2005 2.8%
2006 2.8%
2007 5.1%
Overall, the passenger growth
on your fucking MRT train
is growing at a compounded rate.
Now lets look at your
car kilometres spanned.
2003 89.6 million km
2004 77.4 million km
2005 75.1 million km
2006 75.5 million km
2007 77.1 million km
Clearly, the frequency of
fucking MRT trains
have DECREASED
while your passenger growth
have INCREASED
and your nett profits
have INCREASED!!!!
When you show us some
fucking statistic,
show us some other
fucking statistic,
you motherfucker
20080219
1535 HRS FEBRUARY 19TH 2008
Can the blind cry
Can the mute scream
Can the deaf man hear
those tears
that flow
in the rivers
and form
the sea.
Can Daddy hold you
for just one precious minute?
What could Daddy have done?
I begged for an answer.
Can Daddy
take your place
instead?
Prayers of anguish
and cries of agony
disappear into nothingness.
Mother Mary mocks me
as her lips curl
into that twisted smile
holding Christ our Lord.
We could have
had so much fun together.
Going boating,
and dive into the sea
taking turns to be
Godzilla?
Building sandcastles
and destroying them.
Drift car racing,
like we're Jackie Chan?
playing frisbee,
and catch it
with one hand
between the legs?
play rugby,
and slide in the mud
and giggle
knowing Mum will kill us?
play tennis,
and pretend
Federer is a loser?
Watching Loserpool lose again,
another reason to drink beers
and smoke ciggys?
Do you know that Daddy
was great
at inventing kid's stories?
Your cousins loved them.
Will you ever know?
Will you ever call me Dad
one day when we meet
in Heaven?
Your cot
Dad made sure
its made in Denmark,
no leaded paint
or toxic coatings,
lies empty.
The whole house
is hollow,
devoid of the soul
you could have brought.
Will we ever laugh
with Nemo
or sing
with Sebastian
and Ariel?
Could we have conspired
to stay out of trouble
from Mum?
Dad is fun
Mum is business.
Could we have tortured
Genghis together?
Bath him
in the washing machine?
All that is gone,
in the trauma
of the worst weekend
in Daddy's life,
and Mummy's too.
Did you see Mum and Dad
feverishly praying
that you will survive?
Did you hear Mum
telling you
that all is OK
and that you will be fine?
How can we say goodbye
when we never said hello.
We dreamt
that you are tough
and will survive anything
and joked that if we did not
give you education,
you'd be a gangster chief.
All we could do
is say we love you,
beneath the grainy black and white
of the ultrasound
as you did 3 vertical jumps.
All we could do
is to cry in vain
as you lie lifeless
amongst the bloodied mess
on the petri dish.
Can Daddy just hold you
for one precious minute?
When the blind cries
and the mute screams
and the deaf hears
them both.
Can the mute scream
Can the deaf man hear
those tears
that flow
in the rivers
and form
the sea.
Can Daddy hold you
for just one precious minute?
What could Daddy have done?
I begged for an answer.
Can Daddy
take your place
instead?
Prayers of anguish
and cries of agony
disappear into nothingness.
Mother Mary mocks me
as her lips curl
into that twisted smile
holding Christ our Lord.
We could have
had so much fun together.
Going boating,
and dive into the sea
taking turns to be
Godzilla?
Building sandcastles
and destroying them.
Drift car racing,
like we're Jackie Chan?
playing frisbee,
and catch it
with one hand
between the legs?
play rugby,
and slide in the mud
and giggle
knowing Mum will kill us?
play tennis,
and pretend
Federer is a loser?
Watching Loserpool lose again,
another reason to drink beers
and smoke ciggys?
Do you know that Daddy
was great
at inventing kid's stories?
Your cousins loved them.
Will you ever know?
Will you ever call me Dad
one day when we meet
in Heaven?
Your cot
Dad made sure
its made in Denmark,
no leaded paint
or toxic coatings,
lies empty.
The whole house
is hollow,
devoid of the soul
you could have brought.
Will we ever laugh
with Nemo
or sing
with Sebastian
and Ariel?
Could we have conspired
to stay out of trouble
from Mum?
Dad is fun
Mum is business.
Could we have tortured
Genghis together?
Bath him
in the washing machine?
All that is gone,
in the trauma
of the worst weekend
in Daddy's life,
and Mummy's too.
Did you see Mum and Dad
feverishly praying
that you will survive?
Did you hear Mum
telling you
that all is OK
and that you will be fine?
How can we say goodbye
when we never said hello.
We dreamt
that you are tough
and will survive anything
and joked that if we did not
give you education,
you'd be a gangster chief.
All we could do
is say we love you,
beneath the grainy black and white
of the ultrasound
as you did 3 vertical jumps.
All we could do
is to cry in vain
as you lie lifeless
amongst the bloodied mess
on the petri dish.
Can Daddy just hold you
for one precious minute?
When the blind cries
and the mute screams
and the deaf hears
them both.
20080130
1720 HRS January 30th 2008
As I approach,
the end of another
working day.
Another rough day
in the stock markets.
I can hardly,
muster the strength
to even smile.
But as I make my way home
Through the maddening crowd
on the MRT,
I have 25 minutes,
to put a smile
on my face,
when I meet
my darling wife.
When I sit down
For dinner
with our family,
Its feels like,
I’ve just been through hell,
And emerged
In heaven.
Our family,
Is my heaven
Right here
On earth.
I can hardly wait
for our baby
to arrive.
I cannot think
Of a more noble calling
In life
than to bring up
our child
with you
by my side.
the end of another
working day.
Another rough day
in the stock markets.
I can hardly,
muster the strength
to even smile.
But as I make my way home
Through the maddening crowd
on the MRT,
I have 25 minutes,
to put a smile
on my face,
when I meet
my darling wife.
When I sit down
For dinner
with our family,
Its feels like,
I’ve just been through hell,
And emerged
In heaven.
Our family,
Is my heaven
Right here
On earth.
I can hardly wait
for our baby
to arrive.
I cannot think
Of a more noble calling
In life
than to bring up
our child
with you
by my side.
20071211
1445 HRS DECEMBER 11TH 2007
In exactly one week
when I wake up
in the morning,
you would
be my wife.
Dear God,
you can take away
everything I ever owned.
My house, my car, my boat,
even my stupid cat.
You can take away,
all the meals
from my mouth,
the strength
from my limbs,
or even the breath
from my nose,
But please
never never never
take away
the sound of her laughter
from my ears.
Life has never
been easy,
and when I come home
my mind tired,
my spirit broken,
my body limp.
But when I hear
the joyous sound
of her laughter,
I feel my energy
bursting forth,
and life exploding
into a cascade
of love
and happiness.
And again,
I found the purpose
in my life.
Dear God,
take away anything
from me,
but please I beg of you,
not her laughter.
when I wake up
in the morning,
you would
be my wife.
Dear God,
you can take away
everything I ever owned.
My house, my car, my boat,
even my stupid cat.
You can take away,
all the meals
from my mouth,
the strength
from my limbs,
or even the breath
from my nose,
But please
never never never
take away
the sound of her laughter
from my ears.
Life has never
been easy,
and when I come home
my mind tired,
my spirit broken,
my body limp.
But when I hear
the joyous sound
of her laughter,
I feel my energy
bursting forth,
and life exploding
into a cascade
of love
and happiness.
And again,
I found the purpose
in my life.
Dear God,
take away anything
from me,
but please I beg of you,
not her laughter.
20071129
1520 HRS NOVEMBER 29TH 2007
Just ask me
anyway.
Do not assume.
Because there is
no such thing
as a foolish question.
Only fools.
I will do my best
to answer all
your questions.
Only fools
ask no questions
and assume
anyway.
Do not assume.
Because there is
no such thing
as a foolish question.
Only fools.
I will do my best
to answer all
your questions.
Only fools
ask no questions
and assume
20071025
1820 HRS OCTOBER 25TH 2007
No!
Try Not.
Do, or do not.
There is no try.
According to the words
of Master Yoda
the Jedi Knight
in Star Wars.
I am no Jedi,
but I am a sailor.
And no ship
can go anywhere
if the captain
does not chart
its destination.
You cannot go anywhere
if you drift
with the sea.
And sooner or later,
you will crash.
The sea is such
that it will bring
a drifting ship
to a destructive end.
The only ship
that goes anywhere
is one who knows
where it is going
and how
to get there.
Likewise,
if we drift along directionless
our lives,
we will surely sink
at some point.
We must be the captain
of our lives,
be purposeful
and have a clear direction,
where we are going
and of course
how to get there.
Try Not.
Do, or do not.
There is no try.
According to the words
of Master Yoda
the Jedi Knight
in Star Wars.
I am no Jedi,
but I am a sailor.
And no ship
can go anywhere
if the captain
does not chart
its destination.
You cannot go anywhere
if you drift
with the sea.
And sooner or later,
you will crash.
The sea is such
that it will bring
a drifting ship
to a destructive end.
The only ship
that goes anywhere
is one who knows
where it is going
and how
to get there.
Likewise,
if we drift along directionless
our lives,
we will surely sink
at some point.
We must be the captain
of our lives,
be purposeful
and have a clear direction,
where we are going
and of course
how to get there.
20071021
1600 HRS OCTOBER 21ST 2007
I just went mad.
I bought a total of
4 watches,
4 ear rings,
4 pendants,
2 hair clips,
1 hair band,
1 bracelet.
Life becomes meaningful
when you give.
But giving in material things
is a poor substitute,
for giving time,
giving yourself.
There is no better gift
than time.
Money when spent
can be earned back.
Time when wasted,
can never be regained.
A minute doing nothing
is a minute gone forever,
you can never ever
get that minute back.
We always think
we have to do some heroic act
go help the poor and hungry
in some African state.
Generosity
need not go very far.
When you are being served
by a stressed out
and poorly paid waitress,
who might be
some poor foreign student
trying to make ends meet
whilst doing her studies,
a kind smile
and some understanding,
can help her so much.
We may not have given her
much of our time
nor money,
but we have given
some kindness.
In doing so,
we gave ourselves
and helped her
made her life
a little bit better,
even just for
10 seconds
I bought a total of
4 watches,
4 ear rings,
4 pendants,
2 hair clips,
1 hair band,
1 bracelet.
Life becomes meaningful
when you give.
But giving in material things
is a poor substitute,
for giving time,
giving yourself.
There is no better gift
than time.
Money when spent
can be earned back.
Time when wasted,
can never be regained.
A minute doing nothing
is a minute gone forever,
you can never ever
get that minute back.
We always think
we have to do some heroic act
go help the poor and hungry
in some African state.
Generosity
need not go very far.
When you are being served
by a stressed out
and poorly paid waitress,
who might be
some poor foreign student
trying to make ends meet
whilst doing her studies,
a kind smile
and some understanding,
can help her so much.
We may not have given her
much of our time
nor money,
but we have given
some kindness.
In doing so,
we gave ourselves
and helped her
made her life
a little bit better,
even just for
10 seconds
20071016
1700 HRS 16TH OCTOBER 2007
Oh,
in my 12 hours back in Singapore,
over the weekend.
I read of this 27 year old
Palestinian dude
who hid in the wheel well
of a SQ aircraft
and flew from
KL to Singapore.
He fell out of the wheel well
upon touching down
at Changi.
The police arrested him
and presumably threw him
in jail, possibly rattan caning
as its the law
for illegal immigration
into Singapore.
Fuck,
this guy is so smart.
He knew
that on a 35 minute flight
to Singapore,
he stood a good chance
of survival
against the cold
or lack of oxygen
as the plane
would not have gone up
sufficient altitude,
or at least
he could survive
long enough.
Fuck,
arrest him?
I would have greeted him
and handed him a Singaporean NRIC
and passport
on arrival!!!
We need this kind
of smart risk takers
in my 12 hours back in Singapore,
over the weekend.
I read of this 27 year old
Palestinian dude
who hid in the wheel well
of a SQ aircraft
and flew from
KL to Singapore.
He fell out of the wheel well
upon touching down
at Changi.
The police arrested him
and presumably threw him
in jail, possibly rattan caning
as its the law
for illegal immigration
into Singapore.
Fuck,
this guy is so smart.
He knew
that on a 35 minute flight
to Singapore,
he stood a good chance
of survival
against the cold
or lack of oxygen
as the plane
would not have gone up
sufficient altitude,
or at least
he could survive
long enough.
Fuck,
arrest him?
I would have greeted him
and handed him a Singaporean NRIC
and passport
on arrival!!!
We need this kind
of smart risk takers
1740 HRS OCTOBER 16TH 2007
31 whole days in HK,
made me obsessed with
the plight of Vietnamese refugees
detained in camps
in HK and other parts
of the world.
I cannot fathom
with any logic
for the life of me
understand how
can the world
classify the Vietnamese
according to
political or economic refugees.
Political refugees
fair enough,
escaping to another country
for fear of political persecution.
Economic refugees?
escaping to another country
because of better economics?
Can a man possibly,
put himself, his wife
and his children,
on a flimsy and leaky boat,
risking
death by
drowning,
dehydration,
robbery,
rape,
murder
on the high seas?
Just because he wants
more money?
Come on,
he is escaping
because living conditions
back home,
under a communist regime
was unlivable!!!
And those Thai fishermen
who preyed on these Vietnamese refugees
because they realised,
it was easy money
looting the Vietnamese,
raping them,
killing them.
And the Thai governement,
did absolutely nothing,
to stop them,
so as to deter
the influx
of more Vietnamese
boat people.
Thus it is
Thai government
endorsed
robberies,
rapes,
and murder.
I used to think of Thai people
as gentle and nice,
after knowing
what they done
in the process
killing possibly
250,000 Vietnamese
I don't know anymore.
Maybe its Southern Thais
or Malays.
I dunno.
Fuck knows.
made me obsessed with
the plight of Vietnamese refugees
detained in camps
in HK and other parts
of the world.
I cannot fathom
with any logic
for the life of me
understand how
can the world
classify the Vietnamese
according to
political or economic refugees.
Political refugees
fair enough,
escaping to another country
for fear of political persecution.
Economic refugees?
escaping to another country
because of better economics?
Can a man possibly,
put himself, his wife
and his children,
on a flimsy and leaky boat,
risking
death by
drowning,
dehydration,
robbery,
rape,
murder
on the high seas?
Just because he wants
more money?
Come on,
he is escaping
because living conditions
back home,
under a communist regime
was unlivable!!!
And those Thai fishermen
who preyed on these Vietnamese refugees
because they realised,
it was easy money
looting the Vietnamese,
raping them,
killing them.
And the Thai governement,
did absolutely nothing,
to stop them,
so as to deter
the influx
of more Vietnamese
boat people.
Thus it is
Thai government
endorsed
robberies,
rapes,
and murder.
I used to think of Thai people
as gentle and nice,
after knowing
what they done
in the process
killing possibly
250,000 Vietnamese
I don't know anymore.
Maybe its Southern Thais
or Malays.
I dunno.
Fuck knows.
20071003
1840 HRS OCTOBER 3RD 2007
Today
I turned 43.
Today,
after work,
I rushed home
to my apartment,
although I knew
I would be all alone.
But today,
I rushed home
because
I planned
to take that 5 minute walk
to Harbour City
where I found out
that there is a
hat boutique.
My darling wife
loves hats.
All Vietnamese do.
I want to buy
as many hats
as I can carry home.
Because
all I want
on my birthday,
is to see
her beautiful smile.
I feel
all purposeful again,
because nothing
is more meaningful
on this day
than that smile.
I turned 43.
Today,
after work,
I rushed home
to my apartment,
although I knew
I would be all alone.
But today,
I rushed home
because
I planned
to take that 5 minute walk
to Harbour City
where I found out
that there is a
hat boutique.
My darling wife
loves hats.
All Vietnamese do.
I want to buy
as many hats
as I can carry home.
Because
all I want
on my birthday,
is to see
her beautiful smile.
I feel
all purposeful again,
because nothing
is more meaningful
on this day
than that smile.
20071002
1950 HRS OCTOBER 2ND 2007
When we fall in love,
we take this giant step,
into the unknown.
We may have everything to gain,
and also alot to lose.
We may have every happiness,
and we also have every hurt.
Love is like
a total, complete
and unconditional
surrender.
Come what may,
for better or worse.
For all the joys
she provided,
a bit of hurt
ain't gonna matter.
When you have conquered
the fear of loss,
the fear of pain,
therein lies
the ultimate freedom
to love
and love completely.
And each day
for the rest of my life,
I will walk
with happiness
and joy.
For I conquered
my fears
and insecurities
we take this giant step,
into the unknown.
We may have everything to gain,
and also alot to lose.
We may have every happiness,
and we also have every hurt.
Love is like
a total, complete
and unconditional
surrender.
Come what may,
for better or worse.
For all the joys
she provided,
a bit of hurt
ain't gonna matter.
When you have conquered
the fear of loss,
the fear of pain,
therein lies
the ultimate freedom
to love
and love completely.
And each day
for the rest of my life,
I will walk
with happiness
and joy.
For I conquered
my fears
and insecurities
20071001
2040 HRS OCTOBER 1ST 2007
This really made me sick.
The violent killings and beatings
of monks and demonstrators
unarmed and holding
a peaceful protest
against the ruling military junta
in Myanmar.
A government
is supposed to be
for the people.
The people have spoken.
A government is supposed
to listen to its people
and try to resolve
their grievances
in a peaceful
and fair manner.
Only a pariah state
ruled by beasts with
the morals of
street dogs
will kill
its own kind.
But that is only
to be expected
of a military junta
that overturned
the election results in 1990
when the people voted
for Aung San Suu Kyi.
And have since,
put her under house arrest
and ruled the people
with military force,
in the process
sending a mineral rich country
into near bankruptcy.
You see some of Myanmar's brightest
working in Singapore
as waiters and waitresses.
It makes me even more sick,
sicker than sick.
When I think of this Singapore Government,
whose Temasek owned companies,
Chartered Industries
and Allied Ordinance,
selling guns and ammunition
to the Myanmar military.
When no one else,
will sell these pariahs
weapons
that were meant
for killing their own people,
this Singapore government
will gladly sell them weapons.
The Myanmese people
were gunned down
by guns and bullets
made in Singapore.
All of us here,
have Myanmese blood
stains on our hands.
We voted a government
that supported murder.
So who is the bigger pariah?
The violent killings and beatings
of monks and demonstrators
unarmed and holding
a peaceful protest
against the ruling military junta
in Myanmar.
A government
is supposed to be
for the people.
The people have spoken.
A government is supposed
to listen to its people
and try to resolve
their grievances
in a peaceful
and fair manner.
Only a pariah state
ruled by beasts with
the morals of
street dogs
will kill
its own kind.
But that is only
to be expected
of a military junta
that overturned
the election results in 1990
when the people voted
for Aung San Suu Kyi.
And have since,
put her under house arrest
and ruled the people
with military force,
in the process
sending a mineral rich country
into near bankruptcy.
You see some of Myanmar's brightest
working in Singapore
as waiters and waitresses.
It makes me even more sick,
sicker than sick.
When I think of this Singapore Government,
whose Temasek owned companies,
Chartered Industries
and Allied Ordinance,
selling guns and ammunition
to the Myanmar military.
When no one else,
will sell these pariahs
weapons
that were meant
for killing their own people,
this Singapore government
will gladly sell them weapons.
The Myanmese people
were gunned down
by guns and bullets
made in Singapore.
All of us here,
have Myanmese blood
stains on our hands.
We voted a government
that supported murder.
So who is the bigger pariah?
20070928
2020 HRS SEPTEMBER 28TH 2007
I can't believe it.
I've faced an entire life
full of dissappointments,
after 42 years,
I would have thought,
that I can take any kind
of dissappointment
Life has to throw at me.
Strangely,
nothing prepared me
for this.
When it became clear
they won't give you
your social visit visa
and you're not going
to visit me,
I suddenly realised
how much
I wanted you
to be here
with me,
just for one
weekend.
I locked myself
in this apartment
for 2.5 weeks,
waiting for you
in anticipation,
every night afterwork,
every weekend.
I did not want
to go out,
I did not want
to go
to all the nice restaurants
I know
in this city,
I do not want
to explore
the shopping centres,
I do not want
to wander
the streets on my own.
I just won't
enjoy myself
without you
by my side.
I wanted so badly
to show you this city,
where I've stayed
for 7 whole years.
I won't eat
all my favourite food,
because it is meaningless
without you.
I checked out
the jazz club
downstairs,
I absolutely loved
that place,
the band
was terrific,
the decor
cozy,
the crowd
friendly.
I lasted a grand total
of 15 minutes.
It was almost like
I felt guilty
enjoying myself
without you.
I just wanted us
to have fun together
exploring this city
together.
I suddenly
realised how much
I really hated
this apartment.
Coming from a 2519 sq ft penthouse,
to a 500 sq ft studio,
I suddenly felt
like a fucking prisoner.
For 2.5 weeks,
I locked myself inside
watching videos.
I've never watched
so much TV
in my entire life.
I don't know baby,
I know there's always
another time,
another place.
But I just want you now,
right here,
by my side.
I hate
the way I am now,
I need you so.
I've faced an entire life
full of dissappointments,
after 42 years,
I would have thought,
that I can take any kind
of dissappointment
Life has to throw at me.
Strangely,
nothing prepared me
for this.
When it became clear
they won't give you
your social visit visa
and you're not going
to visit me,
I suddenly realised
how much
I wanted you
to be here
with me,
just for one
weekend.
I locked myself
in this apartment
for 2.5 weeks,
waiting for you
in anticipation,
every night afterwork,
every weekend.
I did not want
to go out,
I did not want
to go
to all the nice restaurants
I know
in this city,
I do not want
to explore
the shopping centres,
I do not want
to wander
the streets on my own.
I just won't
enjoy myself
without you
by my side.
I wanted so badly
to show you this city,
where I've stayed
for 7 whole years.
I won't eat
all my favourite food,
because it is meaningless
without you.
I checked out
the jazz club
downstairs,
I absolutely loved
that place,
the band
was terrific,
the decor
cozy,
the crowd
friendly.
I lasted a grand total
of 15 minutes.
It was almost like
I felt guilty
enjoying myself
without you.
I just wanted us
to have fun together
exploring this city
together.
I suddenly
realised how much
I really hated
this apartment.
Coming from a 2519 sq ft penthouse,
to a 500 sq ft studio,
I suddenly felt
like a fucking prisoner.
For 2.5 weeks,
I locked myself inside
watching videos.
I've never watched
so much TV
in my entire life.
I don't know baby,
I know there's always
another time,
another place.
But I just want you now,
right here,
by my side.
I hate
the way I am now,
I need you so.
20070927
2030 HRS SEPTEMBER 27TH 2007
I can't believe
this cesspit of an island
called Hong Kong.
You let in shady characters
calling themselves
Nigerian businessmen,
who stalk the streets
in the middle of the night
hoping to pick the pocket
of some drunken guy,
You let in
prostitutes from all parts
of Mainland China,
Philippines
and Thailand,
totally unregulated
and running the risks
of sexually transmitted diseases,
But you made it a bitch
for a Singapore PR,
who can prove
she is gainfully employed
as an engineer
in a large listed
electronics contract manufacturer,
who can prove
with bank statements
she has the financial means
to support herself,
and has fully paid up flight tickets
for her passage back to Singapore
for just one weekend in HK,
you made it a bitch
for her,
simply because she happens
to hold
a Vietnamese passport.
Just what
are you afraid of?
Illegal immigration?
Just who the hell fuck
would want to migrate
to this shit hole?
The air is dangerously polluted,
the streets are filthy,
the crime rate is high,
even swanky boutiques
at major shopping centres
pay protection money,
to triad gangsters,
the tap water is unsafe for drinking,
the sea is unsafe for swimming,
even the toilet in my apartment
stinks of recycled industrial water.
Food is ridiculously overpriced,
everything is expensive,
people are rude,
public transport system
is completely overcrowded.
Make no mistake,
we have no fucking interest
in moving to
your shit hole.
We are just here,
to spend some money,
maybe buy a bag
some clothes,
and perhaps Disneyland watches
for kids.
If its so difficult
for us to spend our money
in your shit hole,
we'd gladly
take it somewhere else.
4 to 6 weeks processing time
for a social visit visa application?
The next time people tell me
HK is an efficient city,
I swear I'll kick him
in the ass.
this cesspit of an island
called Hong Kong.
You let in shady characters
calling themselves
Nigerian businessmen,
who stalk the streets
in the middle of the night
hoping to pick the pocket
of some drunken guy,
You let in
prostitutes from all parts
of Mainland China,
Philippines
and Thailand,
totally unregulated
and running the risks
of sexually transmitted diseases,
But you made it a bitch
for a Singapore PR,
who can prove
she is gainfully employed
as an engineer
in a large listed
electronics contract manufacturer,
who can prove
with bank statements
she has the financial means
to support herself,
and has fully paid up flight tickets
for her passage back to Singapore
for just one weekend in HK,
you made it a bitch
for her,
simply because she happens
to hold
a Vietnamese passport.
Just what
are you afraid of?
Illegal immigration?
Just who the hell fuck
would want to migrate
to this shit hole?
The air is dangerously polluted,
the streets are filthy,
the crime rate is high,
even swanky boutiques
at major shopping centres
pay protection money,
to triad gangsters,
the tap water is unsafe for drinking,
the sea is unsafe for swimming,
even the toilet in my apartment
stinks of recycled industrial water.
Food is ridiculously overpriced,
everything is expensive,
people are rude,
public transport system
is completely overcrowded.
Make no mistake,
we have no fucking interest
in moving to
your shit hole.
We are just here,
to spend some money,
maybe buy a bag
some clothes,
and perhaps Disneyland watches
for kids.
If its so difficult
for us to spend our money
in your shit hole,
we'd gladly
take it somewhere else.
4 to 6 weeks processing time
for a social visit visa application?
The next time people tell me
HK is an efficient city,
I swear I'll kick him
in the ass.
20070926
2150 HRS SEPTEMBER 26TH 2007
Sometimes I feel
that my life,
is like climbing
this tall and arduous mountain.
Every single day,
I slogged
my life's energies away,
to reach the summit.
Now,
I've finally reached
the top
of this treacherous mountain,
breathing in
the fresh mountain air,
enjoying
the stunning scenery
all around me.
I take my camera out
to record down
the beauty that I see
laid out before me,
only to realise,
the day is ending,
light is fading,
darkness is coming,
and soon,
the beauty
of it all,
will be enveloped
in darkness.
that my life,
is like climbing
this tall and arduous mountain.
Every single day,
I slogged
my life's energies away,
to reach the summit.
Now,
I've finally reached
the top
of this treacherous mountain,
breathing in
the fresh mountain air,
enjoying
the stunning scenery
all around me.
I take my camera out
to record down
the beauty that I see
laid out before me,
only to realise,
the day is ending,
light is fading,
darkness is coming,
and soon,
the beauty
of it all,
will be enveloped
in darkness.
1550 HRS SEPTEHMBER 26TH 2007
Its strange how friends described her
as a simple girl.
Simple people are by defination
people with simple
needs and wants.
But my observation is
simple people
are far from simple.
They protrayed simplicity
because they have developed
a tough survival instinct,
a psychological immunity
to adversity,
thus making them
very complex
and psychologically advanced
human beings.
Human beings have
unlimited needs and wants,
that is a well known
economic fact.
Our entire capitalistic society
feeds on our
unlimited needs and wants.
We are always chasing
the last dollar.
Always chasing
for that so called improvement
in our quality of life.
When we can only be happy
with a bigger car,
a more glamourous condo,
a fatter bank account,
a multiplying investment portfolio,
a further luxury holiday.
But all these
serve as nothing much more
than bragging rights.
It is like our entire self esteem
is based on our capacity
to show off.
But that is capitalism.
Capitalism is not going to work,
if Orchard Road or Vivocity
are filled with
Buddhist monks.
I think we all know
the deception of capitalism.
A 300% increase in price
does not commensurate with
a 300% increase in satisfaction.
A $5 lamb chop in a HDB kopitiam
costs 10 times less
than at Raffles Grill
but the satisfaction
is no where near
10 times more.
The equation is balanced
only by an added capacity
to brag to others,
having dined at
Raffles Grill.
How do simple people
thus become happy?
Being humans,
they too are subjected
to unlimited needs and wants.
The difference is
short of attaining
unlimited needs and wants,
they've learnt
to appreciate
what they already have.
We think,
we have to find
happiness,
they know
that happiness
is already found
within.
They know,
if you need somethings
or even someone,
in order to be happy,
you're not gonna be very happy,
after getting them anyway.
Not as though,
they are immuned
from wanting to enjoy
a lamb chop
at Raffles Grill.
Just that they know
eating at Raffles Grill,
is much nicer
when you are eating
with someone
you love.
Happiness is
when what you worked hard for
is being shared
with someone
you love.
And ironically,
it can be found
equally
at a HDB kopi tiam
and at Raffles Grill.
as a simple girl.
Simple people are by defination
people with simple
needs and wants.
But my observation is
simple people
are far from simple.
They protrayed simplicity
because they have developed
a tough survival instinct,
a psychological immunity
to adversity,
thus making them
very complex
and psychologically advanced
human beings.
Human beings have
unlimited needs and wants,
that is a well known
economic fact.
Our entire capitalistic society
feeds on our
unlimited needs and wants.
We are always chasing
the last dollar.
Always chasing
for that so called improvement
in our quality of life.
When we can only be happy
with a bigger car,
a more glamourous condo,
a fatter bank account,
a multiplying investment portfolio,
a further luxury holiday.
But all these
serve as nothing much more
than bragging rights.
It is like our entire self esteem
is based on our capacity
to show off.
But that is capitalism.
Capitalism is not going to work,
if Orchard Road or Vivocity
are filled with
Buddhist monks.
I think we all know
the deception of capitalism.
A 300% increase in price
does not commensurate with
a 300% increase in satisfaction.
A $5 lamb chop in a HDB kopitiam
costs 10 times less
than at Raffles Grill
but the satisfaction
is no where near
10 times more.
The equation is balanced
only by an added capacity
to brag to others,
having dined at
Raffles Grill.
How do simple people
thus become happy?
Being humans,
they too are subjected
to unlimited needs and wants.
The difference is
short of attaining
unlimited needs and wants,
they've learnt
to appreciate
what they already have.
We think,
we have to find
happiness,
they know
that happiness
is already found
within.
They know,
if you need somethings
or even someone,
in order to be happy,
you're not gonna be very happy,
after getting them anyway.
Not as though,
they are immuned
from wanting to enjoy
a lamb chop
at Raffles Grill.
Just that they know
eating at Raffles Grill,
is much nicer
when you are eating
with someone
you love.
Happiness is
when what you worked hard for
is being shared
with someone
you love.
And ironically,
it can be found
equally
at a HDB kopi tiam
and at Raffles Grill.
20070923
1830 HRS SEPTEMBER 23RD 2007
Everytime I go to church,
I hear about
the wonderful things
God have done
for people.
From helping kids pass
their examinations,
to helping parents get
a promotion at work,
to healing the sick,
to narrowly escaping
a road accident.
God is great,
we proclaim.
And the pastor,
will back up,
how God is great,
with references
from the Bible.
So we believe in God
who performs miracles
and help us
when we are in need.
A God
who is involved
in our lives.
Then, how did God
allow his Korean church followers
to be murdered
in Afghanistan?
How did God
allow natural diasasters
like the Sumatran tsunami
to kill 275,000 lives
on Boxing Day 2004?
How did God
allow a deadly disease
like SARS
to kill so many people,
including a pastor
who contacted SARS
because he prayed
for a victim?
Do we know
the answer?
Take out your Bible references
and tell that to
the families
of the tsunami victims
or the SARS victims.
Did God allow,
the tsunami to kill,
because Indonesians
are Muslims,
because Thais
are Buddhists,
and Indians
are Hindus?
Are we worshipping a God
who blesses some people
and kills others?
Didn't the Bible teach,
that we are all
children of God?
And that we are
creations of God?
Do we believe
that God helps
a Christian boy
to pass his exams,
whilst killing 275,000 people
who are not Christians?
Some of the victims
were Christians
incidentally.
Is God really
a God of Love
and not a mass
murderer?
Is it the same God that taught us,
to love our enemies?
Or worse,
totally powerless
from stopping
big natural diasasters,
but could do small things
like helping a kid
pass his exams?
My point is
it is pointless
trying to understand God.
What is the use
of having faith,
if we need to rationalise
that God has done this
and done that
for us?
How can we worship God
as omnipotent,
and yet think
we can understand him
with our human understandings?
Why tell me
what you know about God
every single sunday,
when the reality is
nobody actually knows?
I choose to believe,
that God resides,
in each of us.
And acceptance of Christ
is the conscious allowance
of God manifesting himself
in our daily lives.
It is the personal relationship
we have
with God
and his goodness
that is in us.
We are all
children of God,
we are his creations.
Therefore, we are perfect
and should accept each other
as perfect creations
of God.
It is in each and eveyone
of us,
to let that perfection
be seen
and connect with
the perfection
of others.
It is our responsibilities
to let the God in us,
connect with
the God in others
we meet
in our daily lives.
To try to explain God
in human terms,
albeit with Bible references,
seems to me,
trying to put God down,
to our human levels,
and probably
a sin by
itself.
I hear about
the wonderful things
God have done
for people.
From helping kids pass
their examinations,
to helping parents get
a promotion at work,
to healing the sick,
to narrowly escaping
a road accident.
God is great,
we proclaim.
And the pastor,
will back up,
how God is great,
with references
from the Bible.
So we believe in God
who performs miracles
and help us
when we are in need.
A God
who is involved
in our lives.
Then, how did God
allow his Korean church followers
to be murdered
in Afghanistan?
How did God
allow natural diasasters
like the Sumatran tsunami
to kill 275,000 lives
on Boxing Day 2004?
How did God
allow a deadly disease
like SARS
to kill so many people,
including a pastor
who contacted SARS
because he prayed
for a victim?
Do we know
the answer?
Take out your Bible references
and tell that to
the families
of the tsunami victims
or the SARS victims.
Did God allow,
the tsunami to kill,
because Indonesians
are Muslims,
because Thais
are Buddhists,
and Indians
are Hindus?
Are we worshipping a God
who blesses some people
and kills others?
Didn't the Bible teach,
that we are all
children of God?
And that we are
creations of God?
Do we believe
that God helps
a Christian boy
to pass his exams,
whilst killing 275,000 people
who are not Christians?
Some of the victims
were Christians
incidentally.
Is God really
a God of Love
and not a mass
murderer?
Is it the same God that taught us,
to love our enemies?
Or worse,
totally powerless
from stopping
big natural diasasters,
but could do small things
like helping a kid
pass his exams?
My point is
it is pointless
trying to understand God.
What is the use
of having faith,
if we need to rationalise
that God has done this
and done that
for us?
How can we worship God
as omnipotent,
and yet think
we can understand him
with our human understandings?
Why tell me
what you know about God
every single sunday,
when the reality is
nobody actually knows?
I choose to believe,
that God resides,
in each of us.
And acceptance of Christ
is the conscious allowance
of God manifesting himself
in our daily lives.
It is the personal relationship
we have
with God
and his goodness
that is in us.
We are all
children of God,
we are his creations.
Therefore, we are perfect
and should accept each other
as perfect creations
of God.
It is in each and eveyone
of us,
to let that perfection
be seen
and connect with
the perfection
of others.
It is our responsibilities
to let the God in us,
connect with
the God in others
we meet
in our daily lives.
To try to explain God
in human terms,
albeit with Bible references,
seems to me,
trying to put God down,
to our human levels,
and probably
a sin by
itself.
20070822
1145 HRS AUGUST 22ND 2007
We often lament,
when we experience
sorrow and grief.
We immerse ourselves
in our self pity
and pray for strength
to endure our tribulations.
And crave for happiness
and joy.
But how would we
know what is happiness
and joy,
if we had no experiences
with sorrow and grief?
Sorrow and grief
are like knives
that carve into
your heart,
so that more happiness
and joy
can fill up.
So the next time,
you carry the look
of sorrow in your heart,
fear not,
as the day will come
when you will delight
and joy becomes
much sweeter,
because of the tears
you are now weeping.
when we experience
sorrow and grief.
We immerse ourselves
in our self pity
and pray for strength
to endure our tribulations.
And crave for happiness
and joy.
But how would we
know what is happiness
and joy,
if we had no experiences
with sorrow and grief?
Sorrow and grief
are like knives
that carve into
your heart,
so that more happiness
and joy
can fill up.
So the next time,
you carry the look
of sorrow in your heart,
fear not,
as the day will come
when you will delight
and joy becomes
much sweeter,
because of the tears
you are now weeping.
20070807
1750 HRS AUGUST 7TH 2007
Time
is too slow
for those who wait,
too swift
for those who fear,
too long
for those who grieve,
too short
for those who rejoice,
but
for those who love,
Time
is Eternity.
- Henry Van Dyke -
is too slow
for those who wait,
too swift
for those who fear,
too long
for those who grieve,
too short
for those who rejoice,
but
for those who love,
Time
is Eternity.
- Henry Van Dyke -
20070806
1000 HRS AUGUST 6TH 2007
I suspect,
that we always fall
in love
the very first time,
we meet the girl
of our dreams.
Instincts simply tell us
this is the right one,
But reason tells us
otherwise.
And then the battle
between instincts and
reason ensues.
We just don't want
another mistake,
another hurt again.
I've used reason
to guide my entire life
especially love life,
and had been horribly wrong
each time.
This time,
I let myself go
and be swept away
by instincts.
When someone walks
into your life,
and made you realise
she is everything
you've ever hoped for,
everything
you've ever dreamt.
When you're in love,
you're in love.
There need not be a reason
to love and be loved.
Happy are those
who allow themselves to love
and be loved spontaneously.
Sad are those
who think
they understand love.
I have to be doing something right,
when each time she holds me
and kisses me,
I feel like its the happiest moments
I've ever lived for
in my entire life.
Darling, to say that I will
make all your dreams come true
would be a lie.
I'm no genie
nor a saint.
But Darling, I want to be
the Man,
who would dedicate his life
trying to make all your dreams
come true.
that we always fall
in love
the very first time,
we meet the girl
of our dreams.
Instincts simply tell us
this is the right one,
But reason tells us
otherwise.
And then the battle
between instincts and
reason ensues.
We just don't want
another mistake,
another hurt again.
I've used reason
to guide my entire life
especially love life,
and had been horribly wrong
each time.
This time,
I let myself go
and be swept away
by instincts.
When someone walks
into your life,
and made you realise
she is everything
you've ever hoped for,
everything
you've ever dreamt.
When you're in love,
you're in love.
There need not be a reason
to love and be loved.
Happy are those
who allow themselves to love
and be loved spontaneously.
Sad are those
who think
they understand love.
I have to be doing something right,
when each time she holds me
and kisses me,
I feel like its the happiest moments
I've ever lived for
in my entire life.
Darling, to say that I will
make all your dreams come true
would be a lie.
I'm no genie
nor a saint.
But Darling, I want to be
the Man,
who would dedicate his life
trying to make all your dreams
come true.
20070727
1650 HRS JULY 27TH 2007
In the afterglow,
just like
when the sun
have sunk below
the distant horizon
but the last of its rays
still glows up the evening sky
in hues of orange
and purple,
I lay in bed
spent and looking
lovingly
at her body
so warm and sensual.
The heart slows down
to a gentle throb,
the lingering feminine taste
on my lips,
the scent of man and woman
hovers in the air,
the mind still
holding off reality
that the passion
has subsided,
but the senses
they remained heightened
and alive,
though the passion
is not but
only a sweet memory.
Does it get better than this?
Is this a lasting treasure?
or just a moment's pleasure.
As love gently slips
into her quiet rest,
in the afterglow.
just like
when the sun
have sunk below
the distant horizon
but the last of its rays
still glows up the evening sky
in hues of orange
and purple,
I lay in bed
spent and looking
lovingly
at her body
so warm and sensual.
The heart slows down
to a gentle throb,
the lingering feminine taste
on my lips,
the scent of man and woman
hovers in the air,
the mind still
holding off reality
that the passion
has subsided,
but the senses
they remained heightened
and alive,
though the passion
is not but
only a sweet memory.
Does it get better than this?
Is this a lasting treasure?
or just a moment's pleasure.
As love gently slips
into her quiet rest,
in the afterglow.
20070726
1535 HRS JULY 26TH 2007
Headlines in TODAY paper,
NOT IN ISLAM'S NAME.
It detailed how the vast majority
of Muslims in the world
are actually against suicide bombers.
90% of Muslims in Indonesia
74% of Muslims in Malaysia
71% of Muslims in Palestine
66% of Muslims in Lebanon.
These are what I call
the Silent Majority.
In this society of ours,
our lives are almost
always ruled,
our thoughts are almost
always dictated,
by the Tyranical Minority.
Just look at Swingabore.
How many of us actually approve
of how this government controls us?
But it is always the tragedy
of the Silent Majority
to let things happen.
Reminds of my darling's
favourite song,
"Fools said I, you do not know,
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you
take my arms that I might reach you
But my words, like silent raindrops fell,
and echoed,
in the wells of silence...."
So I don't know what
the journalist was trying
to achieve by writing
the headlines.
It really does not matter,
if the majority of Muslims
in this world
disapprove of suicide bombing.
The fact remains,
that as long as they remain
the Silent Majority,
we can hope
for no change
in the incidences
of suicide bombing.
NOT IN ISLAM'S NAME.
It detailed how the vast majority
of Muslims in the world
are actually against suicide bombers.
90% of Muslims in Indonesia
74% of Muslims in Malaysia
71% of Muslims in Palestine
66% of Muslims in Lebanon.
These are what I call
the Silent Majority.
In this society of ours,
our lives are almost
always ruled,
our thoughts are almost
always dictated,
by the Tyranical Minority.
Just look at Swingabore.
How many of us actually approve
of how this government controls us?
But it is always the tragedy
of the Silent Majority
to let things happen.
Reminds of my darling's
favourite song,
"Fools said I, you do not know,
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you
take my arms that I might reach you
But my words, like silent raindrops fell,
and echoed,
in the wells of silence...."
So I don't know what
the journalist was trying
to achieve by writing
the headlines.
It really does not matter,
if the majority of Muslims
in this world
disapprove of suicide bombing.
The fact remains,
that as long as they remain
the Silent Majority,
we can hope
for no change
in the incidences
of suicide bombing.
20070723
1545 HRS JULY 23RD 2007
I felt
like I've finally come home
after travelling
for the longest time,
lost in the wilderness
all alone.
I've searched
the long road
over and over again
always looking,
but not finding,
always hunting,
but not catching,
sometimes catching,
but not keeping.
It takes so much time,
to move on.
At times, I lay down
totally fatigued,
having lost hope.
Wondering if this passion
that I held
in my heart
all these years,
travelling alone
is worth having.
Just who would have
travelled with me???
But now,
I felt like
I've finally
come back
to the warmth comfort
and security
of home.
like I've finally come home
after travelling
for the longest time,
lost in the wilderness
all alone.
I've searched
the long road
over and over again
always looking,
but not finding,
always hunting,
but not catching,
sometimes catching,
but not keeping.
It takes so much time,
to move on.
At times, I lay down
totally fatigued,
having lost hope.
Wondering if this passion
that I held
in my heart
all these years,
travelling alone
is worth having.
Just who would have
travelled with me???
But now,
I felt like
I've finally
come back
to the warmth comfort
and security
of home.
20070718
1440 HRS JULY 18TH 2007
Darling,
you lifted up my spirits,
filled up my heart,
my mind,
my soul,
with loving kindness
giving me the strength
I need
to survive the daily grind
in the workplace.
You took away
my sadness,
and filled me
with gladness.
My eyes get filled
with joy
and thrilled with excitment
My heart and soul
gets filled
with warmth
and love,
Happiness welcomes me
when I wake up
and
the sight of love
greets me
in the morning.
you lifted up my spirits,
filled up my heart,
my mind,
my soul,
with loving kindness
giving me the strength
I need
to survive the daily grind
in the workplace.
You took away
my sadness,
and filled me
with gladness.
My eyes get filled
with joy
and thrilled with excitment
My heart and soul
gets filled
with warmth
and love,
Happiness welcomes me
when I wake up
and
the sight of love
greets me
in the morning.
20070716
1455 HRS JULY 16TH 2007
To the mother
of my future daughter,
I wonder
how is it like,
to rush home
after work,
to be with you
and her.
I wonder
how is it like
to want to carry
all the burden
take away all the pain
so I can come home
to see you and her
happy again.
I wonder
how is it like
to drop everything
I was doing
to catch our kid
when she falls.
To wipe away her tears
and protect
both of you
from all your fears.
I wonder
what is it like
to spend all my free time
with you and her,
I don't want a babysitter,
I'm here to look after,
because
all that matters
is the sound
of our family laughter.
of my future daughter,
I wonder
how is it like,
to rush home
after work,
to be with you
and her.
I wonder
how is it like
to want to carry
all the burden
take away all the pain
so I can come home
to see you and her
happy again.
I wonder
how is it like
to drop everything
I was doing
to catch our kid
when she falls.
To wipe away her tears
and protect
both of you
from all your fears.
I wonder
what is it like
to spend all my free time
with you and her,
I don't want a babysitter,
I'm here to look after,
because
all that matters
is the sound
of our family laughter.
20070712
1130 HRS JULY 12TH 2007
Every sailor knows
that the darkest time
of the night,
is the moment
just before twilight.
And before the sun rises
from the distant horizon,
the rays of light diffuses
into the night air
and gradually emerges
at full strength,
the night is dark no more.
My life been in darkness,
I've been living in
the shadows of my life.
Just at my darkest hour,
you slipped into my life
with your love
gentle and bright
it won't be shaken
perfect and true
I won't be mistaken
warm and strong
it will never be taken
away from me
ever again.
that the darkest time
of the night,
is the moment
just before twilight.
And before the sun rises
from the distant horizon,
the rays of light diffuses
into the night air
and gradually emerges
at full strength,
the night is dark no more.
My life been in darkness,
I've been living in
the shadows of my life.
Just at my darkest hour,
you slipped into my life
with your love
gentle and bright
it won't be shaken
perfect and true
I won't be mistaken
warm and strong
it will never be taken
away from me
ever again.
20070710
1530 HRS JULY 10TH 2007
Fear cripples
Memories persist.
Ghosts from the past
haunt the present,
the heart dreads
to commit.
Am I wiser
from wretched hardships?
The future
promises its fair share
of the past's sorrows.
But I am determined
not to let yesterday's
broken dreams
rule over
today's happiness.
I will not allow
my loved one
to be a victim
of my past.
As she gently kisses
my fears and insecurities
away,
in a way only she
knows how.
Fear not dear heart,
Fear not
to love.
Memories persist.
Ghosts from the past
haunt the present,
the heart dreads
to commit.
Am I wiser
from wretched hardships?
The future
promises its fair share
of the past's sorrows.
But I am determined
not to let yesterday's
broken dreams
rule over
today's happiness.
I will not allow
my loved one
to be a victim
of my past.
As she gently kisses
my fears and insecurities
away,
in a way only she
knows how.
Fear not dear heart,
Fear not
to love.
20070709
1600 HRS JULY 9TH 2007
What is Love?
I always wonder.
If this is real,
I'll volunteer
an answer.
Its a strange sense
like you've been wandering
lost in the wilderness
for all your life,
and then
coming home.
Its like
you've been sailing
through stormy weather,
treacherous waves,
raging seas,
and then pulling your ship
back to the safety
of the harbour.
Its like
all you yearn for
is to see
her smile,
to hear
her laughter.
Her happiness
is your happiness
her joy
is your joy.
And you will do everything
humanly possible
and even beg God
for divine strength,
so you can
make her happy
make her smile.
It is when
you see her cry,
it hurts like
an invisible hand
grabbing your heart
and squeezing the life out
with razor sharp nails.
It is when
you see her in pain,
and you want
to strike a deal with God
or the Devil,
to swap places
with her.
So what is Love?
It is when
you just want
to give and give
and expect nothing
or want nothing
in return.
I always wonder.
If this is real,
I'll volunteer
an answer.
Its a strange sense
like you've been wandering
lost in the wilderness
for all your life,
and then
coming home.
Its like
you've been sailing
through stormy weather,
treacherous waves,
raging seas,
and then pulling your ship
back to the safety
of the harbour.
Its like
all you yearn for
is to see
her smile,
to hear
her laughter.
Her happiness
is your happiness
her joy
is your joy.
And you will do everything
humanly possible
and even beg God
for divine strength,
so you can
make her happy
make her smile.
It is when
you see her cry,
it hurts like
an invisible hand
grabbing your heart
and squeezing the life out
with razor sharp nails.
It is when
you see her in pain,
and you want
to strike a deal with God
or the Devil,
to swap places
with her.
So what is Love?
It is when
you just want
to give and give
and expect nothing
or want nothing
in return.
1200 HRS JULY 9TH 2007
Picking up
pieces of a broken heart,
pieces of a broken life.
The days seemed to merge
into the nights
of loneliness
and solitude.
Emptiness
and meaninglessness
hung over me
like stale cigarette smoke
in a small room.
I lay in bed,
silently crying
tears
full of pride.
Consumed with
bitterness
and grief,
I sought happiness
and peace
in endless stacks of
philosophy
and spirituality books.
Just when I started
to accept that mine
is a life of
alienated reclusiveness,
God sent me
a Precious Angel,
and gave me reason
to smile again.
pieces of a broken heart,
pieces of a broken life.
The days seemed to merge
into the nights
of loneliness
and solitude.
Emptiness
and meaninglessness
hung over me
like stale cigarette smoke
in a small room.
I lay in bed,
silently crying
tears
full of pride.
Consumed with
bitterness
and grief,
I sought happiness
and peace
in endless stacks of
philosophy
and spirituality books.
Just when I started
to accept that mine
is a life of
alienated reclusiveness,
God sent me
a Precious Angel,
and gave me reason
to smile again.
20070704
1150 HRS JULY6TH 2007
Sorry Guys,
I know its Friday night,
But
I have no time for a beer
down at Il Fiore,
all the mindless noise,
and breathless smokes.
Because tonight,
I just wanna be
with her.
Just like
last night
and the night before
and the night before
and the night before.
I rather go shopping
with my baby,
hand in hand.
Or simply sitting
under the moonlit night
by the reservoir,
stealing gentle kisses
exchanging loving glances.
Spending hard earned money
buying my baby gifts
and watching her face light up
in delight,
it makes the horrible day
at the office
all worth the while.
So please don't bother me guys,
I've got no time.
I can't wait to leave the office
to see this girl of mine.
Because nothing else matters
in this whole wide world,
really nothing
nothing at all,
when my baby
holds me tight
in her arms,
and makes me feel
really really treasured.
As I look into her eyes,
I'm thinking,
some day I'll be so proud
if she wears my ring.
I know its Friday night,
But
I have no time for a beer
down at Il Fiore,
all the mindless noise,
and breathless smokes.
Because tonight,
I just wanna be
with her.
Just like
last night
and the night before
and the night before
and the night before.
I rather go shopping
with my baby,
hand in hand.
Or simply sitting
under the moonlit night
by the reservoir,
stealing gentle kisses
exchanging loving glances.
Spending hard earned money
buying my baby gifts
and watching her face light up
in delight,
it makes the horrible day
at the office
all worth the while.
So please don't bother me guys,
I've got no time.
I can't wait to leave the office
to see this girl of mine.
Because nothing else matters
in this whole wide world,
really nothing
nothing at all,
when my baby
holds me tight
in her arms,
and makes me feel
really really treasured.
As I look into her eyes,
I'm thinking,
some day I'll be so proud
if she wears my ring.
1000 HRS JULY 4TH 2007
There's something
about her,
I don't quite know
what it is.
She has this smile,
that fills up my day
with gladness.
There's this radiance
about her,
that lights up
all around her
everywhere she goes
no matter who she's with.
She has this way
of pleasing me,
I don't quite know
what it is,
I just have to laugh
and be happy.
She has this way
of holding me,
I don't quite know
what it is,
but I know
its so nice
to feel so treasured
and appreciated,
never taken for granted
never
ever again.
She has this way
of touching me,
deep down into my heart,
we can look
into each other's eyes
without a sound
without a word,
somehow her life
touches mine,
and I know
I can no longer live
without her.
about her,
I don't quite know
what it is.
She has this smile,
that fills up my day
with gladness.
There's this radiance
about her,
that lights up
all around her
everywhere she goes
no matter who she's with.
She has this way
of pleasing me,
I don't quite know
what it is,
I just have to laugh
and be happy.
She has this way
of holding me,
I don't quite know
what it is,
but I know
its so nice
to feel so treasured
and appreciated,
never taken for granted
never
ever again.
She has this way
of touching me,
deep down into my heart,
we can look
into each other's eyes
without a sound
without a word,
somehow her life
touches mine,
and I know
I can no longer live
without her.
20070703
1300 HRS JUNE 3RD 2007
Wise men say,
only fools rush in.
But I can't help
falling in love
with you.
Shall I stay,
will it be a sin,
If I can't help
falling in love
with you.
Like a river flows,
surely to the sea,
Darling, so it goes,
some things,
were meant to be.
Take my hand,
take my whole life too,
For I can't help
falling in love
with you.
- Bob Dylan -
only fools rush in.
But I can't help
falling in love
with you.
Shall I stay,
will it be a sin,
If I can't help
falling in love
with you.
Like a river flows,
surely to the sea,
Darling, so it goes,
some things,
were meant to be.
Take my hand,
take my whole life too,
For I can't help
falling in love
with you.
- Bob Dylan -
0940 HRS JULY3RD 2007
I love you
not only for
the woman you are
but also for
the woman
you've been trying
to become.
I love you
not only for
the woman you are
but also
for the man
that I become
when I am with you.
I feel inspired
to be a better man.
Not necessarily better man
than others,
but better man
than what I ordinarily
would have been.
God knows,
the number of times
I failed
with a woman.
God knows,
I cannot afford
another failure.
Its gotta happen,
happen sometime,
I've lost the last
3 times.
maybe this time,
just maybe this time,
you and I
we're gonna win.
not only for
the woman you are
but also for
the woman
you've been trying
to become.
I love you
not only for
the woman you are
but also
for the man
that I become
when I am with you.
I feel inspired
to be a better man.
Not necessarily better man
than others,
but better man
than what I ordinarily
would have been.
God knows,
the number of times
I failed
with a woman.
God knows,
I cannot afford
another failure.
Its gotta happen,
happen sometime,
I've lost the last
3 times.
maybe this time,
just maybe this time,
you and I
we're gonna win.
0110 HRS JULY 3RD 2007
Too many angels,
have watched me cry.
Too many angels,
have watched my heart die.
God has seen me
through my sufferings,
He sent me
a beautiful angel Hue,
to heal a broken heart
and believe in
the miracle of love
again.
I thank God
for Life,
I thank God
for my beautiful Hue.
I'd love you
and treasure you
like a priceless gem,
because
you're God's gift
to me.
Love you always.
have watched me cry.
Too many angels,
have watched my heart die.
God has seen me
through my sufferings,
He sent me
a beautiful angel Hue,
to heal a broken heart
and believe in
the miracle of love
again.
I thank God
for Life,
I thank God
for my beautiful Hue.
I'd love you
and treasure you
like a priceless gem,
because
you're God's gift
to me.
Love you always.
20070702
1120 HRS JULY 2ND 2007
God,
she is so beautiful,
those eye lashes
they seem to go on forever.
That captivating smile
ends with cute symetrical dimples
that seemed just a tiny bit
out of line.
High cheekbones
that blushes like
a red lantern
when she laughs
that little laughter
covering her mouth
so demurely.
Those misty brown eyes,
they seem to look
beyond my eyes,
right through me,
like she's visually focusing
on something inside my head.
That slight sing song quality
of that gentle
Vietnamese accent,
smiles and laughs
in ever contentment.
Such joy and happiness
she brings,
to those around her.
Even Genghis loves her.
So warm hearted and caring,
totally feminine
in its charming simplicity.
And God, she adores children!!!
Its like
She's everything
I ever hoped for
in a woman,
everything
I ever needed,
and God had to make her
young enough
to be my daughter.
God loves playing
practical jokes
on me.
she is so beautiful,
those eye lashes
they seem to go on forever.
That captivating smile
ends with cute symetrical dimples
that seemed just a tiny bit
out of line.
High cheekbones
that blushes like
a red lantern
when she laughs
that little laughter
covering her mouth
so demurely.
Those misty brown eyes,
they seem to look
beyond my eyes,
right through me,
like she's visually focusing
on something inside my head.
That slight sing song quality
of that gentle
Vietnamese accent,
smiles and laughs
in ever contentment.
Such joy and happiness
she brings,
to those around her.
Even Genghis loves her.
So warm hearted and caring,
totally feminine
in its charming simplicity.
And God, she adores children!!!
Its like
She's everything
I ever hoped for
in a woman,
everything
I ever needed,
and God had to make her
young enough
to be my daughter.
God loves playing
practical jokes
on me.
20070629
1640 HRS JUNE 29TH 2007
Its funny
but I keep hearing
feminazi remarks like
"Men cannot remain faithful"
If that is truly so,
I wonder who have men
been unfaithful with?
If not women,
we men must have been
busy fucking
amongst ourselves!!!
Assuming we can
quantify the sex drive
of human males
and human females,
and we aggregate
the sum total
of human sex drive,
subtracting commercial sex
and criminal sex,
then the nett sex drives
of human males
and human females
will be about zero
in consenting sex.
If it is true that men
cannot remain faithful,
which therefore implies
that male sex drive
is vastly more
than female sex drive,
it would mean
that men in general
will be grossly undersexed
and women in general
will be grossly oversexed.
Because,
if we assume
men cannot remain faithful,
and female sex drive to be lower,
the residue in this equation
would be
some women
fucking every single thing
that moves in pants!!!
but I keep hearing
feminazi remarks like
"Men cannot remain faithful"
If that is truly so,
I wonder who have men
been unfaithful with?
If not women,
we men must have been
busy fucking
amongst ourselves!!!
Assuming we can
quantify the sex drive
of human males
and human females,
and we aggregate
the sum total
of human sex drive,
subtracting commercial sex
and criminal sex,
then the nett sex drives
of human males
and human females
will be about zero
in consenting sex.
If it is true that men
cannot remain faithful,
which therefore implies
that male sex drive
is vastly more
than female sex drive,
it would mean
that men in general
will be grossly undersexed
and women in general
will be grossly oversexed.
Because,
if we assume
men cannot remain faithful,
and female sex drive to be lower,
the residue in this equation
would be
some women
fucking every single thing
that moves in pants!!!
20070627
1300 HRS JUNE27TH 2007
What's this big deal
about commiting suicide anyway?
Just what is so good
about staying alive?
Why live,
when we can die?
Life consists of
joys and pains.
Given any joy
we soon get bored.
Pain never ever
turns into boredom.
Just why should
Life be so sacred?
Why is it against
any social or religious laws
to terminate one's own life
volunatarily?
Why preach to me
about freedom of
an individual,
yet he is bound
by the society he belongs,
by the institution he belongs,
by the religion he belongs.
Ironically,
his life does not belong
to himself.
I doubt animals
are capable of
entertaining
suicide thoughts.
So I gather
commiting suicide
is being
a higher life form,
and rightfully
the best and unique
human choice
of death
about commiting suicide anyway?
Just what is so good
about staying alive?
Why live,
when we can die?
Life consists of
joys and pains.
Given any joy
we soon get bored.
Pain never ever
turns into boredom.
Just why should
Life be so sacred?
Why is it against
any social or religious laws
to terminate one's own life
volunatarily?
Why preach to me
about freedom of
an individual,
yet he is bound
by the society he belongs,
by the institution he belongs,
by the religion he belongs.
Ironically,
his life does not belong
to himself.
I doubt animals
are capable of
entertaining
suicide thoughts.
So I gather
commiting suicide
is being
a higher life form,
and rightfully
the best and unique
human choice
of death
20070626
1045HRS JUNE 26TH 2007
Strange how people talk about
living to a ripe old age.
Seems like when one reaches
a ripe old age,
one is progressively useless
to his friends and family,
he wastes the time of others
he wastes his own time
awaiting death.
He becomes a stranger
to those around him
and to himself
no longer the man
he used to be.
All potential possibilities
in Life
are totally exhausted
and now rendered
impossible.
He makes way
and steps aside
as society charges ahead
of him,
no longer able to cope
with new developments
in technology
and changing values
in society.
I think,
death comes to us
alot earlier
than death itself.
I think there reaches a time
when everyone of us
feels death
already in us
well before we
actually die.
Thus it seems to me,
a ripe old age
for dying
is proabably around
43
living to a ripe old age.
Seems like when one reaches
a ripe old age,
one is progressively useless
to his friends and family,
he wastes the time of others
he wastes his own time
awaiting death.
He becomes a stranger
to those around him
and to himself
no longer the man
he used to be.
All potential possibilities
in Life
are totally exhausted
and now rendered
impossible.
He makes way
and steps aside
as society charges ahead
of him,
no longer able to cope
with new developments
in technology
and changing values
in society.
I think,
death comes to us
alot earlier
than death itself.
I think there reaches a time
when everyone of us
feels death
already in us
well before we
actually die.
Thus it seems to me,
a ripe old age
for dying
is proabably around
43
20070625
1110 HRS JUNE 24TH 2007
Had a talk
with the doctor yesterday.
He made it clear,
that Dad will NOT
be put on life support machines,
even if he needs it,
to stay alive.
It is simply hospital policy
in this country,
that if in clinical opinion,
that the patient cannot recover
from the life support system,
they will not put him in.
Dementia patients
almost always get pneumonia
and they die
of asphyxia.
If the DNR form was not signed,
the hospital will be compelled
to give maximum ward attention,
to my Dad,
which is what
I demanded.
Why then the DNR form?
Maximum ward attention
as opposed to what?
To give minimal or no attention
when an elderly patient
is asphyxiated?
Speaking of life support systems,
why are doctors here
even making clinical opinions
that a patient cannot recover
from the machine,
without even trying?
It would make alot of difference
to me,
if my Dad was put
on life support system,
for months,
and I could see
for myself,
that he was degenerating
further
into a vegetable,
and that he could never
live a normal human life
again.
with the doctor yesterday.
He made it clear,
that Dad will NOT
be put on life support machines,
even if he needs it,
to stay alive.
It is simply hospital policy
in this country,
that if in clinical opinion,
that the patient cannot recover
from the life support system,
they will not put him in.
Dementia patients
almost always get pneumonia
and they die
of asphyxia.
If the DNR form was not signed,
the hospital will be compelled
to give maximum ward attention,
to my Dad,
which is what
I demanded.
Why then the DNR form?
Maximum ward attention
as opposed to what?
To give minimal or no attention
when an elderly patient
is asphyxiated?
Speaking of life support systems,
why are doctors here
even making clinical opinions
that a patient cannot recover
from the machine,
without even trying?
It would make alot of difference
to me,
if my Dad was put
on life support system,
for months,
and I could see
for myself,
that he was degenerating
further
into a vegetable,
and that he could never
live a normal human life
again.
20070623
1905 HRS JUNE 23RD 2007
I just came back
visiting my Dad
at the hospital.
Apparently,
the family have to sign,
a "Do Not Resuscitate" form.
Should medical opinion
decide that
there is little chance
of recovery,
the family can permission
the doctors,
to let him die
peacefully.
Just what kind
of animal slaughterers
are they turning
into medical doctors
these days?
I thought their job
is to save lives
within all medical means,
and not let people die!!!
These fuckers
belong to a pig farm,
and not a hospital!!!
I WILL NOT PLAY GOD.
It is God's decision
to take away lives,
I will never make
that decision,
least of all
on my father's life.
I am given a choice now,
to either keep my father alive,
no matter how remote
his eventual chances are,
no matter if I am
just postponing
the inevitable death
or
letting my father die.
I WILL NOT PLAY GOD.
I don't care
about financial considerations,
I will sell my body parts
to raise money
but I will not
be the one to decide
to kill my own father.
If there is a God,
on Judgement Day,
I will stand before Him
and let it be known,
that I did all I can
to prolong
my father's life
and pray for a miracle.
I will not be the one
to take the easy
and cheap option
and convieniently
let my father die.
If it is in divine will,
that I bankrupt myself
to do the right thing
for my father,
its the cross
that I have to bear.
If the hospital is compelled
to make a decision
so that medical resources
can be given to others,
let this government be judged
for increasing the population
with no corresponding increase
in medical infrastructure.
To add insult,
to this injury,
both my sister and
even my mother,
thought I was crazy.
How can we be
from the same biological family
and have such radically
opposing views?
I should take a DNA test
to be sure.
That fucking sister of mine,
actually insisted on
"Do Not Resusitate" consent
even before the doctors
raised the issue!!!
Its like she cannot wait
for Dad to die!!!
visiting my Dad
at the hospital.
Apparently,
the family have to sign,
a "Do Not Resuscitate" form.
Should medical opinion
decide that
there is little chance
of recovery,
the family can permission
the doctors,
to let him die
peacefully.
Just what kind
of animal slaughterers
are they turning
into medical doctors
these days?
I thought their job
is to save lives
within all medical means,
and not let people die!!!
These fuckers
belong to a pig farm,
and not a hospital!!!
I WILL NOT PLAY GOD.
It is God's decision
to take away lives,
I will never make
that decision,
least of all
on my father's life.
I am given a choice now,
to either keep my father alive,
no matter how remote
his eventual chances are,
no matter if I am
just postponing
the inevitable death
or
letting my father die.
I WILL NOT PLAY GOD.
I don't care
about financial considerations,
I will sell my body parts
to raise money
but I will not
be the one to decide
to kill my own father.
If there is a God,
on Judgement Day,
I will stand before Him
and let it be known,
that I did all I can
to prolong
my father's life
and pray for a miracle.
I will not be the one
to take the easy
and cheap option
and convieniently
let my father die.
If it is in divine will,
that I bankrupt myself
to do the right thing
for my father,
its the cross
that I have to bear.
If the hospital is compelled
to make a decision
so that medical resources
can be given to others,
let this government be judged
for increasing the population
with no corresponding increase
in medical infrastructure.
To add insult,
to this injury,
both my sister and
even my mother,
thought I was crazy.
How can we be
from the same biological family
and have such radically
opposing views?
I should take a DNA test
to be sure.
That fucking sister of mine,
actually insisted on
"Do Not Resusitate" consent
even before the doctors
raised the issue!!!
Its like she cannot wait
for Dad to die!!!
20070620
1215 HRS JUNE 20TH 2007
"I disapprove
of what you said,
but I will defend
to the death
your right
to say it"
Voltaire, french philosopher.
All my years as
a rebellious teenager
and an angry young man,
I fought for
freedom of speech.
I believed
freedom of expression
is a
basic human right.
It is still a value
that I cherish.
However,
on a personal level,
I sometimes think
that freedom of expression
should be curbed.
I respect that you should
speak your mind,
but not without reservation.
Ask yourself first,
will what you say,
have a positive impact?
Does it edify
the soul?
Does it stimulate
the intellect?
Does it improve
the congenial environment
between friends?
Just what did you set
yourself out to achieve
when you said
what you just said?
Were you hoping,
for a change
for the better?
Or was it
just a malicious spite
out of underlying hostility.
of what you said,
but I will defend
to the death
your right
to say it"
Voltaire, french philosopher.
All my years as
a rebellious teenager
and an angry young man,
I fought for
freedom of speech.
I believed
freedom of expression
is a
basic human right.
It is still a value
that I cherish.
However,
on a personal level,
I sometimes think
that freedom of expression
should be curbed.
I respect that you should
speak your mind,
but not without reservation.
Ask yourself first,
will what you say,
have a positive impact?
Does it edify
the soul?
Does it stimulate
the intellect?
Does it improve
the congenial environment
between friends?
Just what did you set
yourself out to achieve
when you said
what you just said?
Were you hoping,
for a change
for the better?
Or was it
just a malicious spite
out of underlying hostility.
20070619
1055 HRS JUNE 19TH 2007
I've been doing a little
of introspection,
for some reason
for the first time
in a long time
18 years to be exact,
I am actually truly
enjoying singlehood.
Not so much
that I am bent on
being a life long bachelor.
I'm just dead tired
of giving my all
to a woman.
And it is always
not good enough.
Not that I want
to evade
the responsibilities
of protecting
and providing
for a family,
I actually think
that it makes living
meaningful and worthwhile,
I'm just beginning to conclude
that most women
I meet
are not worth marrying
anyway.
Its not that I am searching
for a Zhang ZiYi
to marry,
just that I am surrounded
by money grabbing gold digging bitches,
or angmor cock sucking sluts,
or plainly uninteresting.
Not that I do not want
to share my life
and all that I worked for
with a woman,
just that I find
modern women's emphasis
on love and chemistry
a fantasy derived directly
from girly romantic novels.
Such love,
which I interprete as passion,
and chemistry,
lasts a few minutes
to a few months,
hardly years
or a life time.
I rather they look for
intelligence,
strong set of value systems,
apptitude, attitude, respect,
loving kindness,
attributes that can secure
a life long partnership
and commitment
for a family life
to flourish.
Given our local
Women's Charter
and the quality of women
I meet,
I can't help but think of
bachelorhood
as Liberation for Men.
of introspection,
for some reason
for the first time
in a long time
18 years to be exact,
I am actually truly
enjoying singlehood.
Not so much
that I am bent on
being a life long bachelor.
I'm just dead tired
of giving my all
to a woman.
And it is always
not good enough.
Not that I want
to evade
the responsibilities
of protecting
and providing
for a family,
I actually think
that it makes living
meaningful and worthwhile,
I'm just beginning to conclude
that most women
I meet
are not worth marrying
anyway.
Its not that I am searching
for a Zhang ZiYi
to marry,
just that I am surrounded
by money grabbing gold digging bitches,
or angmor cock sucking sluts,
or plainly uninteresting.
Not that I do not want
to share my life
and all that I worked for
with a woman,
just that I find
modern women's emphasis
on love and chemistry
a fantasy derived directly
from girly romantic novels.
Such love,
which I interprete as passion,
and chemistry,
lasts a few minutes
to a few months,
hardly years
or a life time.
I rather they look for
intelligence,
strong set of value systems,
apptitude, attitude, respect,
loving kindness,
attributes that can secure
a life long partnership
and commitment
for a family life
to flourish.
Given our local
Women's Charter
and the quality of women
I meet,
I can't help but think of
bachelorhood
as Liberation for Men.
20070618
2310 HRS JUNE 18TH 2007
I've found a new hobby.
Drift Drive Racing
right here in Swingabore.
300 horse power
the rev of turbines
the torque of turbochargers
roar of engines
screeching brakes
burning rubber and asphalt
killer machines tearing down
the track,
man and his machine
in precision overdrive.
I fell in love.
Sonofabitch,
I've wasted all my life.
Thats the way
cars should be driven.
Thats the way
I'm gonna drive my car.
They should teach that
in driving school,
the roads will be a
much safer place
if everyone handles a car
like a stunt driver.
Drift Drive Racing
right here in Swingabore.
300 horse power
the rev of turbines
the torque of turbochargers
roar of engines
screeching brakes
burning rubber and asphalt
killer machines tearing down
the track,
man and his machine
in precision overdrive.
I fell in love.
Sonofabitch,
I've wasted all my life.
Thats the way
cars should be driven.
Thats the way
I'm gonna drive my car.
They should teach that
in driving school,
the roads will be a
much safer place
if everyone handles a car
like a stunt driver.
20070616
1630 HRS JUNE 16TH 2007
I don't know
what is it about this place
Swingabore.
Somehow,
people have a tendency
to believe everything
they read.
There is simply no respect
for the alternative view.
I suspect
because of
the authoritarian rule
of the government,
it has created this society
where the official line
is forcefully dictated,
exorted and executed.
No differential opinion
is tolerated.
Never a gentlemen's attitude
of agreeing
to disagree.
Even worse than
not tolerating
alternative view,
there is always this tendency
of put downs,
of one uppance,
of brinksmanship.
Singaporeans are
simply unable
to express their views
without putting others down.
It is simply impossible,
to talk without
resorting to insults
and name calling
and issuing ultimatums.
Sometimes even
blackmails,
often emotional.
Guess the old man
created this society
where its either my way
or the by way.
People don't realise,
that by resorting to
put downs and insults,
you really don't
prove your point,
but merely serve
to illustrate
your own inadequacies
and not having
the maturity
to embrace
the diversity
of thought
the human race
have to provide
what is it about this place
Swingabore.
Somehow,
people have a tendency
to believe everything
they read.
There is simply no respect
for the alternative view.
I suspect
because of
the authoritarian rule
of the government,
it has created this society
where the official line
is forcefully dictated,
exorted and executed.
No differential opinion
is tolerated.
Never a gentlemen's attitude
of agreeing
to disagree.
Even worse than
not tolerating
alternative view,
there is always this tendency
of put downs,
of one uppance,
of brinksmanship.
Singaporeans are
simply unable
to express their views
without putting others down.
It is simply impossible,
to talk without
resorting to insults
and name calling
and issuing ultimatums.
Sometimes even
blackmails,
often emotional.
Guess the old man
created this society
where its either my way
or the by way.
People don't realise,
that by resorting to
put downs and insults,
you really don't
prove your point,
but merely serve
to illustrate
your own inadequacies
and not having
the maturity
to embrace
the diversity
of thought
the human race
have to provide
20070615
1110 HRS JUNE 15TH 2007
This Sunday is Father's Day.
I wrote this blog
3 years ago,
circa 1115 HRS JUNE 21ST 2004.
I still feel the same way,
so thought,
I'll just cut and paste.
I may not be lucky enough
to experience
fatherhood,
but in my mind,
this is the father,
I want to be
if ever given
a chance,
although I
seriously doubt now.
Anyone can be a father.
but it takes a real man,
to be a Daddy.
People do fall out of love.
I know how it feels.
But even if I stop
loving a woman as my wife,
I will never stop
loving her as mother
of my children.
Children maybe
a product of screwing.
But they ain't lightbulbs
that you can unscrew.
The marriage may be over.
But though you stopped
being a husband,
you cannot stop
being a father.
And being a fantasy Dad
isn't a solution.
A fantasy Dad
is one
who sees the kids
once a week
and spoils them rotten
lavish them
with gifts.
A Daddy is one
who imparts
a sense of value system
in the child.
He is a good disciplinarian,
but allows the kids
to make mistakes,
learn from them,
most importantly,
apply lessons learnt.
He teaches the kids
survival skills in Life,
make them appreciate things they have,
and never take things
for granted.
He leads as a male role model,
by example.
He extracts
the best
out of them.
Maximises
their potential.
He protects them
even by putting his own safety
on the line
to keep them safe.
He sacrifices
his personal happiness
for them.
The Greatest Quality
of A Father's love
is
UNCONDITIONAL
I wrote this blog
3 years ago,
circa 1115 HRS JUNE 21ST 2004.
I still feel the same way,
so thought,
I'll just cut and paste.
I may not be lucky enough
to experience
fatherhood,
but in my mind,
this is the father,
I want to be
if ever given
a chance,
although I
seriously doubt now.
Anyone can be a father.
but it takes a real man,
to be a Daddy.
People do fall out of love.
I know how it feels.
But even if I stop
loving a woman as my wife,
I will never stop
loving her as mother
of my children.
Children maybe
a product of screwing.
But they ain't lightbulbs
that you can unscrew.
The marriage may be over.
But though you stopped
being a husband,
you cannot stop
being a father.
And being a fantasy Dad
isn't a solution.
A fantasy Dad
is one
who sees the kids
once a week
and spoils them rotten
lavish them
with gifts.
A Daddy is one
who imparts
a sense of value system
in the child.
He is a good disciplinarian,
but allows the kids
to make mistakes,
learn from them,
most importantly,
apply lessons learnt.
He teaches the kids
survival skills in Life,
make them appreciate things they have,
and never take things
for granted.
He leads as a male role model,
by example.
He extracts
the best
out of them.
Maximises
their potential.
He protects them
even by putting his own safety
on the line
to keep them safe.
He sacrifices
his personal happiness
for them.
The Greatest Quality
of A Father's love
is
UNCONDITIONAL
20070614
1315 HRS JUNE 14TH 2007
Respect is such a cornerstone
in any human relationship.
I've been observing
my American friend Mr P
and his Thai wife Khun W.
Mr P never ever gives up
any opportunity
to have a go,
at the Thais,
making derogatory remarks
about Thai people,
Thai culture,
Thai religion,
Thai politics,
Thai economics.
I wonder what
do they see
in each other
in the first place?
If you cannot love
a person's culture,
how could you love
that person?
I'd like to marry someone
whom I both respect and admire.
How do you marry someone
whose race you actually dispise?
If you dispise
the way your wife
was brought up
in her family,
how could you want
your daughter
to be brought up
by your wife?
And just what
did she see in him?
Did she respect him
because of his BMW?
How did that happen?
I respect someone
for his intelligence,
kindness,
strong moral values,
dignity and integrity.
Can I respect him
because of his BMW?
Even more perplexing,
are people who are ashamed
of their own race.
If you don't know
where you came from,
how can you know
where you're going to?
Can you respect and admire
a person who
thinks your people
are stupid?
Even if you agree with him?
I like to feel calm,
peaceful and relaxed
when I am with
the woman I love.
How do I feel calm,
peaceful and relaxed
with her
if she dispises
my family?
in any human relationship.
I've been observing
my American friend Mr P
and his Thai wife Khun W.
Mr P never ever gives up
any opportunity
to have a go,
at the Thais,
making derogatory remarks
about Thai people,
Thai culture,
Thai religion,
Thai politics,
Thai economics.
I wonder what
do they see
in each other
in the first place?
If you cannot love
a person's culture,
how could you love
that person?
I'd like to marry someone
whom I both respect and admire.
How do you marry someone
whose race you actually dispise?
If you dispise
the way your wife
was brought up
in her family,
how could you want
your daughter
to be brought up
by your wife?
And just what
did she see in him?
Did she respect him
because of his BMW?
How did that happen?
I respect someone
for his intelligence,
kindness,
strong moral values,
dignity and integrity.
Can I respect him
because of his BMW?
Even more perplexing,
are people who are ashamed
of their own race.
If you don't know
where you came from,
how can you know
where you're going to?
Can you respect and admire
a person who
thinks your people
are stupid?
Even if you agree with him?
I like to feel calm,
peaceful and relaxed
when I am with
the woman I love.
How do I feel calm,
peaceful and relaxed
with her
if she dispises
my family?
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