20050613

1535 hrs June 13th 2005

When I retrospect

and introspect,

my source of paranoia,

is my history with

women in my past.

The result of this paranoia,

are fears.

Fear of Betrayal

Fear of Abandonment.

I maybe undergoing

psychiatric treatment,

but no shrink

is gonna cure this.

The cure

have to come

from within.

Because it follows,

that if I have forgiven

they who have caused

grevious hurt,

they who have caused

gross injustice,

they who have caused

unbearable pain,

then there would be

no more fears.

For Christ,

who has been betrayed

and abandoned,

could cry out to God,

forgive them for they know not

what they're doing,

so therein

lies healing.

So let the healing process

begin.

And let it begin,

with me.