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1440 hrs February 9th 2007

So here I am

once more

Back home

after 5 grueling weeks

in Hong Kong.

Alone and miserable in

Hong Kong

Alone and miserable in

Singapore.

Stuck in a long distance relationship

with an absentee girlfriend,

Coming back home

to a dying father.

I begin to think

about

SEX, DEATH, RELIGION.

Humans are naturally

driven

to have sex.

It is our primal instincts

and the reason being,

like in all living things,

to perpetuate

our species.

We want to reproduce

because it gives us

this sense of perpetuity.

Our biology is geared

towards attaining perpepuity.

Perpetuity in the form

of passing our genetic material

to the next generation,

and hopefully,

it goes on and on.

Asian races even have

a hangup about having sons

instead of daughters

so as to

"carry the family name".

True, many of us want to have sex

without having kids or

pass on our genetic material.

That is just social evolution

dictating

our social behaviour.

I'm referring to the psychology

behind the biology.

Inherently,

we fear death.

We do not want to die

or at least

live to a "ripe old age".

I've seen the terminally sick and elderly

in hospitals

who cling on to life

whilst suffering everyday,

like as though tomorrow

will be a better day.

Why not die?

Again, it is against

our biological makeup

to want to die.

When you see people dying

in a drowning incident,

you see the tremendous struggle

to stay alive.

When we are put,

in a potentiall fatal situation,

like a close shave from

a car accident,

we always get

traumatised

by the shock

of facing possible death.

We are biologically hardwired

to want to live

for as long

as we can

I suspect

it has to do

with perpetuating

our species.

Suicide cases

are psychology going ahead

of biology.

Why then,

is the appeal

of global religions?

Notice that all religions

promise

one form of life or the other

after death.

Therein lies

the appeal,

the promise

of perpetuity.

It is even a booming business

to sell products

promising youthful good looks,

the illusion of perpetuity.

In that aspect,

religion

is just a big jar

of FANCL TENSE UP

or Eu Yan San bird nest

with collagen.

All in the business

of perpetuity.

My guess is

I will feel equally good

just having sex,

lots of sex.