1015 HRS JUNE 13TH 2007

These days

when I think back

of the 3 major relationships

in my life,

I am no longer saddled

with sadness nor guilt.

If anything, relief.

It wasn't easy,

for 18 years,

I tried so hard

to please,

I tried so hard

to seek their approval,

I tried so hard

to win their love.

Now I've grown old,

my heart is old,

and cold.

From now on,

I make no apologies.

I am living for myself,

I am the only person

I seek to please.

I want nobody else's approval

but my very own.

Yes, I will be lonely at times,

but neither loneliness

nor solitude

is gonna hurt me.

I've sacrificed my life

all these years

to get lies, lies and more lies.

Not one of them

is honest.

Just lies,

pretty lies

from pretty faces.

No more,

I'm gonna find my way.

Even if I get lost,

its still my own way.

I've always enjoyed sharing

I've always enjoyed giving.

Now, I wanna feel

how's it like

to keep everything

for myself.

I'm stepping out

of the shadows

of my life,

into the pouring rain.

And I'm gonna run

like I never ran before.

Because henceforth,

I'd run alone.