1435 hrs June 16th 2004

Back to the blog

Was absent yesterday

Ms X at home

Had to service her

with pleasure of course

Just that I somehow

could not tell her about this blog

weird isn't it?

That you could not reveal

the darkest recesses

of the inner workings

of your mind

To the one you love.

Love is afterall

a mind game

JD Salinger in 'Catcher in the Rye'

"don't tell anybody everything

if you do,

you'd miss everybody"

I had lunch with a big shot yesterday

Chairman of big listed firm

He shocked me

He is everything I ever wanted to be

Successful, rich, intelligent

yet

calm, self-assured, humble, peaceful

I felt

loud, brash, arrogant, abrasive

in comparison

Still feel the need

to prove myself

to the world

What would a guy like him

have anything left to prove?

In words unspoken

he made me feel

like

a lump of dog shit

Boy,

do you have

a really very long way to go