20040804

1700 hrs August 4th 2004

I won't blame you

for leaving me,

if I lose my job,

become really poor,

and don't even

have the ability

to look after myself

let alone you.

I won't blame you,

for deserting me,

when my luck

takes a turn

for the worse,

when each new day

seems worse

than the previous.

I won't blame you

for the abandonment,

because I'm lost,

middle aged

and unemployable.

BUT

if I make it really good,

and have all the money

you ever dreamt,

plus all the 5 or 6 Cs

you ever craved,

just why the fuck

should I stay?