20060319

0120 hrs March 19th 2006

OK ok

I've been harsh

when I wrote of Dad,

calling love

a cheap fuck.

But that does not

in anyway

disqualifies me

from speaking

of love.

Believe me,

I thought alot about

this subject matter,

probably thought

a bit too much,

probably more

than other

subject matters.

For a start,

I believe

the are 3 essential

building blocks

of this thing

we call LOVE.

I call them,

(1) Intimacy

(2) Passion

(3) Commitment

In Intimacy,

I mean this nice

and warm feeling,

of liking a person's

companionship.

Where you can speak freely,

with understanding,

communication

and support.

Passion however,

is a more intense

form of longing,

characerised by

desire and longing,

usually manifested

by physical arousal.

Commitment is a devotion

to dedicate oneself

to his or her

partner,

seeking mutual happiness.

Now that we've drawn

the building blocks

of love,

lets examine how

they inter relate.

In a normal romantic love,

passion and intimacy

usually occur together.

Thereafter, the couple

decide to commit

to a future together

and we have all the hallmarks

of romantic love.

As opposed to infatuations,

where passion is strong,

but intimacy may be absent.

Or even if intimacy is present,

commitment is clearly not.

And when a woman says

she likes you,

but do not love you,

she meant, that the intimacy

is probably there.

She likes your company,

but feels no passion

and certainly no plans

for commitment.

Passion is a dangerous thing.

For some couples,

passion lasts a few months

some a few years,

a tiny minority,

a lifetime.

For most couples,

the passion wanes

after a while.

But they still enjoy

the companionship,

chatting together,

having dinners together.

And more importantly,

still dedicated

to their commitment.

I think of this

no passion, good intimacy, strong commitment

as a healthy and mature

relationship.

In this day and age,

many couples make the mistake,

of deciding that love is dead,

where the passion is gone.

No my dear,

love is not dead,

your marriage is not sick,

it merely went into

a more stable and sustainable phase.

You may not be screwing

at the backseat

of the car,

but you enjoy dinner

with your husband

after work

nonetheless.

But if BOTH passion

and intimacy is gone,

and only commitment is left.

Where you rather die,

than to make love to him.

Where you feel like poking

his eyes out

with your chopsticks

over dinner,

but feel stuck in the marriage

because of the children

or worse, a HDB flat,

thats where I call

a loveless marriage.

And of course,

there's the stupid married

for all the wrong reasons,

that is, no intimacy,

great passion,

and commitment.

Those who marry someone

whom they have nothing in common

to talk about,

other than great sex

and deciding that their commitment

is based on that.

A very lucky few,

have high passion, intimacy

and commitments

for a lifetime.

That's what movies are made of,

its a one in a million chance

that I won't bet for myself.

The better bet,

is the mature one

of little passion, but great intimacy

and strong commitment.

People do drift apart

and that's a fact.

Human relationships

are such

in nature.

We all had primary school friends

whom we thought

we would be friends

forever.

But people drift apart,

and it does not even

take a fight

to do so.

Our grand parents

know best.

In those days,

where people marry first

and fall in love

after that.

People get match made

and find reasons

to love

after the 6th kid

was born.

Our grand parents

know all about love.

They don't marry

because they were in love.

They marry

and found love

after years

of successful marriage.

We modern western educated fuckers

got it all wrong.

And don't email me,

feeling sorry

that I never experienced love.

I feel very fortunate,

to have experienced love

on 3 separate occasions.

Love and its failings

became such a preoccupation

of numerous analysis paralysis,

I'd do it again

and again.

Its quite fun

afterall