20060628

1350hrs June 28th 2006

Its funny how

well meaning friends

always advise,

"you deserve better than this".

That sounds nice

and reassuring.

A little bit

of ego massage.

But,

what if

I don't really

deserve any better

at all???

What if

this is

really as good

as it will

ever get?

What if

somehow God

has given all of us

just one chance

in our life

for marital and conjugal bliss,

and I've

already fucked it up?