2240 hrs July 29th 2004

Just came back from a drama.

Mum wanted me to attend

this evangelical play

staged by her church.

She wanted it so badly,

I thought

I'd be a good son,

for once.

Was reasonably well-crafted,

some impressive showmanship,

props, lightings, music.

But

it was downright irritating

afterall.

The unabashed use of

emotional blackmail

and scare tactics.

People tend to be bribed

with promises of Heaven.

People tend to be terrified

with horrors of Hell.

The appeal of

divine salvation

against

the repulsion of

eternal damnation.

God as a Father figure

extending unconditional love

towards his children

has its innate allure.

Except that

if I were ever a father,

no matter how bad my children were

I would never send them to Hell,

if paternal love is indeed

unconditional.

The simplicity

is almost

insulting.

I believe,

if God is Omnipotent.

It follows that

He created

Evil,

as much as

He created

Goodness.

If we are created

in His image,

it follows that

we had Evil

and Goodness,

programmed

into us.

Beauty is

He gave us

a choice.

To allow our Evil

or Goodness

to manifest

in our lives.

We would then

be held accountable,

for all our

words and actions.

We've been put in this World

to live on it,

not above it.

Nonetheless,

it was a good night out

with Mum.

She was absolutely delighted

to have her son around.

It warmed my heart,

but it also

made me feel,

like a lump of dogshit,

for not doing this

more often