0230 hrs March 21st 2005

So you came back,

asking or begging even,

for a reconcilation.

To patch things back

you said,

to work things out,

you said.

But I am not one

to judge a person

by words,

I can only judge

by your actions.

And your actions

suggest otherwise.

You even said YES

to my proposal of

marriage.

But it appears

you're merely

buying time.

What have I ever done,

to deserve this

vindictiveness?

What have I ever done,

to deserve this

malice?

Don't you shoulder

your part

of the blame?

But play your game

to perfection,

I would do

the same.

The trust is gone,

the respect is gone.

So what is left?

But a dogged refusal

to admit

another defeat,

and perhaps for you

free housing.

But I won't make

that decision.

It is yours

to make.

But I won't

be naive.

The decision was made

long ago.

I shall just

do my best,

give you the benefit

of a doubt.

Prevent it

from being

another self-fulfilling

prophesy.

I won't be guilty

of that.

I will still try

to win your heart.

If my love

is not enough,

let me be proven

yet again.

As long as I'm alive,

I'd keep trying.

Even if

it's a fool's card,

that I draw.

Let it be me,

to suffer the

losses,

I'm used to that.