1130 hrs March 21st 2005

Last night,

I was drunk.

This morning,

I am hungover.

But suddenly,

in a classic moment

of serendipity,

the clarity

both astounds

and hurts.

It has always been

difficult

for me to analyse

whenever emotions

are involved.

But I think

my visions are clearer now.

At the root of our problems

is different

RELATIONSHIP ASPIRATIONS.

I was muddled

and frustrated

and devastated,

because I was simply

not getting

the emotional response

I wanted

from you.

It should have been

so clear,

but I was both

blind

and

stupid.

Your words

and actions

do not reflect

of a woman

who loves me.

I'm sure someday,

a lucky man

would be a recipient

of your love,

but for now

my chances

are between

zero

and

fucking NONE.