20130805

0425 hrs 5th August 2013

It is clearer

than clear.

Too obvious.

After all that has been

said and done,

You and I

simply cannot

get along.

I do  not even want

to know you

as a mere acquaintance

let alone

a wife.

You are just not

the kind,

wonderful girl,

I married

6 years ago.

But you turned out

to be a

self absorbed

self centred

self preserving

domineering

rude

abusive

vile tempered

narcissistic

BITCH.

I should have known,

by the way

you treated

your uncle and sister.

But I was too blind.

I was warned

about your temper,

about your personality.

I brushed it aside,

thinking

how bad

can it ever get?

I was wrong,

dead wrong.

You turned out

far worse

than my worst

nightmares.

It has to happen,

we have to part.

I dread the thought

of spending

another minute

with you.

I feel really sorry

for my son.

If only you

will just give him up

to me,

and go lead your life

find a new man

start a new family

live in another country.

Just so that

I don't ever

have to see you

or even hear anything

about you.

I prefer

to be single for life

than spend another minute

with you.

Seeing how you

mistreated me,

when I provided

a good lifestyle for you

to brag about,

when I provided

for your siblings'

education

when I loaned

your parents $220k

to buy land in Danang,

when no rich uncle or auntie

would even lend a cent,

I hate to imagine

how you will mistreat me

the day I can no longer work

and dependent on you.

I never asked

you for much.

All I ask,

is some peace

in the house.

But you never pass up

a chance

of going ballistic

over any

non issue.

You were not there for me,

when I first received

my exam results,

I felt like the biggest idiot

the exam results

meant so much to me,

I slogged so hard

to pass.

It meant the world to me

to have my wife

by my side

when I receive

the results,

but you rather

be on Facebook.

And I had to share

my joys

with Anthony Lim.

How more pathetic

can it get?

What is the meaning

of having a wife

by your side?

When I was suffering

in pain

from diverticulitis

the first person

I called

was you,

my wife.

What did you do?

Went Clarke Quay

and got totally drunk.

I had to carry you home.

When I am unemployed

worried sick

about money,

refused even to go

to the hospital

because my hospitalisation insurance

was not approved yet,

suffered in pain,

you showed absolutely

no care

nor concern.

Said if I can't take care of myself,

I deserved it.

Wow, Dr Kelly Van

specialist in Diverticulitis.

Of course,

you went ahead,

bought yourself

LV wallet

Coach wallet

Miu Miu sunglasses.

With the money,

that was meant

for my son's

education.

Way before all these happened,

I already decided,

that when Van-Dylan

is all grown

and self supporting

be the good public prosecutor

 I dreamed him to be,

I would leave

both of you.

And go die alone

up the mountains

of Nepal

smoke pot

and die

alone

instead of having you

screaming at me

abusing me

insulting me

whilst I lay motionless

on my death bed.


Enough said,

I feel

nauseous

you make me sick