20130804

2250 hrs 4th August 2013

Oh God,

I don't know

what to do.

I can't think

I can't feel

It happened so often

I really don't know

If I can go through it

again.

She is just so awful

as a person

I can't believe

I took her

as my wife

and

mother

of my kid.

Right now,

try as I may

I just can't think

of any

human goodness

in her.

I honestly never met

another person

who is so rude

have the least cares

or consideration

for the feelings

of others.

Any kindness

she shows

to another

only serves

her own purposes.

She seeks to

influence the person

and totally

utterly

dominate.

She craves power

over others.

She will do anything

to impress

decked with jewellery

and branded bags

and shoes.

Everything

is a bragging right.

She is more interested

in painting

a picture perfect life

to be envied

on Facebook

than actual

reality.


And the way

she runs others down.

Openly insulting

crudely abusive

explicitly vulgar.

She worships her 3rd Aunt

in Brisbane.

And I can see why.

She uses money

to intimidate

belittle

squash any ego

that crosses her path.

Its like a bad

role model.

In generic terms,

She is a BITCH

and she actually enjoys

and savours every opportunity

to be a bitch.

I can't for my dear life fathom

how someone

whose entire self esteem

is contingent

on being envied

and worshiped even.

Nobody in the office

likes her,

All her siblings

avoid contact with her.

Her sister in laws

won't even accord her

a hello.

Her parents

adore her

because she takes pride

in being a good daughter

but not a good sister

nor good friend

or good husband

Maybe in her warped mind

a good mother.

Get real,

you are not a Princess

and people around you

are not your subjects.

Oh God,

you should see

her tyranny

towards the maid.

Absolutely disgusting.

I honestly

cannot think

of a single reason

to love her.

Other than she

providing me a son.

Whom I really

cannot bear

to lose.

I tried so hard

God knows how hard

I tried.

To ignore

her goadings

to avoid

any conflicts

or confrontation even.

I just can't win.

And her bargaining chip

is always

my son.

It truly made me wonder

if the boy

will amount to anything

with a mother

as obnoxious

as that