When I think about it
as I have been
the past 4 days,
both the diagnosis
and prognosis
are not good.
You, my dear
are quite simply
a NARCISSIST.
You have
an overtly grandiose
opinion
of yourself.
You have this incredibly
huge sense
of Entitlement.
Nothing ever
satisfies you.
I suppose when
I first met you,
you were impressed by
the penthouse,
the Porsche,
the boat.
They looked good,
when you post pictures
on Facebook.
When all that is gone,
you repeatedly
called me LOSER
inspite of the $1 million
cash, in your name
Which you had
eroded rather quickly.
I should have known,
when you demanded
I sell the penthouse
even when the market was depressed
because you wanted
to buy land in Danang.
And you said,
you needed "face"
to show that you own land
in Vietnam.
You crave
admiration.
Not respect.
You crave
envy.
Not love.
You are addicted
to belittling others
to demeaning others
because it makes
you feel good
about yourself.
You even laughed
when your best friend Ha
asked you why
you scolded her
all morning.
I know why,
because scolding others
putting others down
is a power trip
for you.
Even your boss
said he felt hurt
about certain remarks
you made.
He said nobody
wants to be close to you
in the office,
because of the way
you volunteer
your criticisms.
Whenever something
goes against
that Facebook picture perfect
image of your life,
you go into
wild
unfettered rage.
You seem
to want to
be a good daughter
only because
it makes you feel good
to be more approved
by your parents
instead of
your siblings.
You sacrifice
for the betterment
in terms of education
for your siblings
but in return
you want to be
lord and master
over their lives.
Everything around you,
must go through
your royal approval
otherwise
you go nuts.
If anything
or anyone,
goes against
your princess aura
you turn
violently
punishing.
How dare you???
Go back to your place
and grovel at my feet.
I suspect
the only reason
you want a child
is to add
to your notion
of
perfect Vietnamese woman
Van-Dylan and I
are nothing more
than ego fuel
for you.
You
are simply
incapable
of loving others
you love yourself
too much.
Any love or kindness
you show to others
is merely
to feel good
about yourself
and more of
you want
ego stroking
in return.
Honestly,
I don't think
you can ever change.
Short of
a real life
traumatic experience.
Grow up
because
I had enough
of living in fear
not exactly sure
what will trigger
your next attack.
I had enough
of living life
in constant vigilance
having to be careful
of every word
I speak
of every thought
in my mind
to the point
I don't tell you
a single thing
in my mind.
Coming from a man,
whose opinions are
well sought after
by people
all around,
it is disconcerting
to be
a silent partner
at home.
Do yourself a favour,
having Van-Dylan custody
is only a vengeance
because you know
it really hurts me
more than anything else
not to be with him.
Go search for another man
to boost ;your ego
and having Van-Dylan around
is not going to improve your odds
Give him to me.
