1040 HRS May 3RD 2007

Let's stop bullshitting ourselves.

Ours was not

a relationship.

It was no more

than an extended 4 year long

domestic partnership

No more than just

a sleeping arrangement.

Don't you even dare

call me

an ex-boyfriend.

I think of you

as merely a former

fuck buddy

and not very good either.

You treated me

like a lump

of dried out dogshit.

Don't insult the word

Love.

When a woman says

she loves me,

I expect both

her words

and actions

to reflect that love.

On both counts

you failed.

All my life,

I never had a girlfriend,

who did not bother to call

me on my birthday.

Let alone

a birthday gift.

Last Christmas,

I bought you

an LV.

Shortly after,

on your 30th birthday,

I bought you

a Tiffany.

I had them couriered

to Jakarta.

You did not even

have the common courtesy

to call and acknowledge receipt

let alone say thanks.

I was so damn worried

that the shipment

got lost.

It took you 3 days

to answer an sms

from me.

Don't try to ease

your conscience

that you did not leave me

for another man.

You knew this guy

been pursuing you

for months,

you merely kept me

hanging on.

And used rude behaviour

to force me

into a decision.

There is no difference

between leaving me

for another man,

or leaving me

with the intention

of finding another man.

Just get the fuck

and stay the fuck

out of my life.