1055 HRS MAY 15TH 2007

If there is anything at all

this we learnt from history,

is that

we never learnt anything

from history

at all.

I suspect

it is against human nature

to learn from

the bad experiences

of others.

The high rate

of delinquency

amongst children

from broken families,

is a well documented fact

and both common knowledge

and common sense.

But I see parents repeatedly

subjecting their children

through this trauma

at very impressionable ages

of their kids' lives,

because they tell their husbands

the standard end of story

"I do not love you anymore".

It is frightening

when love goes bad.

Somehow, a wife

can see absolutely nothing good

in her husband,

absolutely none whatsover.

The things that used to endear

suddenly becomes

a constant source

of irritation.

Tender loving care

suddenly gets perceived

as needy and clingy

or no fucking backbone.

Saving the marriage,

is actually counter productive

for him.

Everything he does

is wrong.

Everything he didn't do

is also wrong.

Even if he strikes TOTO today

and becomes an instant milionaire,

by tomorrow she'd be cursing

its only one million.

When she can spend hours

at marriage counselling,

with a closed mind

and closed heart.

She showed up

only to ease

her conscience

that for the record,

she did try

to save the marriage,

she even went

for counselling.

She rather be

somewhere else,

like in the arms

of somebody else,

anybody else

but him.

Will she live to regret

the decision?

Her friends and family

may despair,

but certainly not her.

Like my ex-wife once said,

"Even if I live to regret

my decision,

I know it is something

I have to do,

I don't want to live

the rest of my life

wondering what could

have been"

Hell cannot stop

the curiosity

or determination

of a woman

who wants to know

what is life outside

her marriage.

And they will always

rationalise their decisions.

7 years later,

my ex-wife

bought a 3 room HDB flat

with my money.

Please lah,

wanna find angmor

find one that will

at least pay for housing la,

still gotta need your ex-husband

to house you.

I feel alive now

she said.

My elder sister's son

is a school drop out,

after being savagely beaten up

by her butch lover

(actually became a police case).

But my two daughters are ok

she said.

Its not mine to judge,

if you can't find happiness

in our marriage,

please go find your happiness

elsewhere.

No point staying unhappy

in this marriage,

for whatever reason

you're staying

and punishing me

for the rest

of my life.

This house of mine

is not a prison,

you're welcome to

stay or go

if you wish.

If you think so poorly of me,

I owe it to myself,

to savage whatever's left

of my dignity

and self respect

to let you go.

In fact,

I'd even

pack your bags

for you.