1145 HRS MAY 21ST 2007

Its hard for me

to understand,

this emotional dependency

people call Love.

Some people

seem to think of love

as wanting to be together

with their partners

all day long.

They just want to cuddle

as much as humanly possible.

Well, I do cuddle

my cat too.

But is that love?

Some of them like the feeling

of their heart skipping a beat,

when they see their partners.

I think of that sort of feeling

as juvenile,

last experienced

as a teenager

25 years ago.

Love have to be

more than just a feeling.

Heart skipping a beat

or wanting physical intimacy

is no more than just

a passion,

and passion seldom lasts.

It is probably

just a good start

for actual love to grow.

I wonder if people

are really in love,

or just in love with

the whole idea of being

in love.

I think of love

as a living thing,

as my partner

being part of my overall personality.

Where together,

we develop and grow

spiritually as humans.

But we cannot grow,

if we're so dependent

on each other's presence.

We go on with our individual lives

as independent people,

but nourish our souls

when we're together.

We still have our lives

with our individual families,

we still have our lives

with our individual friends.

Ah well,

the fuck I know