0215 HRS APRIL 30TH 2007

I can't sleep.

I tried but kept feeling

a strange out of the body

experience.

I felt myself

leaving my own body,

and looking at the man

that I am,

and trying to be

the man that

I want to be.

I've been bitter,

that I've tried so hard

to win love

but only lost,

all that I worked for

in life,

I had no one

to share with.

All that I am

was not good enough,

my love

was not good enough.

I longed for

the acceptance

of one woman,

whom I will love

as she loves me.

She loves me,

not only for the man

that I am,

but also the man

that I want to be.

A kind, happy, gentle,

self-assured,

righteous,

calm, peaceful

quietly confident man.

It does not matter

how many times

love have failed me.

Love is always new.

It can take me to heaven

or it can take me to hell,

but it always take me

some place new.

I have to accept

the gift of love,

because it nourishes

Life.

I cannot be enslaved,

by the failures

of my past.

I cannot judge

my future loves

by the sufferings

of my past.

Each new love,

writes its own rules,

its own book.

Love is good,

no matter where

it comes from.

If I reject love,

my soul dies

a slow death,

because I lacked

the courage

to pluck

the fruits of love

from the tree of Life.

Love is Life.